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Blogging cos procrastination

Really can't believe the sem is over. Done with all the presentations and assignments, and all that's left now is finals. I'm almost done with my 5th sem in NUS. Wth. I hardly feel like an adult yet and I'm gonna start working full-time in less than 2 years (hopefully)

I know I always say that each sem passes super fast, but this sem really topped it... still in disbelief that it's alr Reading Week. LOL. 

Had my last 9-hour day on Tuesday. If there's one thing I'm super happy to be saying goodbye to, it's this sem's Tuesdays. My timetable was super shiok in the sense that I managed to put everything into a 3-day work week, but the cost of that was my 9-hour odd week tuesdays. Fortunately the lecturer for my 9am class was super chill so some days I just came in late hehe

Hobo-ed at the studio both on wednesday and thursday to study. Went out to top up water at like 10pm and bumped into my eye candy 😍 we wave to each other but we've never talked before (not sure if he even knows my name LOL) As I was walking away I saw him look up and see me in the glass door reflection so I thought okay I should at least say hi... and we had a short convo yay he's so friendly and he has a nice voice too

ok nothing much to crap about alr so here's a few pictures (really just a few HAHA)

Throwback to Mayday Parade. Never been so close to the stage at a concert before hehe

Brooks looks so cute here like a small boy

Dinner and dessert a few weeks ago for a belated bday celebration for me
Went to Rangoon Road to have bkt and the soup was super peppery but the food was gooddd

I like this candid photo of DT

Looks like a Tigers Jaw album cover
Tasted pretty amazing
There was yuzu ice-cream under the duck and mango and it was pretty bomb

Expectation: Matcha filling oozes out onto the choc ice-cream below like on Instagram videos

Reality: DT accidentally breaks the biscuit and the whole matcha cake drops onto the ice-cream below

"Is she your only uni friend?"
HAHA
eternally glad to have you here in uni with me anyways :')

Oh I remember this was taken on a pretty shag day...
had a presentation just before, and my project group for this mod was super hiong...
they didn't allow me to use a script or even cue cards :(
But the prof loved our presentation, so I guess it was all worth it anyways

Had a much-needed coffee at humble after that
Plus humble expanded so much? wow
Love the new study spaces

Had an interview on Friday, then went to utown to catch my friends from the band Din's List perform
i think i'm actually quite glad that my band was outsted from the rising star competition so early.
so we didn't like go all the way to top 10 like Din's List only to not win...
does that make sense? hahaha

regardless, still an awesome performance, can't believe they didn't win
apparently the judges thought it was too heavy, which is a load of poo
plus i never would have picked the top 3 groups they picked to win...
Ben said it best
#risingshit

my project group for ec4394, my first level 4 mod
probably my favourite project group so far (but I don't think lianne agrees LOL)
cos they're quite funny and very easy to work with

While waiting to have our last tutorial of the sem yesterday

back to the grind

BYE

And now my fears, they come to me in threes

Wth is it really the last week of school?

Currently in the yih study room and the weather is so nice and cooling today I just feel like sleeping or watching a movie even though I just had coffee.

I just realised today that I never got to finish watching the movie Slacker... I always watch a little bit and then I have to go do something else or I get bored of it and just close the movie HAHA.

Same as the book A Moveable Feast by Ernest Hemingway... either I fall asleep or I give up

#hey that sounds like life

I have been very unmotivated this sem and I can think of a few reasons why.
1. After around week 5 I decided that I'm just gonna use my s/us on the 2 breadth mods I'm taking this sem. I've really no interest in biology or business; just took those mods to clear my breadth module requirements. But I feel bad for Lianne who took the biz mod with me and thus has been tanking our group assignments since I gave up..... sorry my dear friend :(
2. Since I got my internship comfirmed I feel like there's no break after my exams so there's really not much to look forward to. LOL.

And I've been looking at the snaps and insta photos from all my friends who are currently overseas / on exchange and there's really only two words to describe how it looks..... "ho mia"

CAN'T WAIT FOR MY OWN EXCHANGE

All the beautiful European scenery and cities and food and travel

Come to mama

In many ways

Just realised that I have the whole next year sorted out for me.

