Like a river flows

Updates on my life cos im boliao (wow im gonna miss being boliao when school starts which is in 12 DAYS HOLY)

nothing much happened last week- was busy with the last week of summer school. somehow all the assignments are due in the last week. there was a 50% group project, 10% group assignment and 20% individual essay all due in the same week 🙄 but yay im finally done with my summer module, couldn't be happier.

saturday:
had slf jam in the afternoon. i think we have improved by leaps and bounds :') i'm less of a potato at the guitar now.

sunday:
house got painted so the whole family had to retreat to the balcony. went to do work at a cafe at simpang with jiams later. huge cup of coffee for 5 bucks, yum.

monday:
handed in my last assignment for summer sch!! (i asked for an extension hahaha)
had rag jam in the evening. somehow a lot of other people were also in the clubroom/studio for various reasons, so after our jam we all went to eat at ameens tgt. then 3 of us got a ride back to the east yayyy

tuesday:
weirdest thing ever happened to me!

went out early and to one of my hangout spots at paya lebar. it was kinda crowded so i asked a lady in office wear if i could sit at the table next to hers.

and then both of us stared at each other.

she said first "you look very familiar..." and i said "ya you too!" but neither of us could remember where we'd seen each other. sat there for a few very very awkward moments (her face had turned red LOL), she asked what school/workplace and i said NUS and she said she worked nearby.

-more awkward silence-

and then i realised and i said "OMG youre my cousin!" and she looked at me, shocked, and said "what?"

and then she realised as well and we both laughed awkwardly.

she was the daughter of my estranged uncle, and i've only seen her twice in my life before.

my goodness, imagine meeting your own cousin in public and not recognising them. so paiseh for both of us!! but it was also super funny and weird.

if our families had not reunited recently, i would have sat down next to this lady without knowing she was my own cousin. wow...

so anyway, she had to rush off to work soon after that, and i left the place at about 3pm.

had beer at the usual place with hj at night. it was the most intoxicated i've gotten in ages. though i definitely wasn't drunk.

we decided to be adventurous and shared 2 jugs, so that's actually one 1.5 litre jug each. felt a little woozy but still fine, talked and walked normally and got home safe, but then i conked out on the sofa hahahaha

i remember i kept trying to reply texts but the next thing i knew i would be waking up from sleep. it was quite funny

wednesday:
woke up at 12 noon today hehe. the potato life is such a good life. kinda sad it's ending soon.

basically lazed at home the whole day. had lunch, went to collect my bass amp back from friend's gf who i lent it to, watched cat videos and listened to haley reinhart, had dinner with mum, watched some kdrama with her, then back to the laptop.

what a lifee

Human

i hardly comment on current affairs, especially on a platform where i try to keep things light-hearted, like my blog, but i feel like i really have some things to say too about the recent NUS sexualised orientation camps saga. 

i love my university. it's given me so many amazing opportunities that i am super thankful for. not many people in the world get to grow up and study in a university as safe and ideal as NUS, and i realise that. my time in NUS so far has been nothing short of wonderful, so it really hit the feels when tnp wrote this article that seems to be insinuating that NUS culture is not as vibrant and wholesome as it seems. 

1. if you don't like it, don't go. it doesn't take a lot of time and effort to ask around and do your research about camps. and it's common knowledge that arts camp is probably the most lup sup camp in NUS. i signed up for arts o week camp back in 2014, and i actually got in, but after a bit of consideration, i decided not to go. i didn't feel like i would fit in and resonate well with arts camp culture, so i just turned it down. simple as that. 

if you do go, and you decide to sit out when they play the lup sup games, be proud of your decision. you just decided to adhere to your moral standards and put your own comfort first by choosing not to give in to peer pressure, and that's an admirable thing to do. don't sit out, then worry if people are talking about and judging you behind your back, and then rant about it to an influential local newspaper. 

if you're worried you won't be able to find any uni friends if you don't go for arts camp, then don't worry cos your worries are completely unfounded. there are faculty camps, sports clubs, arts and other interest groups, halls and colleges of residence, even academic society groups. there are a thousand and one other ways for you to find friends in NUS, there's no need for you to go to that one camp that makes you uncomfortable. 

in short, know what you signed up for, and be smart about it. 

