Friday, January 31, 2014
Rise Against - State Of The Union
Oooooh I just figured out how to share youtube videos via Blogger.
So here's a video of Rise Against playing State Of The Union live. Tim McIlrath's vocals back then were top notch, can't say all the live shows they've done have done nothing to his throat because that would obviously be a lie- you can definitely hear the difference between their 2005 shows and 2013 shows.
Regardless, still an amazing band. One of the best still in the industry these days, alongside the veterans like Muse, Green Day. It's so sad to see a lot of good bands selling out or leaving the scene. Rock music is kind of dying out. Post-hardcore and metalcore are what's trendy these days.
I'll be sad when RA decides to call it quits someday. But in the meantime, let's celebrate this legendary punk group. (1:48 is one of the best screams I've ever heard omg)
Anyways, happy chinese new year!!!
Didn't manage to get new clothes in time since I've been busy working but I've new dresses my mom bought me for work so I'm wearing those instead.
Went to my dad's side today, then after we left, we went to Gardens by the Bay and Marina Sands. Gardens by the Bay is really pretty! I used to wonder what the hype was all about and I thought it was overrated, but after I went there for myself today, I kind of get it. It's definitely something different.
Going to my mom's side and Jiams' house tomorrow yayzza.
(Hi Jiams)
Monday, January 27, 2014
I will soon forget the colour of your eyes, and you'll forget mine
Blogging from the comfort of my desk in the teachers' staffroom.
Half an hour till my first lesson of the day! My mind feels sluggish, I think it's cause I came back late from the class bbq yesterday. Ok it was 10.30pm but I was so awfully tired.
Hmmm I've nothing to blog about actually. Haha.
Happy birthday Lianne!!!! -insert hearts here- 19 years old now, big girl already. Time really flies! Hard to think we were just 12 years old when we first met.
Ok bye!
Sunday, January 26, 2014
I play the drums in a band called okay
Yeah I'm waiting
It's sad when I'm on my own
They said it takes a long, long time
If it's not too much, could you hear me now?
You promised me, you'd always be
When I wake up, please come around again
Come around again
~
"We all started out as odd- marginally odd fish, within a small bowl (Vancouver, apart from Syph). But time passes, you leave behind your first, second and third set of contemporaries, you travel, maybe you become famous, someone invents the internet, you go online- and you find out that, all along, there were others just like you, that your odd wasn't.
Everyone is an average, if you have a wide enough range of standards by which to judge them. Average serial killer. Average conjoined twins.
The most terrible thing is finding out that The Parents were right in some of what they said. They understood, all along. Their questions weren't really questions; their questions were sewn seeds- were preaching-in-disguise.
'It's very loud, isn't it?'
'Yes.'
'Why does it have to be so loud?'
'It just does, okay? Look, could you step out of my room?'
'But do you enjoy it?'
'Yes. It's the best. Now-'
'Won't you get bored of it, eventually?'
'No. Never. Absolutely not.'
'Why don't you consider getting a proper job? Just in case-'
'Fuck you.'
But the you of Fuck you comes closer and closer to being the true you. And that you can't avoid post-adolescence for ever- and when you become unmistakably middle-aged, you realize you can't avoid saying the words kids today and that you're doing so as a non-kid."
~
This book speaks to my soul.
It's sad when I'm on my own
They said it takes a long, long time
If it's not too much, could you hear me now?
You promised me, you'd always be
When I wake up, please come around again
Come around again
~
"We all started out as odd- marginally odd fish, within a small bowl (Vancouver, apart from Syph). But time passes, you leave behind your first, second and third set of contemporaries, you travel, maybe you become famous, someone invents the internet, you go online- and you find out that, all along, there were others just like you, that your odd wasn't.
Everyone is an average, if you have a wide enough range of standards by which to judge them. Average serial killer. Average conjoined twins.
The most terrible thing is finding out that The Parents were right in some of what they said. They understood, all along. Their questions weren't really questions; their questions were sewn seeds- were preaching-in-disguise.
'It's very loud, isn't it?'
'Yes.'
'Why does it have to be so loud?'
'It just does, okay? Look, could you step out of my room?'
'But do you enjoy it?'
'Yes. It's the best. Now-'
'Won't you get bored of it, eventually?'
