In many ways

Just realised that I have the whole next year sorted out for me.

Exams are coming up, then I'll be having my internship, then flying off to Germany, then coming back for honours year, with only a max of 5 days break between everything.

My next "long" break is December next year, for one month, then it'll be back to school in 2018 for my final sem, and BAM I'll have graduated.

😭

Diese Welt ist schnell und hat verlernt beständig zu sein

gestern hat mein freund mich gefragt, wie er ein satz auf deutsch sprechen sollt. dann habe ich realisiert, dass ich nicht für eine lange zeit deutsch benutzen. schade!

zum teil benutze ich deutsch, weil ich jetzt in der vorlesung bin, und ich will nicht andere leute verstehen, was ich schreibe. die vorlesung ist eine biologie vorlesung, und als ich hier sitze, ich habe zu einer conclusion ankommen (ich bin zu faul, diese wörter zu translate, also hoffe ich, dass sie verstehen. aber das ist sehr ironic, weil ich glaube, sie alle sprechen wahrscheinlich kein deutsch. hehe)

sowieso finde ich diese module ziemlich schwer. ob ich habe gedacht, dass deutsch schwer war, dann jetzt nehme ich das zurück. biologie sieht zu mir wie russisch aus. ich verstehe nichts :(

und mein gruppe sind alle so focused. sehr stressig!

ja, ich sollte mehr attention bezahlen. (<-- deutsch="" nbsp="" p="" schlectes="" sehr="">
also habe ich nicht diesen text proofread. bitte ignorieren (LOl) sie die vielen fehler.

bis dann! tschüss

Middle

nights like these are long- nights when i have too many thoughts running around my head, not sad, but not happy thoughts either; they're just thoughts around events and people and the significance of things, as usual, and the contemplating usually sours things, or else i choose to shut out the thoughts entirely and go back to work

in hindsight, even though this year sped by like crazy, a lot of stuff has happened. didn't really realise how eventful this year has been, until now.

in summary, change is the only thing constant, but sometimes i think i really dislike it being so. as an infj i love having the same people around and more often than not i am perfectly content having things remain the way they are, but unfortunately life doesn't work that way.

and in an increasingly globalised, disconnected and desensitised world i sometimes struggle with nights like these where i begin to question everything all over again.

but then i remember what it's like to be endowed with all i have right now, in this current moment, and i think i learn, all over again, what it's like to simply be happy and thankful.

And this time I think you'll know

Blogging in the FASS computer lab before I do my tutorial because #procrastination


(why am I the only one making loud typing noises? this is awkward)


Week 10 has been really nice.


Sunday was Mayday Parade!!!! but extremely unfortunately, there was a hurricane in the Philippines before the show, so only 3 members of the band were able to make it on time, and we got an acoustic set instead...... :((( I was so bummed. Sure, the set was great, but an unplugged show is just not the same as a full band set when it comes to pop punk. I paid for smashing cymbals and driving basslines and solos, not the sam willows.


Unforeseen circumstances suck


But well, at least they played a lot of my favourites, so that's great. And we got to meet them after the show and get signed posters! feels bad though, that they looked so tired and all. I think they were in Singapore for less than 8 hours in total.


There was a bunch of other stuff that made the concert not as spectacular as it should've been. I don't like to be grumpy on my blog, so in summary:


1) reached the venue at 10am to start queueing because I really wanted front row. There was about 8 people in front of me then. And then at 7pm, someone came who was acquainted with the girl in front of me (I say acquainted because they didn't look like close friends), and long story short, a total of five kids just jumped queue in front of me? I was so, so mad. I would have told them to f off to the back, but the girl who reluctantly let her 'friends' cut queue was nice to me and I didn't want to put her on the spot.


But I made sure I put those damn kids on the spot, putting my bag in front of me so they had to sit outside of the queue a bit, and making sure to make eye contact with them. Best part is they got second row, centre (I was a bit to the right of them) and they didn't look enthusiastic at all?? Whenever I glanced over at them they were just stoning. Wtf kids these days.


But who cares, I had a great time singing my heart out.


2) The crowd could not sing. Half the girls behind me were just literally screeching. If you go to concerts you would know how amazing it feels when the crowd can sing, and how awful it is when they simply can't.


But anyways, on the bright side it was really nice to come into such close contact with one of my all-time favourite bands. I kept waving at the rhythm guitarist Brooks and he smiled and waved back at me -insert the happy emoji here, apparently this computer doesn't have emojis- but after a while his face was like 'okok I got it' hahahaha


And at one point I think the singer Derek was asking us how we were doing or something? And I gave a thumbs up and he smiled, pointed right at me and gave me a thumbs back. I dieded a little. He was so niceee.