2. irresponsible reporting has been a hot trend in the media of late, but i think this article really took the cake. what does tnp hope to achieve by painting NUS in such a bad light? if it's to evoke strong negative public reaction and generate a hoo-ha so as to gain more readership, then i guess they've achieved their goal. 

reporting was done based on the views of 2 students, and everything seems to be centred on the events at only one camp in NUS. this is generalisation at its finest. the article was completely biased, which is really sad seeing as it's tnp, one of the more influential papers in singapore. 

by focusing on all the nasty stuff that's been going on in one NUS camp and highlighting the experiences of two students who did not have a good time, while completely ignoring any other contradictory positive viewpoint, tnp gave the average naive singaporean reader the impression that every student in NUS must be a bad nut with no sense of morality, and NUS is not doing anything about it. 

3. of course, this allowed many people to jump on the i-knew-it, kids-these-days-are-up-to-no-good bandwagon. every generation loves to judge and bitch about the next one. i myself am guilty of it. 

readers expressed horror at the falling moral standards of youth today. older NUS alumni were disgusted at what's become of the students of their beloved alma mater. other folks questioned the purpose of awarding prestigious degrees to such poorly-behaved youth with no sound character. 

it hurts to see NUS and its students being bashed like that on social media, when i know we are so much better than that. singaporeans love controversy. the country's pride and joy, NUS, breeding insensitive, morally unsound brats with no class? wow, what a juicy piece of meat for everyone who hates the 'strawberry generation'. 

but at the end of the day, nobody is really benefitting from poor reporting. 

Three cheers for five years

Disclaimer: this post is all about Mayday Parade


want to quote some lyrics, but idk whether to quote verse, chorus or bridge cos everything is so feeeeeels

i didn't know this song back in 2014, so when they came and played in singapore, i was more of a huge fan of jamie all over, kids in love and jersey. (miserable at best and stay are not really my favourites from mp, but it's really nice to sing along to, so i liked when they played those too)

but now i keep listening to this song over and over. it's so well-written. that emotional buildup towards the bridge, and then the pretty much bittersweet ending verse at the end.

for some reason this is also the mp song that reminds me most of the concert back in 2014.

i loooove concerts. there is always this feeling of affinity with your fellow concert-goers, even if you've never met them before it feels like you're at least acquainted somehow, because you both forked out 80 bucks to come and see the same band, so that prolly says something about how much you like them.

i can't remember exactly when i started listening to mayday parade. i think it was 2012. sometimes i can't believe it's gonna be my second time seeing them this year. i was 18 when i first saw them and i'm gonna be 21 when i see them again. how cool is that?

the other day i was doing some spring cleaning in my room, a couple of days after baybeats, and i found a postcard that i got during cashew chemists' set at baybeats 2012. a stack of them was being passed around the crowd for free.

i think i have the photo somewhere on my facebook

ta-da!

(took me forever to find cos i kept getting distracted by all the photos)

but really though. has it really been 4 years? wow

Raised in Carolina, she says

• hello! 
• the past week has been really fun and eventful. but also tiring cos i had to travel to school every day. 
• lemme recap the past week so i can procrastinate on my assignments
• Monday: had really bad cramps and a terrible headache, so i skipped class. but still had to go to school in the evening anyway for slf band jam. this gig is prolly the most fun gig i've ever had in nus. not only am i doing it with close friends, we're also switching instruments! i'm playing guitar, keys, drums- everything except my own instrument. hopefully we don't turn out too fail. i'm especially nervous for drums cos it's gonna be so obvious if i make a mistake. 
• Tuesday: went to school to work on a group assignment for summer school. was quite fun
• Wednesday: went to school and didn't know what to have for lunch, so i decided to try 'butter my buns', that new cafe at utown. seriously, everytime i decide to try something new i regret it. it was crowded everywhere in utown due to lunch hour, but when i stepped into 'butter my buns' there were about five people there. decided to go ahead and order anyways despite the obvious lack of rave, and it was soo bad. the portobello mushrooms tasted like ... almost gagged. potato salad was not the creamy kind at aston's, it was literally some greens with pieces of potato. LOL. even the mac n cheese was okay-ish. paid 7.5 for the food and it wasn't even filling. but the coffee was pretty decent. tasted like humble origins' coffee. will probably never go to butter my buns again for food.... maybe just coffee. 
• anyway, even though i was alr in school, i decided to skip class..... hahahaha. went to the studio to hang (i think the studio is by far my number 1 hangout in nus) and read my slides, and encountered a couple of drummer friends who were changing drum skins, i think. at 5p: m we got hungry so 4 of us went to wah chee for zi char. yummm. hadn't had zi char in a while. 
• Thursday: slf band jam again, this time at 11am-2pm. reached the studio at 10.30am to practice, and whatsapped "is everyone awake?" to which one of them replied "huh don't like that leh, does that mean you just woke up?" and i was like no la. but turns out he was the only other person who was awake... LOL. another 2 people woke up past 11 and joined us much later, while the last one never made it. 
• but i got a ride home from a fellow eastie so it's okay. went to saizeriya by myself for dinner. it was like 4+, so there was no crowd, and a waiter came and chatted me up 😭 the reason i eat alone almost all the time is cos i don't like talking while im eating... and im too lazy to go into detail, but he was also quite weird
• Friday: lecturer sent out an email that we're not allowed to skip today's class cos there was group evaluation, so i had to go. picked the wrong day to wear slippers cos it rained cats and dogs, and the floor at utown was super slippery. despite walking super carefully and slowly, i slipped three times omg. it was so scary. 
• lecture was quite interesting, but i got super hungry towards the end and prayed hard my stomach wouldn't growl. went to hwangs and ate ramen which is basically maggi mee, then felt guilty so i walked to yih. weather was really nice for a walk anyway. 
• had rag jam in the evening which i thought was really productive for a second jam. yayyy. 
• okay time to do assignments

