You're not a hero, you're a liar

Hi bbys I think I can safely say that today is one of the best days of my life. Most likely the best day I've had this year.

I had so much fun today ahhhhh I feel so happy. Gawddd.

Macs breakfast with my S16 babes --> chem makeup prac at school with an awesome new teacher --> pw meeting (brain got fried) --> yummy porridge for lunch + disney channel at T's house --> clash of the bands at Republic poly with Jiams and Elaine.

Best part of the day was definitely clash of the bands, I do not regret going at all.

At first we got there and there was really no one around and it looked kinda dead and I felt bad for having persuaded Et and Jiams to come with me all the way to woodlands, especially what with us rushing to be in time, taking the wrong bus route and hailing a cab.

Then there was the solo performances and the band performances and it was amazing. Every band was great but personally two called Dropbeat Heartbeat and Vessel stood out for me, especially DBHB.

DBHB got 3rd in the end out of 7 (or was it 8?) bands and another called Dynamic Shift took 2nd. I think the band that took home the $3000 grand prize, Voodoo, deserved it, but they weren't really my cup of tea. Still, they were amazing.

I think DBHB should've been 2nd :( Oh and there was a special guest, a kid drummer who was so so so talented and adorable and just when I was feeling sad because I didn't know any song that'd been performed so far, he took his place and Nightmare by Avenged Sevenfold came on AHHH.

I totally fangirl-ed hahahahah. I love that song.

DBHB totally reminded me of All Time Low, the way they had so much stage presence and their song was so upbeat and happy and the lead singer had such an Alex voice and was so charming hahaha.

I also saw a really really cute guy in RP! He's taller than me and he looks mixed and he's just so cute. Sadly we'll probably never meet again.

Anyway after the competition as the bands were leaving, we gathered the courage to ask DBHB for a picture ahaha. We were the only people there who did that; no one else asked for a picture with anyone so it kinda felt weird.

But they happily agreed :) We were so happy as well!

Then me, Et and Jiams passed through a field on our way to the mall and me and Jiams started yelling random things for fun LOL.

We had kfc for dinner and guess what? My republic poly eyecandy as forementioned was there!! How lucky of me :')

Then we took the long train ride home and stalked DBHB using our phones. I followed them on twitter and we tweeted them once, and we didn't expect a reply so we were so surprised and overjoyed when we received one after we'd all gone home!

We tweeted them the picture of us and they replied 'Aww thanks guys! You're officially BONERS! Esp the chic whose totally rockin out with the uniform!"

And that's meeeeee omg that's meeeeeeeee.

HAHAHA. I was (I think) the only weirdo who went there in my college uniform because I was too lazy to bring clothes to change out from after school.

I was totally fangirling and dying when I saw that reply haha my face must've been epic. I'm quite over it now but I still feel happy when I think about it.

And they actually bothered to reply when we continued tweeting them haha sweet.

So yeah. Conclusion is that today was amazing.

I laughed so much today, my voice was kinda hoarse when Jiams and I were on the phone just now and she made me sing and play guitar for her hahaha.

So much fun sigh :') So many people made my day.

I'm tired and it's 2am and I can barely think properly. My eyes are half-open. I'd also like to pee but my brother brought a friend home to stay for the night ugh and I haven't actually seen him yet. It'd be dead awkward to walk out like that and say hi.

But for the sake of peeing. Hmm.

BYE

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Say it ain't so, I will not go, turn the lights off, carry me home

Less than 5 hours and my SAs will be overrrrr. And then it'll be time to partayye... Until my ugly results come back ahahah.

I'm having my lunch now. Jiams called about an hour ago to happily shout in my ear, "YALLOW? I JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU MY EXAMS ARE OVER!!!"

Hahaha qtpie. Not.

I don't think I'll be top in class so I can kiss my non-existent bass guitar goodbye :'( well maybe if I pester my dad he'll still get it for me but it won't feel the same because I didn't actually deserve it, if you know what I mean.

I've finished reading all my physics lecture notes and I'm left with looking through the tutorials.

Gotta be in school in around 2.5 hours and take my 1.5 hour exam. If you think about it, that's actually kinda short.

My longest exam is 2.5 hours and Tania from VJC told me that her H2 papers are all 3 hours. Da heck.

