I AM BACKKK
my first blog post as a mother??? WILD
wow don't even know what to say about the past 4 months. yes, she turns 4 months in just 10 days! time kind of flies. i say kind of because i absolutely did not have fun the first month. but things got significantly better after she turned 2 months.
my last day of work was... 26 Mar i think? decided to stay home after around 37 weeks so i didn't have to worry about popping at work. the last part of pregnancy was quite sian, woke up every day surprised i was still pregnant and not daring to venture outside too much in case i popped, and i was also physically perspiring buckets all the time even with the a/c on at night.
i opted to get sliced open in the end as she went to 40 weeks with zero dilation or signs of labour. gynae mentioned her head was also in a suboptimal but still an okay position for labour. i appreciate that he still brought it to my attn cos he rly wanted me to get induced, but i was afraid of being in labour for hours and needing an emergency c-sec in the end, plus sherwin had a bz work week ahead and a c-sec would allow him to still be able to spend time with her before monday.
checking in to tmc went quite smoothly, room was nice and big and clean. i wasn't really nervous until before the op when they got me dressed (or undressed?) and wheeled me in. op itself went quickly, and i fell asleep while they were stitching me up but started shivering from the anasthesia when i was back in my ward.
so bb Bernice was finally born on 20.04.24 looking very nice and pink and screaming as she was forcefully evicted from her nice dark cozy home. coming in hot at 3.33kg and 51cm long, she was discharged after 2 days and fortunately only had mild jaundice which went away after less than 2 weeks. so far, she seems to have a nice calm temperament but she WILL scream for sleep...
my recovery went smoothly as it could. i was able to walk veryyy slowly carrying her out on my day of discharge and felt much better after 4 days, and probably around back to normal after 3-4 weeks.
for lack of a better description i h8ed confinement. haha. altho my CN was chill about me leaving the house during confinement, i did not like the food, or having to live w a stranger. not to mention getting used to suddenly having and taking care of a fragile newborn baby. it's really round-the-clock care.
fast forward to now and it's soooo much better. she's reacting and interacting with us and we can read her cries now. plus after they pack on the baby fat they don't look like aliens anymore, they're sooo cute and huggable!!!
and it's true when you're in the thick of it that it feels like the end will never come. i felt like confinement passed soooooooo slowly, i was counting every single day and it felt like 4 weeks would never end.
im also grateful to have had lots of help, after confinement we moved to my inlaws (i didn't want to, sherwin insisted, and anyway we had to move cos we don't have an infant care slot til november) and their helper has been quite a lifesaver with taking care of bern and i could leave house anytime i wanted without bringing bb along. mostly i stayed home tho, cos i miss her when im not with her and i know i won't be able to see her at all once i go back to work - and that's in less than 2 days omg. can't believe i'm going back to work.....
there's definitely too many ppl in the hse tho haha although they play w her a lot sometimes i do think she looks like she could benefit from some alone time. and i as well 😬 now instead of counting confinement days i find myself counting the number of weeks til i'm back home. (currently it's 11 weeks hehe.)
okay gonna go back home (currently blogging from my old house) so i can see bb. and put her to sleep in like 3+ hours. babies go to sleep so early. gonna have like no time with her once i go back to work )):
next time i blog might be when i've moved back! haha BYE
