I took a sip of something poison but I'll hold on tight

I'm back again! Boxing day was spent with my family, we went to Kallang Leisure Park for lunch at some restaurant called Thai Village or something like that. I can't remember its name :3
Well then we went to Marina Bay to walk around and my mom and I went to take a look around Louis Vuitton on the way. My mom: "This is how the rich spend their money." True dat. The stuff was all ridiculously fancy. Dinner was steamboat. I've never really liked steamboat much; my favourite thing there was prolly the chicken rice.
On the 27th I went with Elaine to watch Sherlock Holmes at Orchard Lido. It was great! Everything was ingeniously written and Robert Downey Jr and Jude Law did really great impressions of Sherlock and John. The ending was brilliant. If you haven't caught it yet, you need to ;)
28th, I met up with Lifang :D I hadn't seen her for over a month since she went to China. And she bought me this ultra cute white dog that I've now named Snowy and which has taken up residence on the right side of my bed. He's adorkable.
We originally planned to have lunch at the cafe at White Sands' library but it was closed D: So we took a bus from the interchange to parkway. Lunch was pastamania, and when the food came I was so sure I wouldn't be full at all, seeing as it was a tiny portion and I was completely starving, but I ended up feeling like a beach whale. It was that bad.

I guess it's cause it was cheesy and thick and wholemeal, but... ugh. I never felt so sick of cheese in my life. We managed to make our way to Gramophone without reproducing our lunch. And I am officially unhappy with Gramophone. Five times I asked if they had any albums by five different bands, and five times they said no. The blonde guy didn't even check his computer!

"Any Matt & Kim?"
-stares at me- "No."
"Any Bowling for Soup?"
"No."

lolwut.

And it's not like I wanted Asking Alexandria or something. The bands I named were all pretty well-known. They have none of ATL's albums islandwide either, except for Dirty Work, which I'm not so interested in.

Anyway, on my sixth try, they finally had a band I was looking for, and it was Foster the People. They just released their debut album, Torches. I got that album, and then played it three times straight the next morning. Yep it's that good. I like FTP. Lifang got a Green Day album, and the soundtrack to some movie. And we got ice-cream, and Lifang got a taiwanese drama.

My New Zealand's Natural ice-cream started dripping once I got it, and I had to ask for a cup (I also had to pay an extra 70 cents for it -___-) and a spoon, and then I dunked my ice-cream inside, with the cone sticking out awkwardly. It was my first time eating it too.

Oh and I also bought a really cute little calender and a bunch of pretty post-its for the gift exchange me, Dionne, Jiams and Elaine had on the 30th. Can't remember if I bought anything else, but my favourite buy was definitely my FTP album. <3

I also want two other albums now- Green Day's American Idiot and The Cab's Symphony Soldier. I'm thinking of trying to find a Matt & Kim album as well, though I think that'll be a little harder because they're not really that well-known.

On the 29th, I met up with Yueyao and Nigel! We went to Ikea, which is the same place we went to on the day our 'o' levels ended, 14th November. I always have lots of fun when I go out with these two because we have the same sense of humour and everything I see just seems a whole lot funnier.

We ate twice and hung around Ikea doing dumb stuff :) Oh and Yueyao was saying that I have to watch this taiwanese drama called In Time With You, so she was enthusiastically telling me, "It's a romance story" and Nigel said sarcastically, "Surprise!" I know it doesn't sound funny but it was reaaally funny at that time! -awkward silence-

Then after that we went to Nigel's house. His dad and sister were there in the same room so we didn't make a lot of noise. We watched Nigahiga videos hahaha.

The 30th was me, Dionne, Jiaminn and Elaine's mini post-christmas outing! We wanted more people to come, but most of them couldn't make it in the end D:

So we went to cycle instead. It was fun but it got really tiring after a while. My butt was sore from the lousy rented bicycle seats and I got a blister on my right thumb, no idea how it got there. I haven't cycled in a long while so I forgot how fun it was :)

After that we had cup noodles at the bicycle rental shop, and then we went for dinner at BBQ Chicken, E!hub. I got honey roasted chicken with coleslaw and mashed potato. Dionne got the same side dishes as me but they made a mistake and gave us french fries instead of coleslaw. When we told them, they gave us coleslaw but didn't take back the fries, so we had 3 side dishes :D

Dinner turned out to be really filling. We did our gift exchange there and Jiams made us all shout 'MERRY CHRISTMAS' to one another on the count of three. Needless to say, we got quite a few stares HAHA. We drew lots to determine who got what present and I got Dionne's while Dionne got mine, and vice versa for Jiams and Elaine.

