Darling you'll be okay

I feel like one of the few remaining people left I know who still blog on a regular basis haha other than L and T. C blogs but not that often and Em kind of abandoned her blog I think.

I don't even know what to blog about these days ahaha since my life is so mundane. Oh I just heard Dropbeat Heartbeat will be opening for All Time Low when they come here on 6th March OMG I am so happy for them :') and I'm happy for myself too cause I looove their live performances! Ahhhhhh so excited gahhhhh.

Pierce The Veil in 16 days. Breathe zoey breathe.

Chinese new year is just round the corner :'( damn.

Can I just put on my new clothes and stay at home pleaaaaase.

haha gonna sleep now. I end school at 5 tomorrow, how sad. Plus we have to run 4 rounds for pe tomorrow and I haven't even fully recovered from yesterday's 2.4km, my legs still hurt haha.

Which reminds me, I completed 2.4 in exactly 15min!!! I'm so proud of myself! Haha ok I know it's nothing much to some people but it is to me alright since I've never liked running at all.

Ok time to sleep. Two more days till the end of the week woohoo that was pretty fast actually

BYE

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Walking travesty

There are the people who like a nice-chord, relatively pop-sounding song from a band - Therapy, for instance - and say, "wow it's nice", and tell everyone to go listen to it. Then they start checking out other songs from the same band, or their friends recommend other songs to them, and they listen and they like those other songs too, and they decide they're fans of the band, because their music is pretty nice, it's catchy and the lyrics are great. They even tweet "#nowplaying" or some of the lyrics, so other people may think they have decent or cool taste in music.

Then there are the people like us.

The people who don't just appreciate music, we are in love with it. We are the people who teether on the thin line between passion and obsession. We are the people who feel this unexplainable joy that nothing else in life can give you when we hear a guitar riff we love so much, or when we feel the pounding of the bass when our music is turned up so loud we can't hear anything else. We know every word, every riff, we play air guitar, we play air drums.

We are the people who wish they could forget about life and just sit in a corner of their room and listen to music all day long. We would often rather be alone with our music than go talk to other people. We love riding in buses alone, just staring out the window listening to music.

We would give anything to hear our favourite bands perform live. We are the people who buy all kinds of band merch and albums. We love music because it takes us to places life can't, and because it has always been there for us.

And you wonder why we look at all these mainstream people and hate that they like the songs that are our lives. Because they will never feel the way we do about music.

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We can travel through time, we can sleep on the ceiling and creep under black lights

Sitting here waiting for my dad to finish cooking lunch YUM

Life has been the same old. I think I can summarise everything from the past week into a few words: mugging, tired, airport, food, jamming, routine.

Mug mug mug mug I feel like it's all we SG kids ever do. And if you don't mug you feel guilty 😂

I am so hungryyyy.

Oh and HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIANNE! I think I've said it all in my card haha so anyway have a great 18th!!! You're so old!!!

It's kind of just hitting me that I'm J2 and I'm going to turn 18 in 9 months. Well it's actually quite a while later but it doesn't feel like it since it's this year. Where does the time go 😔

Off to find food

BYE

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Go down your list and be satisfied, it's all you have

So tired right now.

Second week of school and I am pretty shagged. The weekend was spent not mugging and doing a scrapbook for Et whose birthday was yesterday :) It turned out pretty though even though me and Jiams were the ones who worked on it mainly and neither of us are artistically inclined by nature HAHA so yay

Yesterday we were released at 2.30pm because the gp teacher didn't come, but I stayed back with my gp group to do our gp questions till 4pm, which is the time we were supposed to be released, how hardworking of us. Though we digressed a lot haha.

Then I rushed home to get Et's other present, a pretty backpack, and met her, Jiams and Dt for dinner at Hei Sushi. The food was average I feel :( We were so stuffed at the end of the buffet haha. And I laughed so hard hahhaa omg. Had a good time with them :')

Today started off terrible because I woke up at 8.30am, which is the time we're suppsed to start assembly on tuesdays. Reached school at 10am in time for break ahaha and then we had math.

I was so pissed that the math test was cancelled because I studied till 12 for it after feeling guilty that I spent the whole evening out playing, and I couldn't wake up because of that, plus I studied half an hour in the morning for it before coming to school.

Hate it when tests get postponed!!!