Exams are coming up, then I'll be having my internship, then flying off to Germany, then coming back for honours year, with only a max of 5 days break between everything.

My next "long" break is December next year, for one month, then it'll be back to school in 2018 for my final sem, and BAM I'll have graduated.

😭

Diese Welt ist schnell und hat verlernt beständig zu sein

gestern hat mein freund mich gefragt, wie er ein satz auf deutsch sprechen sollt. dann habe ich realisiert, dass ich nicht für eine lange zeit deutsch benutzen. schade!

zum teil benutze ich deutsch, weil ich jetzt in der vorlesung bin, und ich will nicht andere leute verstehen, was ich schreibe. die vorlesung ist eine biologie vorlesung, und als ich hier sitze, ich habe zu einer conclusion ankommen (ich bin zu faul, diese wörter zu translate, also hoffe ich, dass sie verstehen. aber das ist sehr ironic, weil ich glaube, sie alle sprechen wahrscheinlich kein deutsch. hehe)

sowieso finde ich diese module ziemlich schwer. ob ich habe gedacht, dass deutsch schwer war, dann jetzt nehme ich das zurück. biologie sieht zu mir wie russisch aus. ich verstehe nichts :(

und mein gruppe sind alle so focused. sehr stressig!

ja, ich sollte mehr attention bezahlen. (<-- deutsch="" nbsp="" p="" schlectes="" sehr="">
also habe ich nicht diesen text proofread. bitte ignorieren (LOl) sie die vielen fehler.

bis dann! tschüss

Middle

nights like these are long- nights when i have too many thoughts running around my head, not sad, but not happy thoughts either; they're just thoughts around events and people and the significance of things, as usual, and the contemplating usually sours things, or else i choose to shut out the thoughts entirely and go back to work

in hindsight, even though this year sped by like crazy, a lot of stuff has happened. didn't really realise how eventful this year has been, until now.

in summary, change is the only thing constant, but sometimes i think i really dislike it being so. as an infj i love having the same people around and more often than not i am perfectly content having things remain the way they are, but unfortunately life doesn't work that way.

and in an increasingly globalised, disconnected and desensitised world i sometimes struggle with nights like these where i begin to question everything all over again.

but then i remember what it's like to be endowed with all i have right now, in this current moment, and i think i learn, all over again, what it's like to simply be happy and thankful.

And this time I think you'll know

Blogging in the FASS computer lab before I do my tutorial because #procrastination


(why am I the only one making loud typing noises? this is awkward)


Week 10 has been really nice.


Sunday was Mayday Parade!!!! but extremely unfortunately, there was a hurricane in the Philippines before the show, so only 3 members of the band were able to make it on time, and we got an acoustic set instead...... :((( I was so bummed. Sure, the set was great, but an unplugged show is just not the same as a full band set when it comes to pop punk. I paid for smashing cymbals and driving basslines and solos, not the sam willows.


Unforeseen circumstances suck


But well, at least they played a lot of my favourites, so that's great. And we got to meet them after the show and get signed posters! feels bad though, that they looked so tired and all. I think they were in Singapore for less than 8 hours in total.


There was a bunch of other stuff that made the concert not as spectacular as it should've been. I don't like to be grumpy on my blog, so in summary:


1) reached the venue at 10am to start queueing because I really wanted front row. There was about 8 people in front of me then. And then at 7pm, someone came who was acquainted with the girl in front of me (I say acquainted because they didn't look like close friends), and long story short, a total of five kids just jumped queue in front of me? I was so, so mad. I would have told them to f off to the back, but the girl who reluctantly let her 'friends' cut queue was nice to me and I didn't want to put her on the spot.


But I made sure I put those damn kids on the spot, putting my bag in front of me so they had to sit outside of the queue a bit, and making sure to make eye contact with them. Best part is they got second row, centre (I was a bit to the right of them) and they didn't look enthusiastic at all?? Whenever I glanced over at them they were just stoning. Wtf kids these days.


But who cares, I had a great time singing my heart out.


