Middle

nights like these are long- nights when i have too many thoughts running around my head, not sad, but not happy thoughts either; they're just thoughts around events and people and the significance of things, as usual, and the contemplating usually sours things, or else i choose to shut out the thoughts entirely and go back to work

in hindsight, even though this year sped by like crazy, a lot of stuff has happened. didn't really realise how eventful this year has been, until now.

in summary, change is the only thing constant, but sometimes i think i really dislike it being so. as an infj i love having the same people around and more often than not i am perfectly content having things remain the way they are, but unfortunately life doesn't work that way.

and in an increasingly globalised, disconnected and desensitised world i sometimes struggle with nights like these where i begin to question everything all over again.

but then i remember what it's like to be endowed with all i have right now, in this current moment, and i think i learn, all over again, what it's like to simply be happy and thankful.