After school I rushed to mj after lunch to get my pencil case from Jiams cause I left it with Dt the night before, and then I came home and had one of the most productive study sessions in my life at home. I usually have the shortest attention span ever at home when I try to get work done. Today was a great exception :)

Then was tuition, and then I did my chem homework. I feel like I've been working pretty hard the whole day.

Listening to music now yay. I want to play guitar but it's nearly 12 and everyone's asleep. And I'm super tired.

I need to go out properly soon. Wanna go to a music event. Like Clash of the Bands or Baybeats or something. But those don't start till around mid-year :(

Which reminds me...

PTV in 24 days. Yup. It's gonna fly by, and before I know it I'll be there seeing them live. Gosh. Dying of anticipation.

Oh yes, I finally got my new year outfit. Only bought a top this year haha since my family only goes visiting like one day. Got it while new year shopping with Lum and Sj on sunday. Was about to give up after a day of hunting and not finding anything that was suitable or that I really really liked, then before we were gonna leave H&M I saw it -gasp- ahaha

And I'm gonna wear the denim jeans I always wear haha and my baby blue shoes I got from taiwan that I haven't worn yet.

Okk really need to crash now

BYE

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"You remember Mr. Ong Eng Kiat, our physics teacher? How he said once that his old class reunions were never complete because some were dead, some were ill and some had gone off to who knows where? Yeah well I never thought it would happen to us. We're just... so young. We're only eighteen. I can't believe it."

Life is short, and though I never really knew you, I honestly hope you're happier where you are now. I'll pray for your family and friends, and may they find peace someday.

RIP

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Have faith in me

Upcoming events:

1. Chinese new year. I think I blog every year about how much I dislike chinese new year. Bright colours everywhere, loud terrible music, over-enthusiasm, awkward house visits for us kids, having to put in effort to look decent (I always wish I could just throw on a black t-shirt and shorts), icky tidbits (idk why but I'm just not a fan of cny goodies. Tapioca chips and love letters are exceptions) and of course, the overload of comments on my unusual height.

Speaking of which, my tutor said today "Actually you're not even tall. You're not even 175. I've seen girls like this tall" -hand motion-

And I didn't even know how to react hahaha could only say "You're the first person to say that." Funny guy

2. Of course, PIERCETHEVEIL. 25 days ahaha. I remember when it was news that they were doing an SEA tour without Singapore and during that period of time I couldn't listen to their songs without feeling like crying. And now when I listen to their songs I feel like crying for entirely different reasons haha.

3. CAs and a bunch of tests. I'm so scared, I really am. Actually, I love to mug, is that weird? I like to learn and I actually feel kinda happy about going out alone on the weekends to mug or get some work done. I love to learn. But I hate tests and exams and the amount of emphasis on these things. I think it's the fear of failure.

Jiams said the other day (or was it yesterday) that actually our lives are really easy, but yet we whine so much about it. And I realise it's true, we have nearly nothing to worry about.

Our parents provide everything for us, we have a roof over our heads, beds to sleep in, more than enough food, transport, means of communication, education and security.

All we have to do is mug. Really hard.

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Imagine that

seventeen and tired of life.

Up on your soap box, preaching down to the sinners

1. I have a chem test tomorrow and I am so screwed for it I don't even have the will to study anymore. :(

2. Pierce The Veil in 30 days, All Time Low in 49 days. My heart just beats faster everytime I think about it.

3. Tired, nearly died from pe yesterday and there is pe tomorrow. Can we not have pe please.

4. Time Is Running Out by Muse

5. Went jamming yesterday night and it was great, we ended up jamming every song we could think of and I had fun haha

6. Didn't have school today because it was e-learning day. It was supposed to end at 12.40pm but I actually put in effort so I finished at 2 haha then I slacked my butt off for a while before going to meet Shijia to mug. Pretty productive I guess, definitely way more productive than if I were to try to stay at home and study

7. Meesua for dinner yay I love meesua although it practically has no nutritional value

8. Off to try to mug for the test :( so tired gah

BYE

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There are some things that I regret, like never checking out the odds against this bet

Another wasted sunday :( anyway, random pictures from the past week.

And this chaos, it defies imagination

Just came back from acoustic jamming sigh I feel so happyyyyy.

Went to the tamp studio with Charles & Jeromy and we did:

1. Starlight - Tonight Alive
2. With Ears To See And Eyes To Hear - Sleeping With Sirens
3. Remembering Sunday - All Time Low ft. Juliet Simms
4. If It Means A Lot To You - A Day To Remember

in that order.