Anyways, I'm finishing my mixed rice. Gonna go back to revision in maybe 15min. Since it's my last paper I might as well mug really hard and play hard later! Hope I can do the physics paper :'(

BYE

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Lost in the stereo's sound

4 DOWN, 1 MORE TO GO.

And that one more is H1 physics and it's an afternoon paper so I'm currently slacking my butt off because I'm too complacent.

Math was terrible. Like really really terrible. I've already lost more than 20 marks thanks to blanks. Poof. The amount of time given is seriously crazy.

I did my best to rush through the whole paper and I barely glanced away from it except to check the time. So yeah. I thinkkk I can safely say I gave it my best shot :'(

Paper ended around 10.30am and I had lunch in school with 12S16. One thing I've realised about our class is that we're very segregated. The girls and guys always sit at our own separate tables. Which is kinda sad :(

Maybe it's cause we have 12 boys and 12 girls. So neither gender is really the lonely minority and neither feels the need to mix with the other. Am I making sense?

Anyway after lunch I went home then met Tania at tamp for an impromptu meetup and she ate lunch and we walked around tampines. I saw a very nice top at Topshop but it's so exp :(

Then I came home again and played guitar. I tried to do a cover of Zombie by The Pretty Reckless but I kept screwing up. First I forgot the lyrics, then I played the wrong chords.

And I got annoyed by my voice so I just deleted everything haha da heck. Always happens when I do covers.

I also decided to write a new bio for my blog, but it turned out looking more like a mini essay about myself and I can't figure out which parts to delete hahaha.

K gonna have instant noodles for dinner then I'll finally get started on physics. Twas great wasting my afternoon away :)

BYE

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Long live the reckless and the brave

3 DOWN, 2 MORE TO GO.

On one hand, I'm happy that chem is over. On another, I feel like screaming because I screwed it up. I didn't finish the paper and I didn't expect it to be this hard and this tedious and asdfghjkl. Felt like crying when the paper ended but no use crying over spilt milk.

I really hate exams, it's so damn pressurising. And towards the end of the paper when I'm desperately rushing and writing and the examiner's about to say 'time's up' I always yell in my head like NO NO YOU CAN'T DO THIS TO ME

But well of course they can. :'(

So it's down to math and physics. I'm feeling mopey from terribly-done chem paper and the lack of sleep these past few days.

So gonna take a mini break tomorrow after math. There's a lot of time to study for physics especially since it's an afternoon paper.

And after that I'm freeeeeeee.

Yay yay yay can't wait.

Math mugging mode on now haha

BYE

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You wear your heart on your sleeve, I threw mine to the sky

2 DOWN, 3 MORE TO GO.

Yup I'm done with my econs and two GP papers. Chem is tomorrow.

Econs was... :( I don't think I'll do well for it. I left out quite a few important things, now that I think of it.

GP was tough man. Paper 1 was fine but Paper 2 made me wanna die, it was sooooo difficult. And I was already tired and my hand was numb and I was soo cold from the air-con blowing directly at me in the hall.

I don't know how the arts student cope with all the endless writing haha my hand felt like dropping off by the time 4.30pm came. And halfway through the paper I couldn't think straight anymore and my answers were all rubbish sigh.

Chem tomorrow. Hope the paper's doable. Having tuition later to recap everything before I turn in early :)

3 MORE DAYS

BYE

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Dear all of you who've wronged me

It's the last day before exams and the day before the first day of school, again.

I'm taking a break before tackling econs and maybe chemistry at night.

I'm so hyped for school again but I'm also so so so scared to sit for my SAs. I'll be so pissed if I don't pass promo criteria again ok.

7 more mins till 12pm and I start on econs. I know I keep saying it but I really really can't wait for this week to be over. Or rather, for thursday 4pm to come.

I don't know if I'm really looking forward to a new term or not. On one hand, I've kinda missed my friends. On the other, I'm not looking forward to going through the same old school routine over and over again.

Nyahahahahaha. <--- totally random

I've been feeling sad for no logical explanation recently and I don't know if it's because I'm actually stressed and I don't realise it or what.

I think I'm secretly suffering from post-jamming withdrawal symptoms because I keep randomly finding new bass tabs to play (I tried Tears Don't Fall just now and it's crazy I tell ya) and I just miss the feeling of playing bass that day and hearing the lovely deep sound come from the amp behind me.

I sound so crazy but. Yeah. And I've been sad partly because I've been watching Avenged Sevenfold videos and seeing how much fun they have with their lives, fooling around and making music while I just spent a lovely Sunday morning trying to figure out how to draw an energy cycle.