'No. Never. Absolutely not.'
'Why don't you consider getting a proper job? Just in case-'
'Fuck you.'
But the you of Fuck you comes closer and closer to being the true you. And that you can't avoid post-adolescence for ever- and when you become unmistakably middle-aged, you realize you can't avoid saying the words kids today and that you're doing so as a non-kid."
~
This book speaks to my soul.
Wednesday, January 22, 2014
Mirrors start to whisper / Shadows start to sing
1. Teaching kind of really reinforces my belief that I shouldn't have kids. They're such unpredictable little bundles of mush, not in a bad way, but I really don't know how to handle them. My classes are bordering on the thin line between within and outside of my control, but hey, at least I make sure they get their work done. Though I honestly don't think I'm cut out to be a teacher, it may be too early to say.
Also, a little boy stomped up to me today and said, "Miss Tan, she call me sexy boy!"
2. I finished reading Soft Apocalypse, it's good I guess but the ending was so abrupt! I literally went wtf when I got to a really exciting part then I flipped and realised that was the last page. I thought Jasper and Phoebe would somehow not to have to inject themselves with Doctor Happy in the end, like that's basically dying because they'll be losing their real personalities. I was so sad.
3. There is this Jet song called Come Around Again that's one of my favourites from them, and there's a part in the bridge when Nic Cester's voice hitches a notch and he goes, 'I don't know when I'm right / I only know when I'm wrong', and it always gives me chills.
4. I have developed an exquisite taste for chocolate milk recently.
5. I also kinda miss school. Can't rmb if I've said this before. I mainly miss the little things like doing dumb stuff with my girls in school, drinking teh during breaks, night-studying with xuemin, skipping cca to go to the spiral staircase with fleurette, having impromptu outings to Domino's after school. (perpetual craving for domino's these days)
Also, a little boy stomped up to me today and said, "Miss Tan, she call me sexy boy!"
2. I finished reading Soft Apocalypse, it's good I guess but the ending was so abrupt! I literally went wtf when I got to a really exciting part then I flipped and realised that was the last page. I thought Jasper and Phoebe would somehow not to have to inject themselves with Doctor Happy in the end, like that's basically dying because they'll be losing their real personalities. I was so sad.
3. There is this Jet song called Come Around Again that's one of my favourites from them, and there's a part in the bridge when Nic Cester's voice hitches a notch and he goes, 'I don't know when I'm right / I only know when I'm wrong', and it always gives me chills.
4. I have developed an exquisite taste for chocolate milk recently.
5. I also kinda miss school. Can't rmb if I've said this before. I mainly miss the little things like doing dumb stuff with my girls in school, drinking teh during breaks, night-studying with xuemin, skipping cca to go to the spiral staircase with fleurette, having impromptu outings to Domino's after school. (perpetual craving for domino's these days)
Monday, January 20, 2014
The crew left the passengers to die under the sea
1. Just had my Twinnings Earl Grey tea. So yumz i cannot.
2. Today was my first day of work at my mom's school, it was pretty ok. A little bumpy, like all first days are, but still fine. Though I overshot my bus stop in the morning and had to backtrack, but fortunately I made it in time.
3. Went to bryan's house yesterday and we played Uno Stacko like 3 rounds, all of us took turns losing haha but the others' forfeits were to post "I lost in Uno Stacko" on Instagram and mine was to watch a horror movie with them :( I regret agreeing to my forfeit. Was too confident. -tears-
It'll be my second time watching a horror movie in cinemas. First and last time was Drag Me To Hell with Et all the way back in sec2 and after that I swore I'd never watch another horror flick on the big screen. Wish me luck pls I need it.
And I fought so hard to escape my forefeit HAHA one of them took a video on my phone of me literally holding the structure up for 5min.
4. My mom texted me at 5.20pm to ask if I'd had my dinner, i dont know why I find that so funny
5. Gonna read the book I'm currently reading now. It's called Soft Apocalypse and it's really awesome, except things just keep getting more dreary and I'm not sure if things are going to get better but it's still exciting.
Goodbye
2. Today was my first day of work at my mom's school, it was pretty ok. A little bumpy, like all first days are, but still fine. Though I overshot my bus stop in the morning and had to backtrack, but fortunately I made it in time.