I felt kinda sad when singing Starlight even though it's supposed to be a happy song because I was thinking of Jenna McDougall's voice in my head and how I wish I had her very distinct female pop-punk tone haha. So envious

I think With Ears was pretty good, yay

Remembering Sunday was meh, it's very nice to listen to but really not a fun song to jam haha. We stopped halfway, I think Jeromy was getting really bored with nothing much to do on the cajon haha.

I had the most fun jamming the last song! I love playing the chords for If It Means A Lot To You, they just sound so good.

Anyway, finally got it all sorted out, tickets are booked and it's official; I'm seeing Pierce The Veil on 15th Feb holy shiiiiiiit :')

Gonna be my first concert ever. I am so so so stoked. You can't even begin to imagine my stoked-ness. It's basically my dream to watch my favourite bands perform live.

32 days to PTV, 51 days to ATL.

Also, it just occured to me that I'm seeing both of my celeb crushes omg. Tony Perry and Alex Gaskarth. Breathe zoey breathe.

I need to crash. School tomorrow sigh. But so happy I ended my weekend on a high note :')

BYE

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I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart

Currently going through a Muse phase. I have so much respect for them. They're like the Albert Einsteins of modern music.

School has been okay-ish so far. I still can't wait till I get out even though it's only January 12 haha.

The other day my tutor said "This holiday- between your A levels and until you start uni, this will be the best time of your life." And he said it with so much seriousness.

I am just dying of anticipation for that break haha

Kinda weird that all tutorials are now at the D block. It's definitely a good thing though, the D block is quieter and much nearer to the canteen. In fact it's situated right above it. The E block we used in J1 was right above the cafe so we ate a whole load of overpriced junk food last year :/

My tutors are ok too I guess. The lesson I dislike the most is still PE haha. Unless we're playing games. I really don't like running T__T

The other day we ran 5 rounds though and I ran without stopping though heh heh though I was running at brisk walk pace so my timing sucked, and we did a bunch of other exercises so my legs and butt ache now.

Oh and yes, tickets for Pierce The Veil came out yesterday. They were released at 12pm and I was sitting right next to the laptop at the guitar booth but I completely forgot about it goshhhh. Until Charles came down and said "It's 11.59!" And I went "huh wha... OMG" and jumped up from my seat

I'm going with him and Jess so we booked 3 tix but there's some problem, our account order history shows nothing and we haven't received the confirmation email, but at least we aren't the only ones. It's annoying. I just want to confirm that I'm going to the concert -___-

Totally should've rushed down to Chinatown yesterday to buy tickets or something. Tomorrow I'm going to spam call them until I get confirmation. Inefficient people.

If I'm really really going to the concert, songs I want to hear PTV play live:

1. Million Dollar Houses
2. Disasterology
3. Hold On Till May
4. Bulls In The Bronx
5. A Match Into Water
6. Caraphernelia

I would include King For A Day, in fact I'm basically dying to hear that live just like everyone else, but SWS isn't coming with them so I know they probably won't play that. Sigh.

Alright getting tired and sleepy. Spent the whole day mugging today, including two hours of tuition in the morning, so I'm deadbeat. But yay acoustic jamming tomorrow :)

BYE

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And every wave dragged me to sea

As hours move to minutes
And minutes take longer to break
I will be desperately awaiting
But my tongue won't fall apart
And we've been sitting here for hours
All alone and in the dark

So let me think of how to word it
Is it too soon to say 'perfect'?
If I could find another thirty minutes somewhere
I'm sure everything will find me

All that's left is just to sing.

Nightmares no longer wait for sleep

Dying omg so tired. I honestly feel like I can't survive the month, let alone the whold year.

I can't wait till I get out of college. I feel so stressed because I'm falling behind in class and there are tests coming up and all that gah.

I didn't even do any work today because I came home straight from guitar and I can't do anything at all at home, like really anything. I just sit there with my phone and I stare at my homework. I'm much, much more productive when I study outside.

11 more months till this is all over, sigh. Everyone says this is going to be a short year but it just feels like eternity.

Poured out some stuff to a friend and thought, shit what am I doing. But I felt so much better after that, so thanks friend.

Time for bed. I end at 4pm tomorrow, what is air. But at least I end at 10am on friday.

Still completely undecided on if I should join SYC or not. Fishcakes, I finally made up my mind on no just now, but apparently if you don't join syc your cca attendance will still be counted in which means your attendance will really suck and all ermahgerd. But quitting would erase everything that you've done before that. So idk. But it's 80% no right now.

