This is just a little rant, some stuff to get off my chest that you readers may probably find dumb but anyway.

WHAT HAPPENED TO VARSITY FANCLUB MY GAWD I AM SO HEARTBROKEN AND DISTRAUGHT AND ANGRY AND UPSET.

I used to be a really huge fangirl of Varsity Fanclub, I loved them nearly as much as I used to love Ne-Yo because they were this five dorks that, I quote a Youtuber, would 'invade target and make a fool out of themselves'

And they made good teen pop music and were my favourite boyband ever but they were so obscure and no one I knew, knew who they were but it was okay because I loved them

And I, like most other fans, was upset when Thomas left but I still stayed true and I supported VFC when TC joined.

Then everything fell apart when Bobby left, and I suddenly realised VFC wasn't all that perfect after all, and there were sides in the group, and everyone was being nasty to one another, and it really broke us fans' hearts

When David left I wasn't really surprised because I knew it was coming, and he really made the right choice because look what VFC has become, what the heck is After Romeo what has happened to the five sweet boys who are Devin and Blake look at Drew getting on my nerves with all his cockiness

And how everything feels so fake in their latest promotional video and you can actually see the way Devin looks at Drew and you know he doesn't really like him

In short, I'm just happy for Thomas, Bobby and David because they look so much happier now, and I hope they're all good.

And I wish they didn't have to go on like that and try and keep up the facade, because it's ruined VFC's memory.

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And as I start to run I stop to breathe

I'll be here by the ocean just waiting for proof that there's sunsets and silhouette dreams
While my sandcastles fall like the ashes of cigarettes and every wave dragged me to sea
I could stand here for hours just to ask God the question, is everyone here make-believe
With a tear in his voice he says, son that's the question
Does this deafening silence mean nothing to no one but me


2 papers down, 3 left to go. I'm so fed up with econs. At least science subjects aren't so dry; econs is basically just memorising chunks and chunks of information and regurgitating everything and applying to context in exams.

I really don't know how people can like arts subjects haha #justsaying

My dad is cooking both lunch and dinner so I've to stay home for both and there's tuition at night which basically means very little time for me to go out and mug.

Staying home to study is not an option; I can never ever concentrate at home.

Yesterday was pretty productive though, I went to the staff canteen at T2 and mugged about 5 or 6 hours from 2pm to 10pm, the rest was spent playing with my phone or eating. Tsk tsk.

Then I couldn't study anymore, my brain felt real saturated so I packed up and went to sit in front of the departure information board to people-watch.

After that I met up with a childhood friend to go home together. I haven't seen him in 10 years!

We met cause I decided to type in his name on facebook one day and I didn't expect to find anything but he was the very first search result and I recognised him instantly, he really hasn't changed at all omg, not just looks-wise but personality-wise too.

So anyway I fb-messaged him because I was so sure he would remember me but turns out he had a really bad memory and didn't at all hahaha awk.

But anyway we found out we both live in simei now and he was working at the airport saturday (which is yesterday) and I happened to be going there to study too so we met up after.

It's nice to know that there are people out there who really don't change much at all :')

Hahaha and the funny thing was he spoke in chinese a couple of times and I kept huh-ing because I felt so unused to speaking in chinese conversationally.

The only times I've spoken chinese to my friends were in primary school, and after that I don't know why either but none of my friends in AHS use chinese to converse, so it was English all the way, anyway I'm more comfortable speaking english.

In the past few years I think I've only spoken chinese to my chinese teachers or to my grandmother who sometimes comes over.

Of course I still use chinese, but just bits of it. Kinda worried that one day I may just forget how to read and write the language altogether.

Anyway whoa this was supposed to be a short post but it's turned into an essay haha lazing on my bed now.

Need to go mug econs sigh. Go zoey go! 5 more days and it'll all be over!

BYE

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I was your chance to get out of this town

I've never told a lie
And that makes me a liar
I've never made a bet
But we gamble with desire
I've never lit a match
With intent to start a fire
But recently the flames are getting out of control

2 more days to promos and 10 more days till the end. Everything passes by so quickly.

Plans for today are pretty much the same as yesterday, the day before, the day before that... Mug.

I'm also going to school for a brief physics consultation, and then having tuition at night.

I decided to pick up my guitar recently again because I missed it too much, and now I'm playing every day, goshhh what a way to get distracted, good job zoey :(

Probably heading to starbucks later to do my mugging. TEN MORE DAYS.

I can't even remember the last time I've been to town, and that's a first. This feels a lot like 'O' levels.

Last but not least, good luck to everyone who's having their promos now, whichever school you're from! Let's all promote together! I hope none of my friends will have to undergo a three-year course, so best of luck bbys.

BYE

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The papers say, Johnny won't you come back home?

Haven't updated in ages :(

Promos are in 6 days and the end of promos are in 14 days. By tomorrow it'll mean less than two weeks to the end of promos wow. Where does the time go?

I've been studying, but I don't know if it's good enough. I'm most worried for chemistry now even though it used to be my best subject. Organic chem is a bitch! :(

Yesterday I mugged the day away with Ali, and later Nat and Dom happened to come to the same bk and we all mugged together ahaha it was fun, though 'fun' shouldn't be the word for a mugging sesh.

Sometimes I feel random waves of anxiety for my promos, like holy shit what if I don't promote I'll just kill myself omg

And other days I feel way too chill :/ today is one of those 'chill' days. In fact I just spent the last 45 minutes playing guitar and playing with my phone.

I'm sooo hungry. Can't wait till my mom comes home with food. Forever hungry these days, idk why. My own appetite scares me.

