I'm currently listening to John Lennon's Imagine. It's a lovely song, unrealistic but deep. (Isn't it always that way?) There will always be religion, bloodshed, suffering and poverty, at least as long as mankind is around.
Well anyway,
(Ooh Mayday Parade's Anywhere But Here is on now!)
I feel like I'm wasting my holidays away. I get up at 10 or 11, and if I don't go out, I laze at home with mtv, my phone and anything tasty I find in the fridge. Then I use the laptop and blog while I listen to music, or read a book till midnight, then I sleep. Like a pig :/
Recently I've been watching a lot of I.aM.mE and Poreotics videos, and I get really depressed when I watch I.aM.mE videos, mainly because of Chachi Gonzales. I love Chachi, she's my inspiration, but it doesn't help that she's only four months younger than I am. Fifteen years old, and she's won America's Best Dance Crew and taught dance to people older than her.
And I watch her videos, and just get more depressed because I'm sitting here watching her shine onstage, which makes me feel like I've failed my life or something. I know it doesn't make sense. Plus, if there's something I really suck at, it's dancing.
So I just get into one of my sulky moods because I don't see how Chachi can be so talented and I can't. Honestly, I'm mediocre at almost everything I do, it's true.
But still, I love Chachi. Just as much as I love Moon, Jaja, Brandon, Emilio and Pacman. Gawd, the way Pacman moves should be illegal, it's like he doesn't own a single bone in that body. Nuts, I tell ya. And Moon's choreography is sick.
But back to the main topic. I'm going for an admin job interview on Monday with Jiams, Elaine and maybe Dionne... hope we get the jobs so I won't feel like I'm wasting my holiday away! Right now I'm neither a student (graduated long ago) nor a worker, so I feel like I'm not contributing to society at all, just sitting here rambling my butt away.
I wanna be useful!
BYE
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