I can barely cope with my work right now, cca needs to take a step back.

On the bright side, Pierce The Veil in one month and All Time Low in two, hollehhhhh shittttt.

PTV tickets are apparently out this friday, though I have no idea how much tickets are. I hope I have enough to pay for one oh my god please let me have enough.

I haven't told my mom either. Will probably tell her after I've bought my ticket haha just in case she doesn't want me to go. I would never not go to a PTV concert though, I would try everything within my means to go.

Way too tired

BYE

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I'll burn your name into my throat, I'll be the fire that'll catch you

Saw a tweet: "Can't believe I'll be a J2 tomorrow." And it was like. WHAT. Oh my god. I didn't even.

I don't wanna. T____T

Off to the airport to do some work now

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But baby no sometimes things don't work out the way we planned

I just feel so tired now :( I don't think I've ever dreaded the first day of school so much.

I haven't finished my homework and I just heard that there's a physics test on the second day of school, which is in three days. Plus all our teachers were changed, except for Ms Wong (thank God so much, I have no idea how we'll survive without her as our CT) I thought they would mostly stay the same. Also, my body clock is screwed. And last but definitely not the least, PE oh my gosh I hate PE. I just really don't like running.

11 more months to go zoey. Go go go you can do this.

And I have tuition at 8am tomorrow. And I'll probably be going out to rush homework after that.

On another random note, I feel like unfollowing a huge bunch of people on twitter. Maybe I could constantly irritate everyone with my tweets about music ahaha so they'd unfollow me first and I wouldn't feel so bad about unfollowing them after that ok nvm just a thought

Shall turn in early tonight.

BYE

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This is sempiternal

I think I've done this before but anyway.

HI, LOOKING FOR A DRUMMER TO JAM FOR FUN. ANY AGE BUT PREFERABLY NOT OLDER THAN 21. MUST BE INTERESTED IN DOING POST-HARDCORE AND POP PUNK (EG. PIERCE THE VEIL, SLEEPING WITH SIRENS, A SKYLIT DRIVE, ALESANA, ALL TIME LOW, MAYDAY PARADE) PASSION IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN SKILL :) DON'T HESITATE TO CONTACT US! 98392518 Zoey

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Sometimes the moon looks brighter than the sun

I am getting way too used to sleeping at 1am every night :(

Today was good, woke up to a very random but sweet text from Jiams saying how she's so happy that she has a BFF like me awww :') hi wumsy I know you secretly stalk my blog I love you too and don't forget you're stuck with me for life!!!

And Christine WhatsApp-ed me that a reliable source says PTV is coming to Singapore oh my god. I was like is this real life? My wish came true?

I still can't believe it. 14th Feb 2013. Still in shock. Also, that means if they're realy really really coming, I'm losing my concert virginity to them first instead of All Time Low HAHA.

I just hope tickets are cheap. And SWS is most likely coming too which means I'll get to hear King For A Day live oh my god it's all I ever dream about. 14th Feb is barely a month and a half away from now, how is that possible? Time's gonna fly by really quickly.

Please let PTV confirm it soon plsplspls.

Spent the afternoon studying with Xuemin at Simei CC, it was quite productive. Just didn't like the chairs cause they had no backrests (I don't think they're meant for studying haha) and my back ached after awhile. Oh well.

Xm also asked me, "Do you ever feel emo suddenly for no reason?" And I was like omg I thought I was the only one.

Sometimes I feel really really happy and then sometimes I just feel like punching everyone. Just sometimes. And not exactly everyone either.

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And if they stole you from me, on my arm there's a tattoo of your name

Doing a tag thing from Shijia's blog! (cantbeartoforget.blogspot.com) been ages since I did one of these haha

1. Do you have a middle name?
Nope

2. What was your favourite subject in school?
English hands-down. I miss doing compos haha

3. What is your favourite drink?
Probably soya bean! Or just plain water. It depends on the situation haha

4. Favourite song at the moment?
Million Dollar Houses by Pierce The Veil

5. What would you name your child?
If it's a girl, Helena. After the my chemical romance song :) I haven't thought of boy names yet

6. Do you participate in any sports?
Never been in a sports cca though I've always wanted to join one. I do like basketball and netball though, and sometimes badminton

7. Favourite book?
I don't really have a favourite book. Probably the Harry Potter series and this book called Saved By The Music by Selene Castrovilla.