byee

My secrets for a buck

• took this selfie a few days ago, wanted to blog with it since i haven't updated with any photos for about two eons now. it's to show you guys i'm still blogging and haven't been replaced by a robot. 
• took it 15 min after waking up, hence the tired face haha
• listening to brand new and uploading photo booth selfies really makes me think of the jc / a level break days. i used to blog so often in jc haha. and i rmb how completely carefree i felt after i quit my job and did nothing for two months while waiting for uni to start. 
• all i did every day was wake up early, drink tea, blog, drink coffee, read a book, listen to brand new, rhcp and tigers jaw, sleep, repeat. 
• life has been good- just came back from prata with wums and her bf (hi wums!). 
• had a mini pizza party with the baybeats team this morning and was glad to hear baybeats may not be the end of our stint. hopefully there'll be fun stuff coming up. really enjoyed this whole process, getting an insider look at music journalism. it never occured to me that there was even such a field until i watched almost famous. 
• getting complimented by the st music correspondent on my 'flair for writing' was also the highlight of my day. very touched to receive praise from someone who's been in the scene for so many years. 
• school starts in a month and i'm pretty excited, finally embarking on a semester where i'm not being burdened by compulsory german (don't get me wrong i loved german but it was just such a heavy mod, with at least one vocab test/assignment/exam every week and all). 
• at the same time i also have to up my cap game, after the disastrous last sem. still can't get over what a baaad decision it was to take IO. worst mod ever. plus after this sem i only have honours mods left to do in nus and it can only go downhill from there. 
• speaking of sch, changing landscapes was also another bad decision. it is so impossibly fluffy. should have taken a nice factual mod from science or something for summer school. but ah wells. 