I got a pretty brown bracelet, photo frame and this thing that looks like a stud and can be inserted into a jack (preferably iPhone's) for decoration purposes. Dionne received my cute little calender and post-its of course, and Jiams got two different boxes of chocolates and something else from Elaine, while Elaine got socks and I-can't-remember-what-else from Jiams.

I like my presents :) I also got a really pretty notebook from Dionne as a belated birthday present (three months belated LOL). I feel bad that people have been giving me gifts and I'm too broke now to buy anything nice for them :/ I didn't even buy anything for anyone other than my family from my trip to Taiwan.

I shall make amends next year :3

Oh, and HAPPY NEW YEAR! 2011 has actually been a pretty great year, thanks to all my friends and family :) You're all special and I love you guys <3 Count your blessings, be happy with what you've got, and remember life's too short to always be unhappy. SMILE!

BYE :D

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But baby where they knock you down and out, is where you oughta stay

Right, so I just came home from my dad's fish farm... We went there in the afternoon and spent a night there. There's really nothing much to do there, unless you're into fishing, staring at the sea, stuff like that. It's okay though. But sleeping there was hellish, because the four of us had to share one bed and my dad snores really loudly. I barely slept at all.

I don't really feel that tired now though. Maybe cause I just had awesome pancakes from the stall downstairs >:)

Me, my parents and my brother are going to my brother's church later. Well, it's kind of like my mom wants me to go and I don't really want to. I don't really have such good impressions of churches, or rather, the people in them... no offense to any christians, I'm just generalising here.

OH, I just remembered. MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE. I keep forgetting it's Christmas Eve. Not really in a festive mood this year :/

Anyway, three days ago, me and Jiaminn went to Little India together because she wanted to get henna. I wanted to get it too but my mom told me beforehand not to get any done, darn. We both felt really unsafe in a place so unfamiliar ahaha. There were very few chinese around too, so we felt like we were in someplace foreign.

Oh and the traffic there is crazy, people just jaywalk freely and expect vehicles to brake on their behalf. And in turn, people drive like madmen. Jiaminn and I got out of there before the sun started setting and we went to The Soup Spoon at City Hall for dinner.

We then window-shopped after that. Topshop was having a sale but the stuff there's never really been my cup of tea, except for their coloured jeans. Ohoh and we saw this shirt that said 'RELAX' and next to it was another shirt that said 'Shut Up'.

Jiams told me she should get the 'Shut Up' shirt because I always talk too much, and I should get the 'RELAX' shirt lolol. And I do not talk too much! But anyway neither of us got the shirts in the end D:

The day before, I met Tania on her off-day. Original plan was to have lunch and go to her place to do song covers but we went to watch a movie first, Mission Impossible: Ghost Protocol. It was great, surprisingly! Entertaining, not-that-cliched, good effects. If you haven't watched it already, you should!

Then we went to Subway where there was a cute guy manning the counter. I thought he was kinda cute initially, then he smiled and I was like O.O then :))))

Nah I'm just kidding, I definitely didn't smile like that, that would be creepy. We sat down and started eating and somehow Tania's meatball marinara decided to show its ugly side... it literally looked like trash! The more I looked at it, the more I felt like puking.

Then Tania spotted a baby cockroach on the wall next to a stack of bread. -shakes finger- We were staring at it until one other Subway colleague noticed it too, and he/she nudged the cute Subway guy who used his fast reflexes to kill the thing with one blow! Hehehe

After that we went to Tania's place with the intention of doing and recording a song cover, but as usual, we didn't get anything done. Haha it was the same case with this previous time when we practised Ne-Yo's Because of You but didn't record it in the end as well.

End of post; I think it's safe to say you can expect a picture post soon... But don't expect much!
I will see you cats on the flip-flop, laterrrrr.

BYE

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Right, don't say I didn't warn you, this post is gonna be quite a bit of a rant because I'm kinda pissed now. I suggest you don't read it at all, really.

