Pieces of me

Maybe when we're older

We can lie under the stars
And brew like the red wine we drink
Talk about the studs in the sky
And how we'll someday be among them

Share our favourite stories and everlasting hits
Wonder if we'll be as quiet as our beating hearts are
When there's silence as we pause to wonder
About almost anything

We can sit out in the sun
On the rocking chairs that make my head spin
Sip your favourite kind of hot tea
Study our scars
And the tales behind and between them
Both to cry at and to laugh at
Like the bittersweet almonds we chew

I take out a guitar
And you bring out a book
We finish our tea
But find another good story to share
Along with a reason or two to stay

Or maybe when we're younger

We can laugh till our bones ache
Cry at the complexities
Ponder simplicity

Faster than we can
We fall and forget how to pick ourselves up
Until night falls upon us
And daunt spurs us on

Do the things we've always wanted to do
But only ever strike out less than half the list
Run away from home to find ourselves
Then run back again to see ourselves
Sitting on the front porch

Words unwritten
Backs sore with the weight of the world
On shoulders too young and soft
Tongues tied
Or tied down by different tongues

We fall
As we learn how to fly

And maybe someday, I'll be something more

It was close to 3pm just now and I was thinking if I should go out to town and get my caffeine fix at Epilogue and I simply couldn't decide until I looked out my window and realised it was going to pour. And then there was lightning and thunder and there was no way I was going to stay home alone in a thunderstorm. I'm a chicken when it comes to things like these.

So I grabbed some clothes and my bag and went downstairs and had late lunch- fish fillet curry rice which was not bad + they gave a lot- then I took a train to town.

Prelims are next week ahhhhh. Actually for some reason I'm not that stressed out. Yet. I think I'm too tired to be stressed anymore, even though I sleep real early compared to some of my friends. I turn in at about 11 to 11.30pm every night. I'm a morning person you see.

Anyways, point form because I'm lazy.

1. New favourite song is Sleepwalking by Bring Me The Horizon

2. Just found out Bring Me The Horizon is coming to Singapore October 16th. Hold me while I sob my heart out (because I can't go, not because I can go)

3. Had dinner with wumsy on monday and it was awesome hahaha love her to the moon and back. Ate at Thai Express and I was dying from my tom yum soup since I'm really bad at spicy foods but I managed to finish it!! Yay me! Ate 2 bowls of rice and had ice-cream after that. Both Jiams and I were amazed by my appetite that night. Can't wait till after As so we can stay out longer instead of just having irregular 3-hour meetups on schooldays.

4. As of 29th august, it's 71 days to the end and 90 days to the end. I don't know whether to laugh or cry. I'm so scared to face failure again. I remember when I thought I wouldn't do that badly for Os and then... :( Sigh.

5. For the first time I'm having doubts about what I really want to do with my life. I was always pretty sure I wanted to go to mass comm but suddenly I don't really know anymore. I feel so lost.

6. Today was our last day of school until after prelims. Well, technically that was yesterday since we didn't have lessons today. I'm so happy!!!! No school omg

7. Run out of things to say.

BYE

Shit my shitty life asdfghjkl so mad 

Thnks fr th mmrs

1. Apologise for the lack of updates, been busy with prep for prelims. Big As coming up real soon, it's scary :( 

2. Had a good chat with one of my favourite people just now at Open Plaza. Haha somehow Tania and i always end up there when we decide to meet at tampines for dinner. 

3. Mehhhh don't really know what else to blog about.

4. Expect not-so-frequent updates and more after As because I'll be really busy for the next <100 days. Lots of schoolwork and shiet

5. Nighty nights, love yall xo

Frank says it all. Love this guy so much. 

I'm thinking like if I ever muster the courage to get a tatt, I might just get a real simple one that says 'xofrnk'. Or just something like 'MCR' in big bold letters, idk. 

Then I'll probably get one for my mom too because it'd just feel weird for me to have a tattoo for a band and none for the people who should mean more than anything else to me- my folks of course. 

She's just like him
Spoiled rotten
Confused by the lies she's been fed
And she's searching
For no one 
(But herself)
Her eyes turn to green and she seems to be happy
That she is here
And this time I think you'll know

Pins and needles

mundanemonday. 

Hello from the school canteen.

Wanted to take a selfie but I look horribly cui

Bye hahaha