And it makes me so sad because I will never get to be like that, and when I grow up and grow old I'll just be another somebody with a 9 to 5 job, and I'll still be playing guitar to these four walls.

Sigh I just made myself sadder. Oh well, this is life. Can't be helped. :(

We should be content with what we have, right?

And what I have now is exams the next day so I shall be good and start mugging.

BYE

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With a brick in hand, your lip gloss smile, your scraped-up knees

Stayed home to study chem today because it's a saturday and everywhere would be packed to the brim.

I get really sleepy when I study at home so I chewed on gum and listened to metal and absorbed interesting chem facts.

Studying chem and physics is so much more interesting than math or econs. But I'd say econs is the worst subject to study. Soooo dry. Worse than the beehoon my dad cooks. Haha a bit #nolink

But I got distracted, like I always do, and somehow ended up learning Your Call by Secondhand Serenade on guitar. Oh well.

I'm way too tired now though it's only 11pm. Body clock's been very weird recently. Can't wait to crash after SAs.

Ending off with a random picture of me and two pictures of the husband that doesn't know I exist

BYE

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There's no one here while the city sleeps

Apparently the Avenged Sevenfold songs I've all been listening to are from the album that's been most poorly received by critics.

But... what?! Dear God is a masterpiece. And Afterlife, and A Little Piece Of Heaven, and Almost Easy. Gunslinger isn't my favourite but it's stil great. If these songs apparently aren't that good then I can't imagine what the other albums sound like.

SAs in 2 days :/ but then after that I can meet up with melons and play like a dog! Yay

I get a bass guitar if I top the class. #seemslegit

BYE

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Na na na na na na na na

Today was a pretty good day :)))

Haha ok it's mainly because I went jamming. I'm so happyyyyy I haven't been to a studio in 10373926028 years.

At first we started with Wake me up when September Ends which, honestly, didn't sound good at all haha. Then we played The Man Who Can't Be Moved which was definitely much better. 21 Guns was even better :)

We also played I Don't Love You and Jet Lag. I played bass for all except Wake me up when september ends (keyboard) and Jet Lag (I sang).

We also wanted to do Crash by You Me At Six but we weren't familiar with the song haha.

And somehow we also ended up doing Tong Hua (I sang) and Qing Tian (guitar). Sigh I love jamming, though I always feel super tired after that.

And I really love playing bass :))) I love the sound of it, and how simple but important it is. Hope my dad gets me a bass after SAs!

Speaking of which, I'm so worried for SAs now sigh. Yesterday we had pw and there were quite a few math and chem revision questions that I couldn't do. So scary :(

Econs, I don't even know how to answer essay questions. Like what's the format and all that? Yeah so tomorrow I'm mugging for econs with L and T at the airport :) Miss my girls, feels like forever since we last met up.

Yeah I'm too tired to continue typing haha. Brain feels so foggy. Can't wait for the next time we can jam :)

BYE

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Some try to hand me money, they don't understand

Hi bbys I'm so excited to go jamming tomorrow yay yay yay and I'm playing a bass guitar for the first time ever yay yay yay

Nothing much to blog about actually, I just feel like blogging.

I went to Starbucks yesterday to study physics. Wanted to study chem as well but I couldn't concentrate after I finished physics so I went home and played guitar haha.

Oh and yesterday I got pissed at my mom. Don't really wanna talk about it because I know you have to respect your parents and not get mad at them or whatever and you people will prolly judge me if I said my mom was bitchy soooo. Yeah.

Though I don't really understand, why can't you dislike your parents? I'm not saying I dislike my mom because I love her no matter what but just sometimes I get really annoyed with her.

Like even the annoying people in your school someday get married and have kids; would you blame their kids for disliking their parents' personality?

But still my mom's not that bad. We just don't understand each other. I think me and her are way too different. Like if we were both the same age, we'd probably be in completely different cliques in school.

Anyways, speaking of school, I kinda miss school. Not that much, just some parts of it. Anyway we're all mugging at home; it's not really different from school; just that you have to wear the same clothes as everyone else and you actually get to interact with people while mugging.

Haha I don't think I'm making much sense at all.

Oh something random; the other day while out with yueyao and nigel I said we were talking about ambitions and how we don't know if we like something or a subject simply because we're good at it.