2) The crowd could not sing. Half the girls behind me were just literally screeching. If you go to concerts you would know how amazing it feels when the crowd can sing, and how awful it is when they simply can't.


But anyways, on the bright side it was really nice to come into such close contact with one of my all-time favourite bands. I kept waving at the rhythm guitarist Brooks and he smiled and waved back at me -insert the happy emoji here, apparently this computer doesn't have emojis- but after a while his face was like 'okok I got it' hahahaha


And at one point I think the singer Derek was asking us how we were doing or something? And I gave a thumbs up and he smiled, pointed right at me and gave me a thumbs back. I dieded a little. He was so niceee.


The next few days was spent on school. Went to the NUS museum to do a group project on Wednesday evening where we basically had to go around and manually find the answers to the science questions we were given. Felt like primary school and prolly would've been a lot more fun if it wasn't a graded assignment.


Then I went to YIH (probably the one building that is my home outside of home #lianne will know) cos I heard there was free dinner there for all CAC members, but for some reason there apparently wasn't :((( well there were free brownies, but I'm not a sugar person.


Had to settle dinner by myself at starbucks like a lonely rich person (which I am not, I just didn't have a choice cos the YIH canteen is closed for renovation and I don't want to eat 7/11 food) and then went to the studio to watch some people jam jazz music (it sounded amazing, whenever I watch these people jam I feel so honoured to be friends with them) and then went home


Yesterday was Ad Lib! Wow I remember my own Ad Lib like it was yesterday. Back when I still actively played my Stagg, wore jeans and had to play pop songs cos we were randomly sorted into bands and my singers only sang pop.


It was really nice, like all internal gigs. Highlight of the evening was listening to Josh's band play You're Not Alone by Saosin, I was singing my ass off while standing behind N, sound engineer of the night, and halfway through he turned around and was like "wth I kept searching to see who was singing backup vocals onstage"


Oops I procrastinated for an hour (wth that passed damn fast)


Have a beer date with HJ later so I don't have much time oh no


Okay bye

And it was all yellow

here's a throwback to student life fair 2016. played drums for a gig for the very first time. so many funny things about this video LOL.

my completely blank face, which is actually just a result of me feeling super nervous inside, starting the set playing an instrument that i'm not familiar with at all.

isaac (the guy on keys who is really a drummer) kept glancing back at me, probably cos i was falling out of tempo or smth, and i totally didn't notice his not-so-subtle looks at all while i was playing cos i was so nervous ahaha.

i thought that my tempo was decent when i was playing, but now that i look back i feel like i can hear all the parts where i rushed and dragged.... hais

but regardless, in hindsight, it was still a great gig. it was something different. and i got to play with some of my closest friends in ampd. so yay.

also, was that really 9 weeks ago?? unbelievable

anyway, some updates on my life before i forget.

1) got some internship offers! was actually thinking of doing editorial work again, but i got an offer for marketing and research intern, so i thought why not. downside is that i start 3 days after my last exam though :/

2) got back 3304 midterm. when i first saw the announcement on ivle that the median was 65/80, i was like gg..... but still had to go collect my paper anyway, and i got 71, omg damn happy. but the median is still damn high i can't believe it. #uni why u so competitive

3) caught a flu bug over the weekend :( sore throat disappeared but was replaced by a cough. felt like some seriously ill person going around school and sitting in quiet lectures coughing and sniffing and coughing and sniffing, even though i actually felt quite well :(

4) mayday parade is this sunday!!! i've been looking forward to it for so long, and i can't believe it's finally really here. really hope i'll be fully recovered by then, so i can sing to my heart's content. so eggcited for a night of feelssss

5) but of course, all the profs just have to assign homework and assignments this week 🙄 shag life.

Just like a match you strike to incinerate

Hi! Back with more pictures yayyy

It's finally the end of what has been the most busy/stressful 1.5 weeks this sem. So HAPPYYY

Week 7 Monday: 

Spent one of my free days in school as usual (the irony), studying for the 3304 midterm + doing readings. 

Week 7 Tuesday: 

Skipped LSM lecture for the first time this sem, to study for the 3304 midterm. 