I just watched this I.aM.mE video of the whole crew except Pacman doing a performance in Toronto. It's a compilation of most of the dances, including duets and trios, that they've done together. It was amazing, especially the part where Emilio and Jaja did Jaja's Fire Power choreo together, because I've been waiting forever to see two of my favourite dancers duet.

But throughout the entire ten minutes, there was this bitch who was shrieking Chachi's name, over and over and fucking over again, like literally every five seconds. I usually don't complain much about screaming during live performances because I know it's normal for someone to get a little too excited when you see your idols, but this bitch was insane.

Other than the fact that she was screaming every five seconds, she also had the voice of a broken blender. It was like some mad cow shrieking again and again, "CHACHI! CHACHIIII!" And it wasn't the kind of yell to express love for Chachi, it was the kind of attention-seeking yell, like a "LOOK AT ME CHACHI, I WANT YOU TO LOOK AT ME! OVER HERE!" It was stupid and completely unnecessary.

Also, the psychotic woman was repeatedly screaming Chachi's name even while the rest of the I.aM.mE crew were doing their own solos and duets. How sick is that? If you're at an I.aM.mE concert, that means you're an I.aM.mE fan, not an obsessed Chachi stalker. At least have some fucking respect for the other dancers while they're getting their spotlight. It was almost like she was demanding they step off and make way for Chachi.

Don't get me wrong, I love Chachi to bits, she was the first dancer from I.aM.mE I ever knew and I watched all her videos before I started on the rest of the crew, and she has mad talent for a fifteen-year-old girl. But I'm not saying she's my favourite; I don't believe in having favourites in a dance crew because everyone has their own talent, but her legions of fans are pissing me off.

Most of them only like her because she's young, fresh and pretty. Yes, Chachi is good-looking, but compared to the rest of I.aM.mE in terms of skill, she still has much to learn. Even in other videos of the other members doing duets with Chachi, there are people who only pay attention to Chachi, even if the other dancer does better.

And it really makes me wonder how many other obsessed Chachi fans there are out there in the world, because it scares me. After all, Chachi's only fifteen, there's only so much she can handle.

Well anyway, I've kind of cooled off now. But I'm still mad because that video would probably be one of my favourite ones of I.aM.mE, if only it didn't have that crazy bitch screaming like she was going to have a heart attack.

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Why don't you say so?

I had this amazing dream last night, I somehow successfully auditioned to be a part of I.aM.mE crew, and together we were going to audition for a dance competition. While backstage, I began panicking because we were going to perform one of their most famous dance routines ever, the Ill-emental, which they actually did in real life, on ABDC.
In the Ill-emental, Emilio is Earth, Chachi is Fire, Jaja is Electricity, Brandon is Wind, Moon is Machine (Metal) and Pacman is Water. In my dream, my element was Firework. Yes, I know it makes no sense at all HAHA but dreams never make sense.

Anyway, while everyone else knew the choreo perfectly well, I was the new member so I didn't know anything at all, and Pacman sat down and talked to me to try and keep calm. He also told me he believed in me and I was gonna rock thanks to my improvisation skills... Ugh, one of my best dreams ever, hands-down.
Unfortunately I didn't remember much of the dream when I woke up, other than that part, and that I saw Jaja Vankova's eyes in the dream, and they were brown. They're actually this really amazing greyish-blue colour in real life, so in my dream I was thinking to myself, ooh so she was wearing coloured contacts all along! Ahaha stupid.
On a completely non-related note, I'm currently listening to Therapy by All Time Low now. They're such an amazing band. I just heard Therapy yesterday, it's beautiful.

"Therapy is a kid's worst nightmare, because everyone is telling them that they need help, when all they really need is a hug."
- Alex Gaskarth

BYE

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This is a rebel love song

As you can see, my current favourite song is Rebel Love Song by Black Veil Brides... It's the first song I've ever heard from them. Who knows, maybe I'll grow to become a huge BVB fan, maybe not. -shrug- But yeah, I really like Rebel Love Song. And it's kind of funny because I pronounce Rebel as 'Ree-bell', thanks to being Asian, but Andy Biersack is all 'THIS IS A RAAARE-BOL LOVE SONG'. Mm.