3. Went to bryan's house yesterday and we played Uno Stacko like 3 rounds, all of us took turns losing haha but the others' forfeits were to post "I lost in Uno Stacko" on Instagram and mine was to watch a horror movie with them :( I regret agreeing to my forfeit. Was too confident. -tears-
It'll be my second time watching a horror movie in cinemas. First and last time was Drag Me To Hell with Et all the way back in sec2 and after that I swore I'd never watch another horror flick on the big screen. Wish me luck pls I need it.
And I fought so hard to escape my forefeit HAHA one of them took a video on my phone of me literally holding the structure up for 5min.
4. My mom texted me at 5.20pm to ask if I'd had my dinner, i dont know why I find that so funny
5. Gonna read the book I'm currently reading now. It's called Soft Apocalypse and it's really awesome, except things just keep getting more dreary and I'm not sure if things are going to get better but it's still exciting.
Goodbye
Thursday, January 16, 2014
The downfall of us all
Tuesday was my off day! Got ready early and brought a book with me to starbucks at bedok point where I had breakfast. It's mainly just so I could escape my auntie who comes over every tuesday and talks a lot haha. And tuesday was totally a good day to take an off day because it was Senior Citizen day and it gets really hectic.
Then I met wums and we went to Haji Lane to slack. Camped at Wonderland cafe for like an hour then decided to watch a movie, Bad Grandpa. And she actually went up to the ticket person and said "Two tickets for Badass Grandpa" omg so embarrassing.
The movie was pretty funny, I would recommend it. And the little boy starring is such a good actor!
Yesterday I had work from 8 to 4 which thankfully passed quite fast. Also I found a temp job which is much better than working at fairprice, and I begin next monday so my last day will be friday. Yayyyy. I feel kind of bad about it actually, cause I just found out I was accepted on tuesday night so I told them on wednesday and I expected them to be angry because they're already shorthanded and I told them before I was staying till after chinese new year which is the most busy period of the year, and now I bailed out on them.
But instead they were just really upset and kinda disappointed and I just felt like shit :( Cause honestly some of the aunties there are really really nice. And when I first started out and found out about the shit schedule I was like well not my fault they over-work their part-timers like that, my life doesn't revolve around fairprice. Then I realise maybe they don't have enough full-timers so us part-timers basically have to work full-time as well. Which is really sad. But well, not sad enough to reject my awesome new job and go back. (I would never.)
Then after work I met my dearest Lynchua whom I haven't seen in more than a year! You know the kind of friends that you don't meet often but you would still trust them with your life and when you do meet it's like no time has passed at all? That's Lynnie the meanie bikini for me. -insert hearts here-
We went to Ikea to eat and my pork ribs were good! I ate super cleanly and when I was done I felt kinda gross cause there were literally just bones in some sauce on the plate hahaha felt like a carnivore
We also shared chicken wings and meatballs. I think that was the first time I didn't have their popular ice-cream or hot dogs on the way out because we were both so stuffed!
We wandered around and talked about potential rooms and stupid stuff and admired paintings hahha
Wanted to go to wumsy's workplace after that but I took the last bus I think and it was to bedok mrt so nah I went home.
Work from 2 to 10 today :( wish me luck. At least I was allocated the most slack counter yay.
Then I met wums and we went to Haji Lane to slack. Camped at Wonderland cafe for like an hour then decided to watch a movie, Bad Grandpa. And she actually went up to the ticket person and said "Two tickets for Badass Grandpa" omg so embarrassing.
The movie was pretty funny, I would recommend it. And the little boy starring is such a good actor!
Yesterday I had work from 8 to 4 which thankfully passed quite fast. Also I found a temp job which is much better than working at fairprice, and I begin next monday so my last day will be friday. Yayyyy. I feel kind of bad about it actually, cause I just found out I was accepted on tuesday night so I told them on wednesday and I expected them to be angry because they're already shorthanded and I told them before I was staying till after chinese new year which is the most busy period of the year, and now I bailed out on them.