Like do I really like writing? Or do I just like it because I'm good at it? I thought about it and I realised if I were to suck at writing, I probably wouldn't like it at all. So the answer is yes I like writing because I'm good at it.

Which kinda complicates things, really.

And I just remembered I didn't post that Alex Gaskarth quote hahaha.

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Cause a scene like you're supposed to

Playing bass tabs on my classical guitar because I'm desperate hahaha.

I want Lyn-Z Way's bass ahhhhh look at it it's sooooo prettyyyyy.

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We try to run away, but end up running back

Happy :)

There's this part in Crash by You Me At Six where Josh sings "Just crash, fall down, I'll wrap my arms around you now." And my heart always does a little dive when he sings that, it's so beautiful.

That's why seeing You Me At Six perform Crash live is definitely one of the things on my bucket list. I'll probably cry like a baby if I ever get to experience that. Sigh.

Also this is kinda random but I realise when I first get to know a person and I find out we have similar tastes in music, I tend to practically throw out my music library to them. Like omg listen to this! And this ahhh you'll love it! Hahaha

Oh I forgot to mention I heard from Mistika that You Me At Six may be coming in August please let that be true and please let me be able to make itttt :') please please please

Today was a pretty great day, I hung out with Yueyao and Nigel. We went to Nigel's house with the intention of singing karaoke and studying but we ended up not studying at all and abandoned karaoke to surf youtube and watch The Big Bang Theory lolol.

TBBT is megaaa funny!! Like I didn't expect it to be that funny. Sheldon hahaha I love him!

K guys it's 12.15am, gotta sleep. Tomorrow shall be self-declared Mugging Day. Busy week this week; I've to finish revision before SAs (which are next week omg), meet up with my pw group and go jamming yay :)

Not sure if it's a permanent thing, but hopefully it is. They're a few guys from the same college and we're meeting for the first time this friday. It'd be really really great if I could form a band within college because it's so hard meeting up with Hit & Run :/

I like my bandmates and all but living in opposite ends of the country just makes things kinda difficult. Still, if we ever decide to meet up, I'll go. We've never even had a full band meetup haha. #sad

Oops 12.20am now. I really need to sleep.

BYE

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When I'm much too far away

I really, really, really love Dear God by Avenged Sevenfold. I don't know if I've mentioned it before, but yeah. It's so beautiful I could cry.

The way the guitar weaves a melody throughout the whole song, the drums are kept simple but sweet, the chords used just fall into place together... Ahhhh it's a work of art.

And usually I fall for the guitar solos, but this song is absolutely perfect. I love the verses, the chorus, the bridge, the solo, all equally.

Plus the song is 6:33 minutes but I still find it too short haha.

Today was spent lazing around and doing math. Wasn't productive sigh.

Tomorrow me and Yueyao are going to Nigel's house haha. Not playing gooseberry ok, it's just really fun to hang out with them.

Oh yeah there's something random I want to say. I think a lot of people waste time and effort getting mad at others for the way they act, the things they say and just parts of their personality in general.

I don't understand; if you don't like the person, then don't waste your time on them getting annoyed at everything they say or do. Leave them be. Doesn't it make life much easier?

BYE

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My words will ring in your ears

Hi guys. Been feeling not too happy lately because I sync-ed my iphone with my dad's macbook and all my apps disappeared.

Initially I thought that was fine because I don't play any games and I can just re-download Twitter, Whatsapp, Instagram and Blogger...

But then I realised my MusicDL app was gone too. More than 400 songs, each downloaded one by one. Poof. They all did a David Copperfield on me. I'm sooooo depressed.

Sighhhh.

So ok, I suck it up and start re-downloading everything I can think of, but my favourite website to download from doesn't have Madina Lake and You Me At Six anymore; two of my not-so-popular favourite bands.

And my stereo which has been around for a really long time decided to expire recently. My dad won't buy me a stereo until after my SAs. Anyway I already feel guilty because he agreed to buy me a bass guitar if I get top in class.

HAHA I make it sound like it's already confirmed. But no speaking of SAs I am still pretty stressed out haha. Finished making econs notes yesterday and I summarised 73 pages into 24. -___-

And math, don't even get me started.

So yesterday was just spent pigging around at home. I only did econs notes sigh. Dunno if I should do econs or math today.

Recently I've kinda lost the motivation to study D:

K there's nothing much to blog about since I haven't gone out since friday. I realise I go out a lot compared to most of my friends. Can't decide if that's a good or bad thing.