Anyway, I got my contacts last week or so. I felt disgusted when I had to put them on because you have to literally touch your eyeballs and move those pieces of plastic around before they finally settle, the stubborn things. They're not exactly the most comfortable things in the world either.

I wore them the day before, when I went to meet Tania for dinner, after which we went to her place to make steamed pork buns (yum)

We had dinner at the tampines interchange foodcourt. There was this good-looking guy next to me and I was eyeing him, and Tania said, "I know what you're thinking." HAHA. He had really nice features.

He was sitting with people I think are his colleagues- one red-haired girl and a malay guy who spoke fluent chinese. After our dinner, they happened to finish theirs as well, and the malay guy stood up, came to our table and asked Tania for her number! I was like O.O while I watched the exchange (Tania's face turned red and the guy kept persisting) because I've never actually seen anyone ask for someone else's number ahaha.

The steamed pork buns were kind of a success! They tasted good but looked... disfigured. There was a bit of meat, carrot and vegetable poking out at different places... Right, you get the idea.

Yesterday was our 1F'08 outing to Sentosa :D

Only 12 people turned up though :( There was me, Dionne, Elaine, Jiaminn, Lianne, Tania, Paul, Ryan, Andrew, Jerome, Haixin and Zheqian. It was actually pretty fun! We brought food, played ball games and sat down and played Werewolf, hainan jifan and lots of other games... Oh and we waded into the sea as well. This arsehole called Ryan came and splashed salty water all over us. Paul and Haixin left halfway.

After we left Sentosa we went to have dinner at a place that sold noodles. Dionne, Elaine and Jm didn't eat with us though, Elaine had to go home so D and Jm left with her.

Lianne, Tania and I were pretty much silent throughout the meal: we usually don't talk much or at all while we're eating. So the guys were all chitchatting, and Lianne said to me and T, "Are we the only friends that don't talk while eating?" Hahaha

Later we all took the train home, and everyone else went home while Lianne and I went to catch a movie at E!Hub. We watched New Year's Eve, a pretty nice show :) I initally thought Jake T. Austin was really cute, but then Lianne mentioned that he sounded like Bieber, and the more we watched him, the more we realised he looked like Bieber as well... -shudders-

When I got home it was about 12. Woke up in the morning feeling like crap, especially since I slept with a wet head, being too lazy to dry my hair properly.

Right, I'm off to Youtube.

BYE

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Shut Up And Smile!

Sail around the world and tell 'em all to keep singing it
La la la la la
All we need's a harmony and we'll convince the world to sing
La la la la la
Throw your arms around someone
Maybe spread a little love
I know it sounds a little dumb
Or maybe we're a little drunk
But all we need is some ice-cream and a hug

;D

I love this song to bits.
BFS definitely need more publicity; they're so darn underrated! I think their style is pretty similar to that of All Time Low's but ATL is much more popular. It's so unfair. Not that I don't love ATL, because they're incredible. :)

When I die, I want to play BFS music at my funeral, because they're just so happy. But wait, I also want to play Mcr songs like Disenchanted and Welcome to the Black Parade and Helena. My Mcr playlist would have to have at least 30 songs because I can't decide which few I want... OH and Sleep definitely has to go on as well.

Actually, I don't know if I want my funeral to be sad or happy. I want people to mourn me -Garfieldface-

Ugh, my mom is pestering me to read that econs book she made me borrow. And my dad's asking me to practise my piano. It's the holidays, give me a break. Pun intended.

Next year's gonna be a whirlwind of atrocious JC life; can't I relax for the time being? :/

Anyway. I've found a new goal in life, and that's to learn how to play Make Me Wanna Die by The Pretty Reckless on the piano. Which I'm about to start doing now... so.

BYE

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OHMYGOD, I suddenly understand the I.aM.mE logo! O.O

See, the members of I.aM.mE are always wearing these shirts that have thumbprints on them, and in the middle they say 'I AM ME'. But I never understood it, and I never understood their trademark handsign either, which is to hold your right hand up with only your thumb outstretched like you're saying 'Good', but you have to bend your wrist 90 degrees to your left, so your thumb points to your left.

Anyway, it's the THUMBPRINT. 'I Am Me', it's saying you're unique and different from everybody else, hence the large thumbprint that's always on their shirts. Damn.