But instead they were just really upset and kinda disappointed and I just felt like shit :( Cause honestly some of the aunties there are really really nice. And when I first started out and found out about the shit schedule I was like well not my fault they over-work their part-timers like that, my life doesn't revolve around fairprice. Then I realise maybe they don't have enough full-timers so us part-timers basically have to work full-time as well. Which is really sad. But well, not sad enough to reject my awesome new job and go back. (I would never.)
Then after work I met my dearest Lynchua whom I haven't seen in more than a year! You know the kind of friends that you don't meet often but you would still trust them with your life and when you do meet it's like no time has passed at all? That's Lynnie the meanie bikini for me. -insert hearts here-
We went to Ikea to eat and my pork ribs were good! I ate super cleanly and when I was done I felt kinda gross cause there were literally just bones in some sauce on the plate hahaha felt like a carnivore
We also shared chicken wings and meatballs. I think that was the first time I didn't have their popular ice-cream or hot dogs on the way out because we were both so stuffed!
We wandered around and talked about potential rooms and stupid stuff and admired paintings hahha
Wanted to go to wumsy's workplace after that but I took the last bus I think and it was to bedok mrt so nah I went home.
Work from 2 to 10 today :( wish me luck. At least I was allocated the most slack counter yay.
Monday, January 13, 2014
Not a day goes by that I don't feel its burn
1. I think working at fairprice really opens my eyes up. It's scary how much meat is consumed. And some people are like "why are you putting so much into one bag?" and "give me another bag it's really heavy" and I'm like but it collides with my principles... :( save the earth guise. And then there are some people who are bringing their own bags but there's so many more who don't really care. Sigh.
2. I'm working 8 hours a day, 6 hours a week. Which is pretty wtf if you ask me. That means I'm basically working full time, but with a part-timer's salary?? Idk maybe I'm wrong, I'll have to check if there's extra pay or what but I highly doubt so. I know they're shorthanded and I've seen their ad in the newspaper but c'mon that's when you up the pay from a miserly $6/hour. Otherwise of course those living somewhere other than simei are gonna flock to the admin and retail jobs. And don't tell me to suck it up if you're not working 48 hours a week too.
3. Can't even read the library books I borrowed boohoo
4. K done whining about my life bye
5. Oh yes while walking past the music school to get to work today I saw a guy wearing an ADTR shirt playing the drums. I was so tempted to knock on the glass, point to his shirt, put on my creepiest face and give a thumbs up. Seriously
2. I'm working 8 hours a day, 6 hours a week. Which is pretty wtf if you ask me. That means I'm basically working full time, but with a part-timer's salary?? Idk maybe I'm wrong, I'll have to check if there's extra pay or what but I highly doubt so. I know they're shorthanded and I've seen their ad in the newspaper but c'mon that's when you up the pay from a miserly $6/hour. Otherwise of course those living somewhere other than simei are gonna flock to the admin and retail jobs. And don't tell me to suck it up if you're not working 48 hours a week too.
3. Can't even read the library books I borrowed boohoo
4. K done whining about my life bye
5. Oh yes while walking past the music school to get to work today I saw a guy wearing an ADTR shirt playing the drums. I was so tempted to knock on the glass, point to his shirt, put on my creepiest face and give a thumbs up. Seriously
Thursday, January 9, 2014
I felt the cold rain of the coming storm
Listening to Rise Against and drinking Magnolia fresh milk. It's so yummy! Which is weird considering I don't really drink fresh milk that much, but I really like this.
Went to work in the morning thinking there was work but apparently it was my off-day hahaha so I went home. Finished reading Penelope by Rebecca Harrington and it's really good. I went to the bookdrop at tamp library and was really hesitating before I dropped the book in. Also got myself more books. Yayzers. Then I went home and cleaned the house while Get Born by JET played on stereo. I am so obsessed with that album.
Working from 9 to 5 tomorrow. It's my first full day! And then I think I'm working 2 to 10 on saturday. Which kinda sucks but oh well. Extra money if I work 5 to 10.
I keep thinking that I'm saving a lot but my money still seems to be depleting at the same rate as if I go to school and I realise it's the public transport that's been burning holes in my already-tiny-enough pocket. Now I get why adults are always raving on about the cost of public transport.