Ok lunch soon then I shall take a shower (oh just realised the weather's not as bad today) and do math. #nerdmodeon

BYE

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Posting the pictures from today and yesterday separately because I realise they get mixed up when I try and post them together.

And I love that quote from Alex Gaskarth.

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Horseshoes and handgrenades

Hi guysssss.

This weather will be the death of me. I'm having dinner now and it's so hot that I have to stuff my mouth with food, go back to my air-conditioned room, chew and swallow, then repeat.

Yesterday's studying with Jiams was not at all productive. We studied for about less than two hours at T3's Coffee Bean, then went to lunch at Aston's, and while going to the staff canteen to continue studying, we saw a humongous crowd near the arrival hall at T2!

Of course we went to investigate, and found out that Jay Park and some korean boy group called B1A4 were coming.

Even though neither of us were fans, we stayed to 抽热闹 anyways hahaha. We mugged while waiting but it was really unproductive.

It was slightly disappointing because Jay Park and the korean boys just looked... normal. I didn't even realise it was Jay Park until he was much nearer to us.

But the fans were crazy, I'm telling you. I saw this girl literally shaking because she was so excited! And she and her friends were decked out in fan shirts and the boyband's merch and whatnot. Scary.

But still, I can understand. I'm not a fangirl in /that/ kind of way, but I have a looooot of respect and love for all my favourite bands and if it was me and Christine waiting for All Time Low or Mayday Parade or something, I would probably die.

So me and Jiams wasted quite a bit of time on waiting for Jay Park and B1A4 :( We then went to the staff canteen and did study for a while but we both decided to be pigs and share rojak hahaha.

I pig out a lot when I'm with Jiams, we both do. "We are not normal girls" LOL.

After the rojak (and barley for me and teh si for her), we studied till 6pm and then went to camwhore at the rooftop carpark.

Today the 4L'11 music students met up to go to Mrs Sng's house to visit her and baby Keren :)

It was nice catching up with them, bringing up old jokes and all that. Whenever I'm with a group of old friends it actually makes me kinda sad, like when we talk about our new schools and friends and it starts to hit you that you're no longer in the same class or school anymore.

Like everyone has chosen a different path; one of us went to poly, one went to senior high at Dunman High, most went to different JCs and took the typical subject combis, two went on to study A level music in TJC.

It's just... sad to realise that you've nothing in common anymore, and you're no longer classmates, you just used to be, and I'm not just referring to the music students but all my friends and classmates from AHS.

And you'll only keep in touch with a handful of close friends; the rest will just forever be ex-schoolmates, acquaintances and a memory, and in time to come, faces will be forgotten, and others will become whats-his/her-name.

my gawd, now I'm making myself want to cry hahaha why am I such a depressing person.

But yeah. I know it's part and parcel of life to make friends and lose friends, but how I wish that weren't so. How I wish everything could stay familiar and everyone could stay close and then maybe life wouldn't be so hard.

K now I don't know how to continue haha.

Well I'm glad I went to the gathering; it was nice meeting up with the music students. I miss 4L now; we were such a special class.

Pictures below :)

BYE

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Black backpack full of fireworks

I'm soooo tired.

And feeling pretty stressed out! I wanted to cover a lot of things today for econs so I was supposed to have a study date with Lifang.

We went to marine parade library but I only studied for an hour, and even so, I was feeling really tired and couldn't focus at all.

After an hour we went to have lunch and then went to parkway to shop instead of going back to studying.

I bought pretty skirts, but that's not the point. Point is, we both felt too tired after that to do anything and went home instead of going to study.

Lifang said she'll be able to study when she gets home but I was really tired, and I don't even know why.

I got home, bathed and then went to sleep until my mom woke me up to go have dinner.

I felt loads better now I guess, but it was still such a wasted day :'( Guilty!!!

It's like all the late nights decided to come haunt me suddenly today. And I can't study late tonight again because I'm going to study with Jiams tomorrow.

So in short, today was a wasted dayyy. I'm so sad :(((

I shall study econs at 7.30pm, and sleep early tonight to try and fix my screwed body clock. Dunno how I'm gonna survive when school reopens if I keep sleeping at 1am.

Haha and yes I know that sounds early for some of you, but it's not because I used to be an early sleeper.

Ok econs now let's go! 