8. Favourite colour?
I think black, grey and green

9. Favourite animal?
Snakes, crocodiles, dogs, cats and pigs!

10. Favourite perfume?
I don't use perfume

11. Have you graduated high school?
Yup, sadly :( in junior college now

12. Have you been out of the country?
Yup

13. Do you speak any other languages?
Nope, just english and sub-standard chinese haha

14. Do you have any siblings?
an older brother

15. What's your favourite store?
None, but if I really had to pick, maybe HMV

16. Do you like school?
Good question. But now, no :( I dread it.

17. Favourite Youtubers?
None

18. Favourite movie?
None too. It's so hard to pick haha

19. PC or MAC?
Hmmm depends, I like both

20. What phone do you have?
Iphone 5, mainstream much haha

21. What phone do you want?
None, I'm content with mine

22. How tall are you?
172cm haha I'm a freak of nature

23. What do you order at Starbucks?
Usually a tall/venti mocha frap/dark mocha

24. One thing in your closet you cannot live without?
Clothes of course haha. My comfy t-shirts and shorts and jeans and jacket, I don't wear much else

25. What's one thing most people probably don't know about you?
Hmmm. When I'm awkward, I tend to touch the back of my neck a lot haha. I didn't realise it myself until lately.

26. Name one thing you want to do before you die.
There's so many things! I guess I'll say I want to go to an MCR concert before I die.

27. What's one food you cannot live without?
Vegetables I think. I love veggies in general

28. What quote/phrase do you live by?
Rules are meant to be broken.

29. Two pet peeves?
Hmmmm. I can't stand inconsiderate people. Like I get really really pissed when people rush into the train without letting others out first. I get a kick out of giving them a good shove when I get out the train. Can't think of a second pet peeve

30. Guilty pleasures?
Ice-creammmm.

BYE

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By streetlight, this dark night a seance down below

I DONT WANNA GO TO SCHOOL I DONT WANNA I DONT WANNAAAAAAAAAA.

Sitting here at 5.25pm eating some cereal and milk and waiting for my tutor to come. I basically spent the whole day nua-ing at home. Wanted to go to BK to mug but it looked crowded and I didn't feel like having Starbucks today so.

Then I decided to play my albums and do some math, and then I realised my The Black Parade and Three Cheers albums somehow have glitches in them and it annoyed and saddened me so much and I wanted to test them on the other stereo to see if it was the cd player or my cd's fault but I didn't dare in case it was really my cd.

Also lost the mood to do math, plus the questions just look so hard. And I haven't done my vectors tutorial ughhhhhh I hate math. Math is a bitchhhhhh

Ok. Tutor should be here any moment. Unless he completely forgot about tuition, which is not necessarily a bad thing because then I can finally go out to mug instead of being a pig at home.

Supper tonight with the BP gang yay

BYE

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Take a sad song and make it better

Just a quick S/O to all my dear girls who are sad about being single or so-called being alone on New Year's Eve, don't be sad! Good things are worth waiting for and one day you're gonna find a guy that's perfect for you :) Personally I think being single right now is a good thing, saves you the worry and heartache and time and money haha but well, cheer up! Time flies and before you know it, you won't be spending New Year's Eve alone ;) plus you're all beautiful inside and out, so you have nothing to worry about! Have a happy new year :)

I'm up at 2.17am blogging because I had teh si just now so I'm waiting for the caffeine to wear off. Gah.

I asked my tutor the other day who's studying in NUS if the people in Mass Comm are weird, and he said yeah a little, they're very... passionate about writing and journalism, and they have blogs, they have twitter, facebook, blablabla... and I was like oh my god I have all and he just paused haha it was funny

But it's kinda unnerving though, like I /heard/ mass comm people are bitchy and very vocal and weird and all that. No offense to anyone reading this who's in Mass Comm haha

And I thought about it, and like damn. I can be bitchy sometimes (but not unnecessarily, I know my limits. I think) and I'm vocal (once you get to know me and I decide I like you, if I don't like someone or I'm unfamiliar with them I tend to be very quiet around them) and I'm most definitely weird. The way I dress, my sense of humour, my taste in music are all not things society would define as 'conventional'.

Soooo. Does that make me a mass comm person? :( I wonder if that's a good thing. Maybe I'm a more awful person than I think :(

But anyway aiyah what am I saying. I should just study hard first right haha I don't even know if I can get into mass comm in the first place.

Gosh 2013 is going to be a very trying year. Good luck all, especially those taking A levels next year.

And here's a little something from C's blog.