Y'know, I always imagined life after A levels to be road trips, getting wasted, going out every day to explore the country, but all I've been doing is just staying home and reading and going out to work and occasionally meeting up with friends. Feels like the first week after A levels was the best. And Morocco. I miss Morocco! I still feel like puking when I think of the food but I miss the scenic views there. So much nature and land and space. I feel like I can barely breathe here. What a stark comparison.
Went to work in the morning thinking there was work but apparently it was my off-day hahaha so I went home. Finished reading Penelope by Rebecca Harrington and it's really good. I went to the bookdrop at tamp library and was really hesitating before I dropped the book in. Also got myself more books. Yayzers. Then I went home and cleaned the house while Get Born by JET played on stereo. I am so obsessed with that album.
Working from 9 to 5 tomorrow. It's my first full day! And then I think I'm working 2 to 10 on saturday. Which kinda sucks but oh well. Extra money if I work 5 to 10.
I keep thinking that I'm saving a lot but my money still seems to be depleting at the same rate as if I go to school and I realise it's the public transport that's been burning holes in my already-tiny-enough pocket. Now I get why adults are always raving on about the cost of public transport.
Y'know, I always imagined life after A levels to be road trips, getting wasted, going out every day to explore the country, but all I've been doing is just staying home and reading and going out to work and occasionally meeting up with friends. Feels like the first week after A levels was the best. And Morocco. I miss Morocco! I still feel like puking when I think of the food but I miss the scenic views there. So much nature and land and space. I feel like I can barely breathe here. What a stark comparison.
Wednesday, January 8, 2014
In fields where nothing grew but weeds, I found a flower at my feet
1. I love when songs have good bass solos. It just makes the song like ten times more awesome.
2. Started work as a cashier at fairprice! The really good things about working there are that I save on transport costs and lunches because it's in the heartland of Simei and everything here is really cheap compared to the food in town, plus I don't have to wear formal work attire, just jeans everyday and decent-looking t-shirts (ha, mom, now who said the boyish band merch wouldn't come in handy when I start working?) so yeahh. Sad that the pay is only $6 per hour though.
Work is ok. First two days or so were pretty bad because I was still new and I was really clueless about a lot of things and it was so stressful like how in the world do I remember everything about signing in and logging off and collecting all the receipts and calculating everything omg. But I'm slowlyyy getting used to it i guess.
Good thing is I end early, I've been working 9am to 2pm so far and I hope that's not gonna change anytime soon cause I like it that way. I mostly just go home to read a book after work. And that, friends, is my past week in a nutshell.
It's kind of fun though to cash things out for people and see what they buy like oooh look at these padss someone's on their perioddd oh and there was this lady who bought like 20 packets of vegetables?! Vegetable buffet for dinner??
And also I'm hungry most of the time because I don't get a break at all, it's just a 5-hour work shift, so whenever people buy the honey-roasted or black pepper chicken from the stall at the back, I just take a couple more seconds scanning the thing and try to inhale more of the smell while keeping my face deadpan.
3. I remember when I was moaning about being desperate for a job because I was so bored at home, and now there's suddenly lots of jobs available for me -___- too bad, already hitched to fairprice. I think I'll just work for a month or so more, till I get my A level results. I am so nervous for the day. Feels like it's going to arrive in a flash!! :((
4. Good night
Wednesday, January 1, 2014
Awake and alive
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!
I had a great new year :) It really really feels too fast, the way the years fly by. Like really. I was watching the fireworks on TV and it really kind of hit me, like shit, I'd better go do all the things I really wanna do right now and not waste any time, because before I know it, 30 new years will have passed and I'll be old and tired and have no energy to do anything anymore! It was that scary. Haha
Anyway, my new year's resolution are probably... to not change anything because I'm perfect just the way I am?? Hahahhaha kidding kidding ok I probably want to tryyyy to start adapting to adulthood more and try to be more mature and sociable. And less stubborn. I have been told by a certain someone that I'm stubborn (hi Jiams) and at first I thought WAHT that's not true but then I remember the certain someone (hi Jiams) is really stubborn too and maybe that's why we fight all the time but it's ok we've already signed a contract that if we ever have a major fight I will be the first the give in and for the second ever major fight, she'll be the first to give in hahaha see, we're all prepared.