The next few days was spent on school. Went to the NUS museum to do a group project on Wednesday evening where we basically had to go around and manually find the answers to the science questions we were given. Felt like primary school and prolly would've been a lot more fun if it wasn't a graded assignment.


Then I went to YIH (probably the one building that is my home outside of home #lianne will know) cos I heard there was free dinner there for all CAC members, but for some reason there apparently wasn't :((( well there were free brownies, but I'm not a sugar person.


Had to settle dinner by myself at starbucks like a lonely rich person (which I am not, I just didn't have a choice cos the YIH canteen is closed for renovation and I don't want to eat 7/11 food) and then went to the studio to watch some people jam jazz music (it sounded amazing, whenever I watch these people jam I feel so honoured to be friends with them) and then went home


Yesterday was Ad Lib! Wow I remember my own Ad Lib like it was yesterday. Back when I still actively played my Stagg, wore jeans and had to play pop songs cos we were randomly sorted into bands and my singers only sang pop.


It was really nice, like all internal gigs. Highlight of the evening was listening to Josh's band play You're Not Alone by Saosin, I was singing my ass off while standing behind N, sound engineer of the night, and halfway through he turned around and was like "wth I kept searching to see who was singing backup vocals onstage"


Oops I procrastinated for an hour (wth that passed damn fast)


Have a beer date with HJ later so I don't have much time oh no


Okay bye

And it was all yellow

here's a throwback to student life fair 2016. played drums for a gig for the very first time. so many funny things about this video LOL.

my completely blank face, which is actually just a result of me feeling super nervous inside, starting the set playing an instrument that i'm not familiar with at all.

isaac (the guy on keys who is really a drummer) kept glancing back at me, probably cos i was falling out of tempo or smth, and i totally didn't notice his not-so-subtle looks at all while i was playing cos i was so nervous ahaha.

i thought that my tempo was decent when i was playing, but now that i look back i feel like i can hear all the parts where i rushed and dragged.... hais

but regardless, in hindsight, it was still a great gig. it was something different. and i got to play with some of my closest friends in ampd. so yay.

also, was that really 9 weeks ago?? unbelievable

anyway, some updates on my life before i forget.

1) got some internship offers! was actually thinking of doing editorial work again, but i got an offer for marketing and research intern, so i thought why not. downside is that i start 3 days after my last exam though :/

2) got back 3304 midterm. when i first saw the announcement on ivle that the median was 65/80, i was like gg..... but still had to go collect my paper anyway, and i got 71, omg damn happy. but the median is still damn high i can't believe it. #uni why u so competitive

3) caught a flu bug over the weekend :( sore throat disappeared but was replaced by a cough. felt like some seriously ill person going around school and sitting in quiet lectures coughing and sniffing and coughing and sniffing, even though i actually felt quite well :(

4) mayday parade is this sunday!!! i've been looking forward to it for so long, and i can't believe it's finally really here. really hope i'll be fully recovered by then, so i can sing to my heart's content. so eggcited for a night of feelssss

5) but of course, all the profs just have to assign homework and assignments this week 🙄 shag life.

Just like a match you strike to incinerate

Hi! Back with more pictures yayyy

It's finally the end of what has been the most busy/stressful 1.5 weeks this sem. So HAPPYYY

Week 7 Monday: 

Spent one of my free days in school as usual (the irony), studying for the 3304 midterm + doing readings. 

Week 7 Tuesday: 

Skipped LSM lecture for the first time this sem, to study for the 3304 midterm. 

Week 7 Wednesday: 

3351 lecture, then rushed to mpsh for the 3304 midterm, which was easier than I expected, but after I came out I realised I made careless mistakes -___- f my life

Week 7 Thursday: 

Finally went for DSC lecture! And learnt nothing as usual. Then had 3351 tutorial, and skipped DSC tutorial for the first time cos I didn't want to go alone (Lianne made plans with her friend cos for some reason she thought we had no tutorial... i don't even know why LOL) 

Week 7 Friday: 

Had my first interview for internship, which lasted five minutes, wow. Then went to school, studied for the DSC midterm and sat for the midterm. 

Left before time was up so I could make it to catch 100 bands fest with the ampd people. Saw iman's league who were pretty much great as always, though the mix was very shitty, and some strange metalcore band, and cashew chemists 😍 if I were 15 I would have had such a huge crush on Yuji... 

Then we had supper as usual, and I got home at an unearthly hour as usual 😪 but free car ride, so not complaining. 

Week 7 Saturday: 

Attempted to do work, but I did nothing all day. I can never study at home :(

Was supposed to meet DT and Jiams for bak kut teh to celebrate my bday, but Jiams fell sick, so I dabao-ed porridge for us to her house instead and we watched Tangled together. It was so nua, but prolly my favourite thing I did all week ☺️ (aww) Hanging out with the bff is always therapeutic.