BYE

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Everything I touch turns to stone

I like Blessed With A Curse by Bring Me The Horizon. I tweeted about them scaring me because I honestly didn't expect them to be all screamo and heavy metal because I know quite a bunch of people on twitter who are YMAS-BMTH fans so I thought they were similar to YMAS.

Man I was dead wrong. I downloaded about six songs and I played them one after the other; they all scared the life out of me.

Then Daine replied my tweet asking why??? was I scared of them and she told me to listen to Blessed With A Curse and heyyy I actually liked it.

The singer (is it Oli Sykes?) was doing screaming throughout the whole song but it was nice because you could actually hear the melody.

Not like in Pray For Plague or some of the other songs; it was terrible, imo. Epitome of white noise. I'm so sorry to anyone reading this who's a BMTH fan.

Hi guys I'm back!

I saved everything above as a draft after typing it yesterday and forgot to post it. Oh well.

I'm having lunch right now and I'm soooo hungry. I had tuition from 11am to 1pm just now and my stomach was giving me hell throughout :'(

Yesterday was a good day. I studied at simei's Starbucks with Jiams. Managed to complete my studying for physics hooray! -claps myself on the back-

Yesterday was when I realised just how nice locals really are.

This guy at the next table said hi suddenly, said that he used to teach JC chem and that he overheard me and Jiams talking about a question we both couldn't solve and asked if we needed help.

At first we were stunned, but soon we were bombarding him with questions. He was so nice! I can't believe there are people that nice still around these days.

Then halfway a lady walked past and accidentally knocked over his drink, and she insisted on buying him a new one despite his refusal. Soooo kind of her!

So yep. Interesting stuff yesterday. I also wasn't too productive yesterday but it's ok, I'm planning to make up for it by chionging econs later :)

Omg and last night I dreamt I was the fourth member of Green Day.

Best dream ever.

BYE

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Teach me how to read these broken lines

I'm blogging so much this isn't even possible haha.

So today was pretty much a rollercoaster ride. After that post about me having a really boring morning, I got really pissed about something.

I was sooo pissed I felt like... ugh. Really wanted to punch something!!

So to cheer myself up, I went shopping. A small part of me is now happy. Small part.

I showered, got dressed then spent half an hour pacing my room trying to weigh the pros and cons of going shopping.

In the end I went haha. It was a lovely solitary train ride all the way to city hall listening to my My Chemical Romance playlist.

The first shop I stepped in, I bought something hahaha. It was the same old band tee store I always frequent at peninsula. The staff there are absolutely terrible but it's band merch so yeah.

I got a Mayday Parade shirt and another normal one. I still want an MCR shirt but the ones they have there aren't nice.

Lianne came to join me after a while, around 5pm. We went to orchard. Neither of us bought anything, though I saw a few things I liked.

My mom wasn't too happy that I'd bought shirts again, but anyway I won't be shopping again till probably after SAs or something, and it's not like I shop every week or something.

My mom always says I've a ton of clothes when I really don't. My wardrobe is puny. Still, I love my mom even though sometimes she's terribly judgemental and way too mean.

I showed her my new shirts and she went, "Why do you always buy the same old shirts? So big, baggy and guyish..."

And she gave me /that/ look, like she couldn't decide if I was lesbian or anorexic.

Maybe I'm just thinking too much into things haha.

It's been such a long day.

BYE

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And if that birdie don't sing or the ring don't shine

Guys I am so bored.

I know, I'm a JC student, it's the June holidays and there's no way I can possibly be bored right now, but yes, I am bored.

People are probably all busy and whatnot on a Sunday morning, plus the weather today looks great, and I'm just sitting here rotting away.

I actually intended for today to be my slack day. I'm doing ok for my SA revision (but I'm still really worried) so I thought I could use a day off.

But gawd, I am soo bored. I spent my morning deleting songs off my ipod and downloading new music (got some new indie songs recommended to me that aren't half bad) and listening to mostly All Time Low.

Right now I'm just waiting for lunch. What do people do when they decide to take a break from mugging? I don't feel like there's anything to do. Oh my, does this mean I'm turning into a nerd? 

I keep thinking about Ms Wong telling our class that there's no way you're going to excel if you don't study at least 8 hours a day during the June break. I can barely manage with 5 hours. Eight?! I'd just collapse.

So today is my slack day and I'm spending the morning of it worrying about the consequences of having this slack day. Am I going to fail anything? D: (math? Or econs maybe?)

But there's no use sitting here worrying if I'm not going to do anything about it, is there.