time to sleep bye bye

Twenty ways to start a fight

• Da jia hao
• It's a nice saturday afternoon and I'm bumming around at home, kinda. Saw that the module listing for this year is out on myaces and excitedly went to look at modules. For some reason I'm always super excited to plan timetables. I think it's fun, don't you?? 
• but then i saw that one of the mods i wanted to take clashes with a core mod, and then it wasn't so fun anymore. 
• can't believe it's my fifth time planning my timetable. -cries- more than halfway through my uni life already. 
• life has been great, the past week was pretty busy because i went for all 3 days of baybeats. it was soooo fun! tbh the foreign bands didn't really stand out for me. but i heard Unclose (JP) was great, sadly i didn't catch them. i thought koji was amazeballs, but not many other people seem to be raving about them, maybe they're not as appealing as disco hue or cashew chemists. (but i must admit eugene is really charming, reminds me of alex turner with that velvety i-will-sing-blues-love-songs-to-you-over-the-phone voice.) another band that really did it for me was the summer state, that amount of energy was insane. 
• wednesday was cac camp finale night gig, the crowd wasn't very high despite the gig being at zouk, but one of the dance cac groups (was it funkstyles?) showed some love by dancing to our music which was nice :') a few hiccups here and there during the day, but it was all good. 
• sometimes i think we're really at a huge disadvantage compared to other cac groups. dance and acapella groups are so much more popular with concert planners because there is practically no logistics involved- all you need is a simple PA system to blast trendy pop songs. with amplified, there's expensive, bulky equipment, transportation costs and manpower costs for the shifting, plus all the equipment also takes up precious space backstage. not to mention our equipment is not only burden-some to the gig producers, it also costs a bomb to rent. and to add icing to the cake, edm music and dance items are all the rage now. the general youth population doesn't really listen to good bands anymore, it's all kpop groups and flashy moves and fleshy moves and synth and electronic beats. 
• sometimes i feel bad for some of my friends in the club, they're trying so hard and it's not really their fault that amplified isn't that big. just gotta admit that we're really suay, and about as trendy right now as bell-bottomed jeans are. 
• and on an unrelated note, the cac camp estrella comm really sucked? nobody was there to supervise us or tell us where to go, what we could do during the entire afternoon, except for the logs guys who were really nice and helpful. the whole day, we (the cac groups + logs guys) carried everything over and set up everything ourselves, rehearsed and soundchecked ourselves and prepared for the gig ourselves. we had no idea who was in charge or where they were. it almost felt like we were running our own gig at zouk. best part is when someone contacted a comm member to ask why nobody was there, the reply was "i expected better from the performers," meaning that we should have known how to do everything ourselves and we shouldn't need anyone from the comm there with us. makes me mad all over again just thinking about that horrible attitude. just because they signed up for this one-time camp comm thing it doesn't mean they can behave like that? i sure hope they feel good about themselves writing about how much they contributed to this event in their resumes. 
• haha ok didn't intend to elaborate on the hiccups. but ah well. 

off to surf youtube, bye bye

Walk yourself out the door

Realized recently that i have a hard time talking to introverts, and most of my close friends or the people i identify with as 'same frequency', ironically, are extroverts. 

I guess it's true that opposites attract. 

Chemicals

We are made from chemicals

But what holds us together

Is much more than this

And you are strong

So much stronger than me

All along

Cause you are everything

And I am nothing

We spend our summer writing songs

About how we'd never make it on our own

But here we are

And I surrender

I'm running thin 

You were right

Cause you are everything

And I am nothing

Random feels for Tigers Jaw

Their songs are like the soundtrack to a really nice road trip with friends that's losing its charm. 

And this is them romanticizing about the long summer. 

In other news, on my way to school for actual first day of summer school, yay. 

I checked my e-mail before I left my house, just in case. 

Stay awake through summer like we own the heat

so today was day 1 of summer school. headed to school early to grab lunch at utown. at kent ridge mrt i decided to check my mail, and lo and behold- class was cancelled because the lecturer was unwell. e-mail was sent four hours before lecture was supposed to start.

felt so asdfghjkl.

since i was already at kent ridge and starving, i decided to just lunch at utown. went home after that and bought a big cup of teh si siew dai to make myself feel better.

ugh, what a wasted trip. maybe i'll just spend today cleaning my room instead.