Week 7 Sunday: 

Turned 21! yayyyy. Tbh I don't feel different at all. There's been so many 21st celebrations this year that I just associated myself with being 21 instead of 20 as well. Didn't have a celebration unlike most of my friends, cos too lazy to plan LOL I think it's more effort than it's worth tbh. 

Way too lazy to dress up as well. If I had one, my theme would probably be "PJs". And then anybody who comes in anything other than seasoned baggy tshirts and fbts/pajama shorts is a liar and has to do a forfeit. muahahaha. 

Had lunch at crystal jade with the parents. So yummyyy. Good food is everything. 

Got home and.... studied for my midterm LOL #no life

But it was a really great day, feeling so loved with so many birthday messages hehe. 

Week 8 Monday: 

Had another interview. Felt sian cos the timing was very bad (2.30pm), the e-mail said there would be a 1 hour writing test, when I got there the person said it's 1.5 hours, and I took 2 hours to do it. Sat in a room that had a glass wall that was for some reason facing the main entrance, so for everyone who walked in the building, the first thing they would see was this girl sitting alone in an empty room like a prisoner, writing a test... felt like I was in detention or something srsly. 

Went home and did some work, and at night I was feeling down, so I decided to listen to a random song I like to listen to on quiet nights (hear you me by jimmy eat world) and the next recommended song was 'the middle', also by jimmy eat world, and I've never heard that so I just decided to give it a shot. 

And the lyrics were so apt for my current mood? I was pretty shocked. 

It just takes some time

Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride

Everything, everything will be just fine

Everything, everything will be alright, alright

I couldn't decide whether to take it as a sign of divine intervention, or write it off as just another song with generic lyrics... LOL 

But then again, what are the odds of picking a song that a band wrote about a girl feeling down right? 🤔

It did make me feel a lot better, though. Hahaha

Week 8 Tuesday: 

Skipped lsm lecture again to study for another midterm. Then went to the ampd mixer at night! It was really fun. Being the awkward person I am, I mostly stuck to my same old friends from ampd, but it was still funn. Had hotpot and stuffed myself with veggies (more for me cos I realised a lot of ampd people don't like veggies. Is this a thing? Maybe people who play in bands tend not to like veggies? But correlation does not imply causation 🤔 LOL. I feel like only Lianne will laugh at this.) 

And it was awesome cos Mark DJ-ed, and he and i have almost the exact same taste in music so i just spent most of the night fangirling over old songs and singing along to them. (mcr, all time low, pierce the veil, red jumpsuit apparatus... we joked that it was Emo Night)

And then some people left to catch other ampd people performing at clarke quay, others went back to the studio to jam and eat supper, and I.... went home cos I had midterm the next day. 

Week 8 Wednesday (today):

FINALLY DONE WITH MIDTERMS. Woohoooo. Only had 3 this sem actually, but I think I felt stressed and rushed the whole week cos I had to prepare and travel for interviews as well. 

Also had another interview after school today, which made my whole week, cos I got it on the spot ☺️ the work environment seems nice, the office is small and pretty and for some reason almost everyone there was ang moh. My interviewer was a super duper chio french lady who looked like she should have been a supermodel instead. (dunno if it's professional to say this stuff on my blog but LOL) 

But I'm really glad I got the offer cos I was looking forward to getting this one. 

And now... pictures

My fuel

Been writing stuff again recently hehe hope to put them to good use someday

I think this was 2 weeks ago? Was feeling sleepy at lsm lecture so I went to buy coffee from platypus.
Whenever I decide to give food a second chance, I always regret it -__-
Tasted bad as always. But it was also super strong, I could actually feel the moment it started kicking in.
Was totally alert after that LOL

Making beer in lsm lecture

My band for the rising star competition! sadly we didnt get in :( but it was fun getting to know them

totally LOL-ed

There was a period of time when I went to church as a child.
These memes seriously brought back memories when I saw them LOL

and when your christian friends bring you to their church

studied in school most of recess week (i think?)

my birthday balloon was supposed to last 1 week but it lasted 3 weeks :')

@ Divika's 21st last saturday!

We were her only Chinese friends aside from 2 other girls.
So that means 6 of us in her house of 40 Indian family and friends.
Felt a lil awkward and wondered if that was what its like to be the minority haha

WQ said it himself: "omg I never thought I would see a girl so ugly in my life"

Ampd made stickers wow.
Damn pretty and I want to buy, but $2 each :/
Spot me hehe

my favourite pasar malam food hehe
 

Ampd hotpot! Spot me again
#creepin

While coming home today after I finally got an internship offer LOL

Oops couldn't decide which one to post

I was totally triggered by this nuswhispers post.... what's wrong with wearing tshirt shorts slippers to sch??
OP confirm freshie i tell you.

Okay bye