Ok you know what? I'm going to do some math while waiting for my dad to finish cooking lunch haha. I am turning into a geekkk somebody save meeee.

No time to waste, chop chop! Hahaha

BYE

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Remember how the coffee made us shake on those long drives

Ahhh how I love Vegas by All Time Low. So much meaning in such a simple upbeat song.

So I was supposed to go play basketball this morning with the melons, but I woke up at 7am and there was so much rain outside my window :(

I was barely half-awake but my heart was like... sighhh. I really wanted to play ball this morning.

So after a few phone calls about the rain we decided to play another time instead, and I went back to sleep. Woke up at 11.30am feeling tired from too much sleep.

The rest of the day was spent mugging at Jiams' house with her and Elaine :) I think overall it was okay, productive I guess but not thaaat productive? Haha but I did manage to make math notes.

Then Elaine and I went to have dinner. We headed to the bedok foodcourt because I was craving xiaolongbao but the entire place was so smoky. Must've been a satay stall or something.

So we went to kfc instead, then we took the same bus back. :)

The other night I was watching this movie with my dad on tv, it was called Almost Famous and I really loved it, though sadly I only watched half of it.

Basically it's about this fifteen-year-old good kid called William who loves writing and rock music (omg like me!) who gets the chance to write an article for Rolling Stone magazine on a rock band called Stillwater.

So he follows Stillwater through their tour, and all the ups and downs of tour life. He also falls for one of the band's groupies, Penny Lane.

It was a really good movie :) It also inspired me in a way; like if the band doesn't work out (touchwood) I can always write and work towards being a journalist for rock music or something.

Damn, what I'd give to be a writer for Kerrang!. -eyes shine-

Kay guys, so that's it for now. Band meeting tomorrow, I'm excited and nervous!

BYE

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When the walls caved in we only had ourselves to blame

I'm sooo shagged right now.

I spent the day studying with Jiams at coffee bean, kallang leisure park, and it was soo productive I can't even believe it myself!

We calculated; minus travelling time, lunch breaks and a couple of toilet breaks, we spent a total of five hours on hardcore mugging.

I am so proud of myself! So I guess the tiredness is all worth it.

I'm really worried for my econs and math exams though, especially math. We've had a couple of math tests and one math CA so far and I've gotten nothing but U grades :'(

I must get at least an E this time! I must pass~

Next few days are gonna be really busy. Tomorrow morning melons are meeting up for bball; it's rare that all four of us can make it! :) Then I have to mug. (again sigh)

Sunday I'll be meeting with my new band (we're calling ourselves Hit & Run) for jamming. I'm totally itching to jam, I haven't been a studio since me, J and N met with the other band :(

Hopefully my new bandmates are nice! :)

Monday there's (I think) dinner with the hard rock hotel girls. Oh yes that reminds me, we made a video called "8 things not to do in a hotel" during our stay in hard rock hotel. Idk if I've mentioned it before!

It was so fun and I very nearly laughed my ass off when I saw the video that Lianne's finally gotten round to editing about a week ago.

If you're interested you can find the video yourself on Emily's blog emichok.blogspot.com It's one of the latest posts I thinkkk.

It's super funny to me but maybe because I remember all the funny outtakes and things we did in hard rock while watching the video. Ahhh I can't wait for the next time we can party like that again! (prolly only after promos or 'A's :(

Ok guys time to bathe!

BYE

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I'd Hate To Be You When You Find Out What This Song Is About

Gonna start studying in three minutes!

It's the guilt kicking in; I spent yesterday lazing around. I played with my phone, then slept on the floor in the afternoon for about an hour, and at night I took out my econs book, sat there and read wattpad.

-facepalm-

I've been reading... Well, I can't remember the title but it's about this extremely musically talented girl called Keely Staub with an amazing voice and great skill at the guitar.

And she gets talent-scouted and signed to a label and eventually falls for her producer, Seth Ryan. Blah blah blah, the latest update is about her getting a terrible throat infection and possibly losing her voice.

How can I possibly miss out on that!  So yeah, I couldn't resist reading until 11.30pm, then I got tired and went to sleep.

I had tuition at 10am today. My mom woke me up at 9.30am and I felt like a zombie when I first got out of bed. I really couldn't think properly at all and my eyes were barely open.

I kept yawning throughout tuition, I feel so bad for my tutor haha. Then my mom cooked potato soup for lunch, yumzzz.