Week 7 Wednesday: 

3351 lecture, then rushed to mpsh for the 3304 midterm, which was easier than I expected, but after I came out I realised I made careless mistakes -___- f my life

Week 7 Thursday: 

Finally went for DSC lecture! And learnt nothing as usual. Then had 3351 tutorial, and skipped DSC tutorial for the first time cos I didn't want to go alone (Lianne made plans with her friend cos for some reason she thought we had no tutorial... i don't even know why LOL) 

Week 7 Friday: 

Had my first interview for internship, which lasted five minutes, wow. Then went to school, studied for the DSC midterm and sat for the midterm. 

Left before time was up so I could make it to catch 100 bands fest with the ampd people. Saw iman's league who were pretty much great as always, though the mix was very shitty, and some strange metalcore band, and cashew chemists 😍 if I were 15 I would have had such a huge crush on Yuji... 

Then we had supper as usual, and I got home at an unearthly hour as usual 😪 but free car ride, so not complaining. 

Week 7 Saturday: 

Attempted to do work, but I did nothing all day. I can never study at home :(

Was supposed to meet DT and Jiams for bak kut teh to celebrate my bday, but Jiams fell sick, so I dabao-ed porridge for us to her house instead and we watched Tangled together. It was so nua, but prolly my favourite thing I did all week ☺️ (aww) Hanging out with the bff is always therapeutic.

Week 7 Sunday: 

Turned 21! yayyyy. Tbh I don't feel different at all. There's been so many 21st celebrations this year that I just associated myself with being 21 instead of 20 as well. Didn't have a celebration unlike most of my friends, cos too lazy to plan LOL I think it's more effort than it's worth tbh. 

Way too lazy to dress up as well. If I had one, my theme would probably be "PJs". And then anybody who comes in anything other than seasoned baggy tshirts and fbts/pajama shorts is a liar and has to do a forfeit. muahahaha. 

Had lunch at crystal jade with the parents. So yummyyy. Good food is everything. 

Got home and.... studied for my midterm LOL #no life

But it was a really great day, feeling so loved with so many birthday messages hehe. 

Week 8 Monday: 

Had another interview. Felt sian cos the timing was very bad (2.30pm), the e-mail said there would be a 1 hour writing test, when I got there the person said it's 1.5 hours, and I took 2 hours to do it. Sat in a room that had a glass wall that was for some reason facing the main entrance, so for everyone who walked in the building, the first thing they would see was this girl sitting alone in an empty room like a prisoner, writing a test... felt like I was in detention or something srsly. 

Went home and did some work, and at night I was feeling down, so I decided to listen to a random song I like to listen to on quiet nights (hear you me by jimmy eat world) and the next recommended song was 'the middle', also by jimmy eat world, and I've never heard that so I just decided to give it a shot. 

And the lyrics were so apt for my current mood? I was pretty shocked. 

It just takes some time

Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride

Everything, everything will be just fine

Everything, everything will be alright, alright

I couldn't decide whether to take it as a sign of divine intervention, or write it off as just another song with generic lyrics... LOL 

But then again, what are the odds of picking a song that a band wrote about a girl feeling down right? 🤔

It did make me feel a lot better, though. Hahaha

Week 8 Tuesday: 

Skipped lsm lecture again to study for another midterm. Then went to the ampd mixer at night! It was really fun. Being the awkward person I am, I mostly stuck to my same old friends from ampd, but it was still funn. Had hotpot and stuffed myself with veggies (more for me cos I realised a lot of ampd people don't like veggies. Is this a thing? Maybe people who play in bands tend not to like veggies? But correlation does not imply causation 🤔 LOL. I feel like only Lianne will laugh at this.) 

And it was awesome cos Mark DJ-ed, and he and i have almost the exact same taste in music so i just spent most of the night fangirling over old songs and singing along to them. (mcr, all time low, pierce the veil, red jumpsuit apparatus... we joked that it was Emo Night)

And then some people left to catch other ampd people performing at clarke quay, others went back to the studio to jam and eat supper, and I.... went home cos I had midterm the next day. 