Oh dear can't you see / it's them it's not me

• bullet form again cos i'm too lazy to try to link everything up hehe
• it is 19 june today which means we're slightly more than halfway through the summer break :O sometimes thinking about stuff like this really makes me sad- soon i'll be done with the next sem, then i'll be in germany, and the next month i'll be graduating, next year i'll be a jaded 40-year-old and in five years i'll be a grandmother of six. 
• still so many things on my summer 2016 to-do list that i have not done. i downloaded scott pilgrim in 1020dp (omg) and still haven't gotten my ass round to watch it even though it's in my hard disk which is literally right in front of me as i type. 
• i didn't manage to find an internship this summer sadly but hopefully it won't affect my future that much haha. i'm pretty much living the nua life this break, enjoying it while i still can since it will be my last uni summer break ever :((( fell asleep yesterday on the couch while watching tv, with a finished ice-cream stick in my right hand cos i ate potong ice-cream right before i fell asleep. the potato life is the good life. 
• but i can't stand being 100% nua, so i started signing myself up for commitments. this coming week is packed with gym time and jam sessions for 3 different gigs. and most likely going for all 3 days of baybeats the coming weekend. eggcited! hehe. also joined youth.sg as a correspondent and may be attending an event, not sure yet. 
• summer school also commences tomorrow. i think i am really a potato because i only recently realized that i can't s/u the module. the class venue was also changed to audi3 which is probably the most inconvenient venue in utown... and timing is 2-5pm which is quite :( but ah wells. 
• yesterday was the last workshop for baybeats. after the workshop, the 8 of us stayed back to print and put together 250 copies of our zine, to be handed out at baybeats festival. was quite the accomplishment. most of us are around the same age, like 21-24, but tbh i find it quite hard to talk to them, while everyone else seems to have made fast friends with one another :( they laugh at stuff i don't really laugh at, and i laugh at stuff when no one else does which is awkward. i think it's probably cos of our very different backgrounds? i come from jc science stream --> uni while everyone else is from lasalle / sota / poly / ite. almost all of them have jazz music backgrounds and/or experience in design, marketing and writing, while my most relevant experience consists of watching movies like scott pilgrim and almost famous. they all seem very mature and full of life experience :/ 
• lastly, i've been spending a lot of time on youtube, and yesterday i watched postmodern jukebox's cover of creep by radiohead featuring haley reinhart. omg it was the best cover i've watched in a while. i loved haley reinhart on AI, and that cover did her voice sooo much justice. went to watch the live acoustic version she did with casey abrams and somehow it was even better *-* i've always loved raw stuff, i've gone through fangirl phases with old demos from saosin, brand new and mcr. sooo good. 
• sorry for the long, wordy post heh. i've kinda given up on uploading photos alr cos i have wayy too many. maybe sometime in the future, when i am a grandmother of six. 

The break in the bend, the closest of calls

• i just realized that blogger has bullet form LOL 
• my second assignment for baybeats is due friday and i haven't started :( would be fine if i just had to write it but apparently we have to get quotes from people and stuff. gg. 
• got my results for sem 4 this morning. super duper average grades. 2B+, 2B and 1B-. no As and no Cs. lel. but it's kay cos i expected worse for some of my mods. my B- was IO, which was expected. why did i take that modddddd. also gonna use my first s/u since sem1, on german 4. 
• gigging at zouk on the 28th of june for cac camp finale night! i love our setlist. hope it'll be fun! first jam is on wednesday and i haven't started practicing at all. hehe. 
• in a flash, it's the second last day of may. i have a bunch of things on my summer to-do list that i haven't started on at all. so sad. can't believe 1/3 of summer break is over. noooooo. 
• on a completely random note, i really love my new macbook pro. doing work on it is such a joy :) 
• oh and my first assignment is up on the esplanade website, under baybeats > writers programme. hehe. it's the interview profile from when i met tlv. feels awkward that everyone else's photo is so formal though. hahaha. 
• ok time for lunch. i have this craving for kimchi fried rice. 

Echoes

Was just playing anagram on miniclip with some random indian guy, and so far he'd beat me in 6 games while I beat him in 1. Didn't quit any games cos I thought that wouldn't be right, yknow, to quit just cos I was losing.

On our 8th game, I had 9 points while he had 0, and suddenly he just quit the game.

Was like -____- what a loser......

Wish I could've messaged him "screw you" but the game only allows for a few fixed messages to be sent to one another, like "great minds!" and "good one!"

So whatevs....

Fifty thousand

There must be over fifty thousand
Screaming love and more for you
And every one of fifty thousand
Would do whatever you asked them to
Keep them yelling their devotion
But add a touch of hate at Rome
You will rise to a greater power
We will win ourselves a home


I have never been religious but somehow I always come back to watch clips from this film, and sometimes it brings me to tears.

It's one of those scenes that is absolutely flawless- the choreography, Simon's unbridled passion and complete carelessness, the fact that it was probably 35 degrees out there and yet the dancers moved as if their lives depended on it.

And at the same time there is storytelling- the Romans hovering and watching ominously in the background, Jesus making eye contact with Judas, both their faces full of unspoken expression.

Let them burn

So Saturday was my very first ever band interview with Tell Lie Vision.

I wasn't particularly nervous until a few of us from the budding writers team sneaked into the Esplanade office's conference room to see the budding bands for the first time, receiving their own briefing on how to answer interview questions.

Then a friend next to me turned and whispered, "Wow, I wasn't nervous just now, but now I am, seeing this." And that was when I realized that I was nervous too.

Fortunately, TLV was really friendly. Not for the first time in my life, I was struck by how socially adept poly kids can be.

The interview went really well- the band gave serious answers but still managed to pepper the interview with jokes, and I now have more than enough material to write my assignment.