I will also try to be less weird?? But no promises on that. Hahhaa. Oh yeah I kind of want to do the box thing. You know, get a box and stick a piece of paper inside every day about one good thing that happened that day. Then open the box and read all the notes at the end of the year. Maybe I will!
Had a good new year's eve! Just stayed home like I did last year. Dad cooked something different, beef steak with cauliflower, tomatoes and mushroom soup and it was simple but there's always something bout home-cooked food that gets me :) And we watched POTD and Skyfall on tv and ate leftover popcorn that I brought home from last night when Lianne and I went to watch American Hustle at Plaza Sing (which was kind of meh because we didn't understand it :( will elaborate more next time).
The countdown programme was like ... haha there was half an hour of The Wanted performing random pop songs but it's ok I don't really mind The Wanted, they're one of the few pop acts that are tolerable to me, and then there was the countdown and my parents and I said happy new year and shook hands, we do that every year haha, and then there was Wang Lee Hom and after 5min we turned off the tv and all went to sleep.
It's kind of random but I think one more thing I wanna add to my bucket list is that I have to celebrate New Year's in New York before I die! I wanna see the ball drop in Times Square and feel the festive spirit. I think the atmosphere there is really different, at least from what I see on tv and the internet.
Things are looking good, like I cleaned my room (ok I always do actually) so it's all neat and tidy now and I'm going jamming on the 3rd yay and I finally got a job as a cashier and the pay's kind of low but it's still better than nothing I guess.
Also got a haircut today. Always wished I could have long wavy hair but my hair's just very straight and thin so it doesn't look very nice even when it's long and layered. So I snipped it off! Have shoulder length hair now.
Good night guys! Hope you have a blessed 2014 :)
I had a great new year :) It really really feels too fast, the way the years fly by. Like really. I was watching the fireworks on TV and it really kind of hit me, like shit, I'd better go do all the things I really wanna do right now and not waste any time, because before I know it, 30 new years will have passed and I'll be old and tired and have no energy to do anything anymore! It was that scary. Haha
Anyway, my new year's resolution are probably... to not change anything because I'm perfect just the way I am?? Hahahhaha kidding kidding ok I probably want to tryyyy to start adapting to adulthood more and try to be more mature and sociable. And less stubborn. I have been told by a certain someone that I'm stubborn (hi Jiams) and at first I thought WAHT that's not true but then I remember the certain someone (hi Jiams) is really stubborn too and maybe that's why we fight all the time but it's ok we've already signed a contract that if we ever have a major fight I will be the first the give in and for the second ever major fight, she'll be the first to give in hahaha see, we're all prepared.
I will also try to be less weird?? But no promises on that. Hahhaa. Oh yeah I kind of want to do the box thing. You know, get a box and stick a piece of paper inside every day about one good thing that happened that day. Then open the box and read all the notes at the end of the year. Maybe I will!
Had a good new year's eve! Just stayed home like I did last year. Dad cooked something different, beef steak with cauliflower, tomatoes and mushroom soup and it was simple but there's always something bout home-cooked food that gets me :) And we watched POTD and Skyfall on tv and ate leftover popcorn that I brought home from last night when Lianne and I went to watch American Hustle at Plaza Sing (which was kind of meh because we didn't understand it :( will elaborate more next time).
The countdown programme was like ... haha there was half an hour of The Wanted performing random pop songs but it's ok I don't really mind The Wanted, they're one of the few pop acts that are tolerable to me, and then there was the countdown and my parents and I said happy new year and shook hands, we do that every year haha, and then there was Wang Lee Hom and after 5min we turned off the tv and all went to sleep.
It's kind of random but I think one more thing I wanna add to my bucket list is that I have to celebrate New Year's in New York before I die! I wanna see the ball drop in Times Square and feel the festive spirit. I think the atmosphere there is really different, at least from what I see on tv and the internet.
Things are looking good, like I cleaned my room (ok I always do actually) so it's all neat and tidy now and I'm going jamming on the 3rd yay and I finally got a job as a cashier and the pay's kind of low but it's still better than nothing I guess.
Also got a haircut today. Always wished I could have long wavy hair but my hair's just very straight and thin so it doesn't look very nice even when it's long and layered. So I snipped it off! Have shoulder length hair now.
Good night guys! Hope you have a blessed 2014 :)
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