And yeah, that's all I wanted to talk about. HAHA. I just realised it as I was watching one of their very first interviews, before they went to audition for America's Best Dance Crew. They did the handsign at the end of the video, and I was staring at their hands, then at their matching t-shirts, and then it all clicked in my brain. BAM.

Another thing I'm really perked about is that CHRISTMAS IS COMING. Tis' the season to be jolly, fa la la la la, la la la la.

My folks aren't big on the whole christmas thing though, we don't exchange presents or anything like that. Anyways, the things on my wishlist are things they prolly can't give me.

My Christmas Wishlist
1. Alex Gaskarth
2. Emilio Dosal
3. Ability to dance like Djavna Vankova
4. Four weekdays a week
5. An MCR backpack
6. Stay sixteen for the next ten years
7. A pet python
8. 10 packs of Extra's strawberry chewing gum
9. World peace

See, the MCR backpack and chewing gum are probably the most easy to get, and even so, those two are pretty hard. I've searched long and hard for an MCR backpack, but I've never actually found one. The chewing gum has to be bought from overseas since Singapore bans it :/

Right, off to dinner.

BYE

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Dedication takes a lifetime, but dreams only last for a night.

I believe it was yesterday when I was writing 2010's "Things I Have Done This Year."
And lookee here, 2011 is coming to a close :/

It's honestly crazy how this year flew by. I loved being sec4, though the novelty kinda wore off after the chunks of schoolwork and revision came piling in. Still, it was a pretty awesome year. I miss my classmates, if you haven't seen my tweets yet.

I miss my killjoy bestie Lifang. Yesterday it kinda hit me that we won't ever get another chance to beg our amath teacher to let us listen to Led Zeppelin while doing our test. No more scribbling Mcr lyrics in my notebook in class, and no more making fun of our awesome chinese teacher.

And I miss Yy and camwhoring with her during lessons, and daring each other to do the weirdest things possible. And my lovely study buddy Zhenying, and squirrelly friend Kairong, and hollywood maniac Tmt...

No more eating popcorn in chemistry, no more calling our unsuspecting physics teacher 'Mr. Dumb' instead of Mr. Tham, no more playing Taboo in music, no more hiding in the toilet to escape PE lessons.

I never really realised how much fun I had in school until it ended, aside from all the studying and mugging toward the end of the year. Even 'o' levels were kind of exciting as well, though there's no way in hell I'd want to relieve the whole experience. But if I could, I would gladly go back to January
and start all over again, because I know I'd treasure my final year in Anglican High a lot more.

Anyway, went to E!Hub and Orchard on Wednesday with Lianne and Tania. Tania got two more piercings, one on her helix and the other in the middle of her other ear, I don't know what it's called. It was a whopping seventy dollars altogether because it was a professional tattoist who did it.

Lianne and I got red highlights (?) in our hair as well, but it was kind of a waste of money for me because you can't really see the highlights. Thankfully I didn't pay that much for it.

Also, I'm getting contact lenses today! 2pm at one of the optical shops in Eastpoint. I hope I don't ever get any infections ._.

Well, I don't think I have anything left to say... OH. I'd love to know where all my US readers are sprouting up from, because I checked my stats today. 85 US viewers and only 31 Singaporean viewers this week. Other countries are all below 31. Seriously, where are you guys coming from??

Maybe I should put up a tagboard and insist everyone tag, though I don't think you'd listen to me ahahaha. My stats tell me no one's been googling me and only about 10 people came from my friends' blogs, soooo I believe you all have been directly typing my URL into your browsers.

Which is flattering, but I really want to know how you all even got a hold of my blog url in the first place. I'm seriously considering putting up a tagboard.

Right. I'll be off now to watch more I.aM.mE videos and possibly contract depression.

BYE

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Nothing to kill or die for.

I'm currently listening to John Lennon's Imagine. It's a lovely song, unrealistic but deep. (Isn't it always that way?) There will always be religion, bloodshed, suffering and poverty, at least as long as mankind is around.

Well anyway,

(Ooh Mayday Parade's Anywhere But Here is on now!)

I feel like I'm wasting my holidays away. I get up at 10 or 11, and if I don't go out, I laze at home with mtv, my phone and anything tasty I find in the fridge. Then I use the laptop and blog while I listen to music, or read a book till midnight, then I sleep. Like a pig :/

Recently I've been watching a lot of I.aM.mE and Poreotics videos, and I get really depressed when I watch I.aM.mE videos, mainly because of Chachi Gonzales. I love Chachi, she's my inspiration, but it doesn't help that she's only four months younger than I am. Fifteen years old, and she's won America's Best Dance Crew and taught dance to people older than her.