(went to write my assignment and now I'm back yay)

Anyways, point is, what really stuck with me was when the lead singer said, "To be honest, I hate small talk. This is the most that you will ever see me talk, because I really don't like it." And he said this with an expression that showed that he really meant it.

I can relate to that because I don't like small talk either. But I thought what was inspiring was that despite that, he still goes out of his comfort zone to talk, because he knows interviews are important, and if he really wants this, he has to do it.

Was overall really inspired by the level of determination and drive that not just he, but everyone else in the band has.

Wishing the best of luck to this band and all their future endeavours

Oh Tennessee, what did you write?

hello!

blogging for the first time with my new macbook pro. the screen is so clear, im dyin. came with a keyboard protector and palm shield too, which was nice. it's super fast, and the touch pad is awesome, and so is the keyboard. and itz so prettyyyyyy. -wipes tears-

life the past few days has been super, save for the crazy weather. the potato life is so amazing. had lunch downstairs the other day, then came up and watched some tv and fell asleep on the sofa. what a life.

in the clubroom now waiting for meeting to start. oh ya happy friday the 13th!

and omg, found out yesterday that mayday parade is coming to singapore again!! omg omg. i am so going. tickets are pretty cheap too, plus they've been playing the classics and not the stuff from black lines which i'm not very into. hehe so excitessssss

and last info nugget about my life- going to be interviewing post-hardcore band tell lie vision tmr! im nervous yet excited. hope all goes well :)

Like scarecrows that fuel this flame we're burning

hello!

had my first workshop for baybeats today and it was very inspiring. met really nice mentors who are extremely passionate about their work, and listened to a presentation from a straits times music correspondent about the history of local alternative music. tbh it felt like a really hipster NUS gem module. more hipster than gek2049 pirates, oceans and the maritime world.

one of the things that really stuck with me was when he casually remarked that he did an interview with robert plant a few years back. was like :O holy crap, this guy is so cool. hahaha.

really stoked to interview my selected baybeats band next week. and really thankful that i decided to apply for this, even though i didn't think i'd get it. just makes my summer that much more exciting.

in other news, my laptop is dyinggggg. i restart it on an average of three times a day because it lags sooo bad. can't wait to get a new one.

also, tmr is the day i officially move out of hostel! planning to go super early, at like 9am, so i can check out quickly and avoid the crowd. glad to finally be moving out. maybe i wasn't doing something right, but i didn't like hostel life one bit. it was super duper uncomfortable and i dreaded the nights i had to stay in hostel especially towards the end when mosquitoes suddenly took over and a wasp's nest appeared in my room.

(lel, laptop just hanged again.)

anyways, it's that time of the year again... the time where everybody complains (more frequently) about the weather. glad i chopped off my hair the day after my finals ended.

Twenty-nine different attributes

down to one final on tuesday and then it's summer! and it's industrial organization, a mod which i really regret taking, at least maybe this sem. past year papers look so easy omg. really bummed that i took this mod in the sem with a lecturer who thinks that everything is so intuitive and easy when it's not. plus i recognize some of the people in this mod, and they happen to be the super smart born-to-major-in-econs kids from my batch. im ded.

but i am grateful that i met a couple of friends in IO who helped me out along the way, so.. small blessing in big disguise?

pretty stoked for the summer ahead- can't wait to see all my fwens again (hi lum and sj idk if you all still read my blog but i forgot how you look like already), and finally get to laze around, 100% guilt-free. also it's gonna be significantly more busy than last summer, cos i signed up for fasstrack 2016 so i can have a slightly more relaxed SEP, and plus, i got into the baybeats budding writers programme!!

when i first read about this programme, i must admit the name put me off a bit. it sounds so kiddy. hahaha. but i read more and it does sound pretty legit, so i applied. got the call to go down for an interview, and i thought i screwed it up.

was asked twice if i have ever conducted any interviews. first time i said no and subsequently i just said well no (again) but i have conducted auditions for amplified, my cca in nus blah blah. when they asked about my tastes in local bands i just kinda blanked and all i could talk about was deon toh, which was the last local band that i saw live, but fortunately i know my stuff about them. interview was super short, felt like less than 10min, and i walked out feeling like i just flunked a test.

waited until wednesday and i didn't get any e-mails, which made me really depressed but then on thursday, after i got over it, i got the e-mail!!

really psyched for this cos it's music and journalism, two of my favourite things.

honestly the initial sadness was more of a ego thing though. LOL.

but ya, eggcited for summer break!! if only my IO final wasn't at 5pm -__- such timing. very wow.

