I'm very tired of trying to choose the right thing to do and being afraid of doing the wrong thing. I want to be irrational and abandon all logic and run out and scream and cry until I can't breathe. 

I need a hug but there's no one around to give me a hug and no one who will stick around long enough. I just want to lie on the ground and sleep my worries and my frustration and my anger and my sadness away.