And I watch her videos, and just get more depressed because I'm sitting here watching her shine onstage, which makes me feel like I've failed my life or something. I know it doesn't make sense. Plus, if there's something I really suck at, it's dancing.

So I just get into one of my sulky moods because I don't see how Chachi can be so talented and I can't. Honestly, I'm mediocre at almost everything I do, it's true.

But still, I love Chachi. Just as much as I love Moon, Jaja, Brandon, Emilio and Pacman. Gawd, the way Pacman moves should be illegal, it's like he doesn't own a single bone in that body. Nuts, I tell ya. And Moon's choreography is sick.

But back to the main topic. I'm going for an admin job interview on Monday with Jiams, Elaine and maybe Dionne... hope we get the jobs so I won't feel like I'm wasting my holiday away! Right now I'm neither a student (graduated long ago) nor a worker, so I feel like I'm not contributing to society at all, just sitting here rambling my butt away.

I wanna be useful!

BYE

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But there's room for two, six feet under the stars

As you can see from the title of this post, Six Feet Under The Stars by ATL is my current favourite song... Along with a few others that the awesome Dionne recommended me... She told me to go listen to a few bands like The Cab and The Pretty Reckless and so I did. They have amazing music! I heard The Cab is great live too, so if they ever come to SG, I'm definitely going. :)

Oh yeah, I'm not blogging about the rest of the Taiwan trip anymore, sorry if you wanted me to! I just read the other girls' blogs and thought it'd be better if you guys read their Taiwan posts instead cause they have pictures and all and the posts are much more accurate. My previous post on Day 1 and 2 were only produced based on my memory ahaha.

Lianne: catchingaeroplanes.blogspot.com
Tania: tania-ng.blogspot.com
Emily: emilychok.blogspot.com
As for Zijun, I don't think she blogged at all about Taiwan hahah.

(Random: I'm listening to Disenchanted now and it reminds me of Lifang, I miss that girl and she hasn't been replying my texts --> I sound like a clingy boyfriend)
Anyways, today I finished reading Saved by the Music and it's gorgeous. Best read in a long while. Plus it ended in a happy ending, and I love happy endings.

It's about the two main characters, Willow and Axel, as they discuss Shakespeare's famous quote, "All the world's a stage, and all the men and women merely players."

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"But Shakespeare was right," he said. "We are all just players. We have no control. Someone else wrote the script, and we're all at their mercy. It's like the witches in Macbeth predicting his fate, luring him to it. The die is cast."

"I'd say Macbeth's fate had more to do with his pushy wife."

"I'd just like some choice. I'd like to write the script for once."

"Then pick up a pen."

-

And there it was, like when I read that line I was just- wow. Mindblown. It's just one short sentence that kinda closes the subject, almost like Willow's saying, really easily, that we can all write our own fates, nothing's really written in the stars.

It's an amazing book. There's so much more I would quote, almost the whole book in fact, but of course I'm not doing that, it's nuts.

Well basically this book's about Willow, neglected and quite alone, who goes to stay with her eccentric Aunt Agatha (This sounds like Charles Dickens' Great Expectations) for the summer. And there she meets Axel , a troubled boy three years older than her, with a disturbing past.

I know it sounds cliched and all, even I wasn't expecting much when I borrowed this book. Sounds like some typical boy-meets-girl (and vice versa) summer love story, right? But it ain't.

Axel is deep, from the way he talks in the book, you'd think he was fifty or something. He's full of philosophy and Shakesperean quotes, also depressed and sick with life.

Oh and the author describes him as a young Jim Morrison double, complete with the straggly hair and hippie look, though in the book he's only eighteen. But I see him as a Warren Peace. The guy from Sky High with the fire power.

I love this book, I just wish I didn't have to return it :(

Anyway, it's bedtime. 10.53pm now. I think I'm re-reading the book tomorrow ahaha.

BYE

(Edit: Ah, my paragraphing's screwed up. But I know you'll forgive that)

(Edit again: Solved my paragraphing, yay)

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