Off to mug a bit before dinner.

BYE

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We are the children of adelphia

Look at my guitar calluses :(((

I've always had kinda ugly fingers because my nails are unbelievably short, I have this terrible habit of playing with them and somehow 'peeling' off my nails, idk how to say it without sounding gross haha but anyway it doesn't hurt at all.

And now that I've started to play guitar my fingers just get uglier gahhh.

Oh well, oh well.

BYE

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But in the darkest times you find out what you're made of

So my new favourite song is Follow My Voice by For All Sleeping. It's amaaaazing. Not just musically, but lyrically as well. When their screamer screams "I don't want to be the voice of a generation, I just want to be a voice for you" and I just about die.

Anyway promos are in 18 days :((( I'm worried! Can't wait for after promos and I can just rot away.

The past few days have been great, in fact I feel like I've enjoyed this short one week 'break' even though I've gone out to mug everyday except on the weekends I think.

Gonna spend the rest of my day mugging, I pray it's productive! :/ I can't wait for dinner though I just had lunch haha my dad's gonna cook spaghetti!

Ending off with pictures from wednesday's mugging sesh with Huiyi & Shijia at the airport :) love my mini class clique! <3

And I can't get the pictures to arrange in order tchhh so they're all jumbled up haha oh well.

BYE

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Life

Life is when Gerard Way sings "I'm trying" in Demolition Lovers.

When Derek Sanders sings "Slow, so slow, I fell to the ground on my knees" in Terrible Things.

When Synyster Gates plays the ascending chromatics in the bridge of Dear God.

When Chris Wolstenholme plays the opening bass riff in Hysteria.

When Brian White switches from low scream to high scream in Too Little Too Late.

When Josh Franceschi sings "Just crash, fall down" in Crash.

When Oli Sykes screams "Everything I touch turns to stone" in Blessed With A Curse.

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A little piece of heaven

Hello wello.

Currently in simei's Starbucks mugging alone! All my friends are mugging with their friends so that leaves just me having to study alone :'( but s'okay I don't mind :)

I even eat alone sometimes after school or something and T always makes fun of me for that chekkk.

My aim is to finish an entire econs book by today, which is 133 pages lolol. I'm currently at page 43 and it's 2.30pm and I have tuition at 8pm so that leaves me with about slightly more than 4 hours to study 90 pages hmmm.

I don't even know why I'm blogging. I just feel like typing.

Oh yes I probably shouldn't be doing this now but I'm looking for a drummer to join our band, anyone interested? :) you have to be interested in doing pop punk/post-hardcore/punk rock/some metalcore.

Preferably a female, between 15-19 years old. But if you're a dude it's fine too. I just want another girl in the band haha.

Soooooo back to mugging. 4 more weeks and all of this will be over and I can jam and shop and blog and write as much as I want yayyyyy

BYE

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Look at your blank faces, my name will mean nothing

So I thought I lost my music app when my battery died last night and all my apps malfunctioned. But thank God when I tried opening the app today it worked YESSS my 300 songs did not just vanish into thin air hallelujah :')

I want to go out and study because I have really really bad concentration at home, but it's a Saturday and the start of the holidays (lol what holidays more like a study break with a nice cover-up name) so everywhere will be packed. This city is overpopulated I swear :(

Was supposed to play ball with melons this morning too but Dt wasn't feeling well and Jiams didn't want to play with just me and Et tsk what a loser.

On a completely random note, I love love love the opening chords in Those Cannons Could Sink A Ship! by A Skylit Drive omg I wish I could marry it! A Skylit Drive is such an amazing band #gushes #fangirls #love

After promos I'm so downloading all of their music. And after promos my dad better get me a cd playerrrrrr :( all my albums are just sitting in my wardrobe painfully rotting away, and I still intend to buy more! I'm DEFINITELY buying #MCR5 whether or not I'll have a cd player by then.

And I might buy #ATL5 (which is called Don't Panic! btw) depending on if it sounds good. I'm kind of losing my love for All Time Low omg I have to admit it :( I love So Wrong, It's Right and coming in a close second is Nothing Personal but I'm not really a fan of Dirty Work.

I have also lost my love for Madina Lake and Foster The People, and I think I've lost it for The Pretty Reckless as well :(

Been moving on more to post-hardcore and some metalcore recently, and I also like songs that use screaming now, although I used to swear I'd never like it.

So I guess my favourite bands now are My Chemical Romance, Avenged Sevenfold, Mayday Parade, A Skylit Drive and You Me At Six.

And the next few favourite bands would be Green Day, The Cab, All Time Low and The Pretty Reckless.

That's just for now though. My music tastes tend to change a lot haha.

Ok topic change!

Yesterday was a great day, the only lesson was GP and we did a timed assignment so the lesson flew by pretty quick. Had a short break before my group had to get ready and practise for our Teachers' day performance :)

It went pretty smooth! And I loved all the performances although I've already seen them plenty of times during rehearsals. The audience was pretty dead though :/

Couldn't help but contrast the whole thing to the few times I've been to RP and the music vibe there was just... wow. Crazy.

Everyone there was at least moving at the beat, and there would be a bunch of jokers headbanging and attempting to start mosh pits, and the volumes were at least three times louder than the volumes our school used.

You could actually feel the bass drum pounding through your whole being, like the drum was inside of you waaaaa I miss that feeling haha.

Two completely different experiences. Anywayyyy I'm off to try and mug! Already wasted my entire morning.

Might be going to T's house later, idk. Ohoh and I might be cutting my hair too.

Should I try a side fringe? #YOLO hahahaha that was so asian, nevermind if you don't get it

BYE

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