And you dropped the note and we changed key
You changed yourself and I changed me
I really didn't see us singing through this
Then you screamed the bridge and I cried the verse
And our chorus came out unrehearsed
Then you smiled the whole way through it
I guess that's what's worth it.

Ich liebe dieses lied :)

BYE

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With a guitar in our hands, and rock in our hearts

Went to watch Snow White with Lianne on monday night :) It was much better than I expected! I really didn't like Kristen Stewart as Snow White; I still think her acting is terrible.

But all in all, it was a good movie. Classic fairytale, never gets old :) I love the twist though! (no spoilers here haha don't worry)

Yesterday I went to the airport to study with Jiams and Elaine! It was pretty productive for a group study, even though I didn't manage to finish what I wanted to study that day.

It was also fun! Me and Jiams had a lunch break and collectively ate a bowl of tomyum soup with a plate of rice, one plate of hokkien mee and one plate of western food- chicken, potatoes and coleslaw.

They were all generous servings too. Me and Jiams were so full after that, and I wasn't hungry until about four hours later, which is really a feat for me.

We left the airport around 9pm. Jiams tweeted later 'It was a day well spent' and I totally agree :')

But dt didn't come :( We need to have a full melons outing soon!

At night I was chatting on whatsapp with Ali and somehow I ended up playing Payphone on guitar and singing to him on the phone, and I made him rap the Wiz Khalifa verse hahaha we were both damn shy, it was hilarious.

I honestly don't even remember what we talked about but we were on the phone for 3 hours and I kept wanting to go sleep but he'd remind me that he's leaving for an 18-day holiday in the US in like 2 days.

Going to miss my bestie a lot. He's not bringing his phone too so no means of communication until school reopens :(

Have a good time Ali! Mug hard so you don't retain otherwise I will roast you alive. (though I don't think he reads my blog)

Pictures below :)

BYE

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The reckless and the brave

Look what I drew!
I spent my evening on this yesterday.

I completely forgot how much I used to love drawing. I'd draw and draw and draw because as a kid you have all the time in the world for hobbies. My mom would always chide me for wasting paper :(

BYE

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Where would we be if we couldn't dream?

I'm currently blogging using this blogger app I never knew existed! Seriously, this makes things so much easier for me haha.

So yesterday was the big day for TPJC symphonic winds, guzheng ensemble and guitar ensemble! We had a joint performing arts concert held in the school auditorium, 7-10pm :)

I'll be honest, the day didn't start off too well :/ I didn't really feel excited, and we had to change into our costumes at only 1pm, lord knows why.

I hated the gown haha. It's not the design or anything; I just really couldn't stand wearing it. Not to mention I had to walk around barefooted most of the time because the short heels I borrowed from a cousin were extremely uncomfortable and they were causing blisters.

Not trying to sound mean or anything, but dinner was really awful. My guitar girls all agreed too.

After hours of just sitting around, putting on makeup, chatting, rehearsing and briefing, finally we got backstage around 9pm.

Guitar was the last cca to perform. I didn't feel nervous at all, in fact I was just bored. Then there was a round of applause coming from the audience for the guzheng ensemble, and suddenly, just like that, my heart went into overdrive.

I honestly have no idea why it chose to do so at that moment. It was so out of the blue.

We were quickly gathered onstage behind the closed curtains while Minki and DJC performed in front, then they were done and the curtains drew open.

I completely forgot about the seniors telling us to smile while onstage. I did have fun playing the pieces though.

I got the worst seat ever haha. It was a corner seat, right next to the audience, AND the conductor was seated right next to me. He was so close, I could have knocked him with the top of my guitar anytime I chose to.

Monky Blues went smoothly but I did play a couple of wrong notes for Tea For Two. The conductor would look at me and I'd look back at him sheepishly haha.

The part after the concert was, in my opinion, the best part of the day.

We met up with our class outside the guitar room and I was shocked because I honestly didn't expect that so many of 12S16 would come to support us! :') Huiyi also gave me a flower, which made me really touched!

We camwhored and then most of us went home while some of the guys went to have a late dinner.

I sat at the bus stop alone for a long time waiting for the bus but I didn't feel lonely at all; I felt happy :)

Great job to symphonic winds, guzheng, guitar; everyone who performed yesterday! And thanks to the 400+ people who showed up, we really appreciate it. Big hugs! xo

BYE

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