Gratisfaction

You get tired when the days are too long

You get lonely when the days are gone

I really love Julian Casablancas because of how unpretentious and careless he seems. He makes for a very charming frontman when he is drunk but somehow manages to look like a sorry man and not a rebellious youth, and when he is sober and dressed in leather but yet projects wisdom and emotional sensitivity, and doesn't look like a douche or a wannabe new-to-the-scene indie pop kid.

Maybe it's the big, sad brown eyes or the generally hungover look he adorns. Either way, it's working for me.

The modern age

andddd in a flash, the semester is over.

last day of school yesterday and it was kind of a wake-up call, realizing how fast time flies by and that after a short two weeks, i will no longer be a year 2. Saw some posts from year 4s about how depressed they felt to be leaving NUS, and was like :(( i don't wannaaaa.

but anyways, it has been a generally okay semester. not my favourite in NUS for sure. i regret staying in hostel cos i never spent much time there, but it's been a nice time listening to the strokes the whole sem, buying overpriced coffee and hanging out with my best friend more than we did last sem (hi wums)

didn't get to gig much this sem- only gig was cactus, but it's kay, hopefully there will be more next sem. (LOL just remembered i blogged before about having a one-gig-per-sem quota, and it really happened)

thanks for reading my short and pointless blog post.

and now i will rewrite it in german, cos i feel a lil sad now that german 4 is over (decided against taking german 5 cos it's 5 mcs and the workload is no fun) and idw to forget how to speak and write german entirely.

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und jetzt ist das semester vorbei.

gestern war es der letzte schultag, und ich habe gefunden, wie schnell die zeit geht. nach zwei wochen werde ich nicht mehr eine studentin im zweiten jahr sein. ich habe gesehen, einige kommentare von den studenten, die in ihrem letzten semester sind. sie haben beschrieben, wie traurig sie fühlen, nus zu belassen.

aber trotzdem war das semester insgesamt ok, obwohl das nicht mein lieblingssemester war. ich habe gewünscht, dass ich nicht im studentenwohnheim gelebt habe, denn ich habe nicht viel zeit da verbracht. aber während das semester hatte ich eine schöne zeit, die musik der strokes zuhören, kaffee kaufen, die zu teuer war, und mich mit meinem besten freundin treffen.

ich habe in diesem semester nur eine gig gespielt, und die war cactus. aber es geht, und hoffentlich gibt es mehr in dem nächsten semester.

naja, ich würde mehr schreiben, aber jetzt muss ich für meine prüfungen lernen.

herzlichen dank für eure aufmerksamkeit. bis dann, und viel glück für eure prüfungen!

A spaceman came travelling

kinda realized that for some weird reason, i have a hard time remembering what 'infinity' means. i keep seeing the words 'infinite' and 'finite' in my lecture notes and i have to think for a bit to remember which is which.

but i've figured a way. now whenever i see a question that starts with 'imagine an economy with an infinite number of time periods...' i just picture buzz lightyear declaring, "to infinity... and beyond!" (blog post title is a song and has no link to this)

and i'll be like ah ok infinite means neverending, got it.

speaking of which, time has been kind to me this sem and for some reason i feel like i've been quite free this sem? i guess excluding german which i intended to s/u right from the start, my mods this sem are all relatively light.

it is the start of week 13 tomorrow, the last week of school, and instead of being swamped with deadlines, i am here blogging after a nice spaghetti dinner with the fam and after re-watching the movie 'the proposal.' (oh my, ryan reynolds)

another 23 days to my last paper and the end of this sem, which has been quite an eventful one. i am still amazed at how fast time flies. back in secondary school and jc, the days always seemed to crawl by. maybe cos we were forced to start school so early every day? idk.

excluding my sem on exchange, i only have three semesters left in nus omg. whyyyy

kinda feels like one sem in nus goes like this:

week 1: a celebration
week 2: still a celebration
week 3: i love school
week 4: my mods look fun
week 5: oh wow that was fast
week 6: omg recess week is next week?
week 7: my mods are not fun
week 8: ugh
week 9: omg my midterm results...
week 10: i am so tired
week 11: oh yay more assignments
week 12: i think i am finally settling into the new semester
week 13: wait what
no