Week 8 Wednesday (today):

FINALLY DONE WITH MIDTERMS. Woohoooo. Only had 3 this sem actually, but I think I felt stressed and rushed the whole week cos I had to prepare and travel for interviews as well. 

Also had another interview after school today, which made my whole week, cos I got it on the spot ☺️ the work environment seems nice, the office is small and pretty and for some reason almost everyone there was ang moh. My interviewer was a super duper chio french lady who looked like she should have been a supermodel instead. (dunno if it's professional to say this stuff on my blog but LOL) 

But I'm really glad I got the offer cos I was looking forward to getting this one. 

And now... pictures

My fuel

Been writing stuff again recently hehe hope to put them to good use someday

I think this was 2 weeks ago? Was feeling sleepy at lsm lecture so I went to buy coffee from platypus.
Whenever I decide to give food a second chance, I always regret it -__-
Tasted bad as always. But it was also super strong, I could actually feel the moment it started kicking in.
Was totally alert after that LOL

Making beer in lsm lecture

My band for the rising star competition! sadly we didnt get in :( but it was fun getting to know them

totally LOL-ed

There was a period of time when I went to church as a child.
These memes seriously brought back memories when I saw them LOL

and when your christian friends bring you to their church

studied in school most of recess week (i think?)

my birthday balloon was supposed to last 1 week but it lasted 3 weeks :')

@ Divika's 21st last saturday!

We were her only Chinese friends aside from 2 other girls.
So that means 6 of us in her house of 40 Indian family and friends.
Felt a lil awkward and wondered if that was what its like to be the minority haha

WQ said it himself: "omg I never thought I would see a girl so ugly in my life"

Ampd made stickers wow.
Damn pretty and I want to buy, but $2 each :/
Spot me hehe

my favourite pasar malam food hehe
 

Ampd hotpot! Spot me again
#creepin

While coming home today after I finally got an internship offer LOL

Oops couldn't decide which one to post

I was totally triggered by this nuswhispers post.... what's wrong with wearing tshirt shorts slippers to sch??
OP confirm freshie i tell you.

Okay bye

But they're weird and they're wonderful

#convo of the day

mum: "so, for your birthday i'll just give you my diamond earrings okay?"

me: "oh..." (cos i would have preferred an ang pao)

mum: "not cheap ok. i bought them many many many years ago, for $500."

me: "wow. you only bought one pair ah?" (cos i have 3 piercings)

mum: "ya...... how would i know at the time that my daughter would have 3 piercings??"

LOL idk if you find it funny but i do HAHA

getting home early on a weekday and having dinner with my mama is always nice 😌

Pepper

Updates on my life

was sitting around in school this morning and realised... holy mama it's week 7 already. :/

#where does the time go

recess week is over oh my.

spent the first half of it nursing a flu and throat infection, spammed lozenges and water and managed to recover midweek.

finally got around to applying for internships and i have three interviews in the next two weeks, i really hope i get at least one of them.

gonna be a busy two weeks with these interviews plus midterms 😔

but... seeing mayday parade at the end of week 9 YAYYY

i can't waittttttttt

Because you live

At costa coffee now attempting to study... but how to study when they're playing a jesse mccartney playlist?! 

#nostalgia

#i cant believe i still rmb every word

#i dont think i signed the consent form for this feels trip

Straight to video

wow i am posting photos waow is this real life

was listening to mindless self indulgence for the first time in many years on the train to school and i can't believe i used to listen to stuff like that... weird hahaha

i realised that i don't really blog about my friends in uni (basically amp'd people) even though they're prolly the ones i've been spending the most time with for the past 1 year+... so i went to find recent photos i can post. but... don't have. HAHA

the past 2 weeks or so have been hectic, mainly cos of that level 4 mod. lecturer arranged a make-up lecture at 6-9pm last night, so that meant we had to do double the readings in preparation, and also my group did our presentation last night, so we had a lot of meetings the past week. 

also had a couple of friends flying off last week, as you will see in the following pics. 

some friends of mine and i (maggie asked me to play bass for her band, 'the wild card') also joined a competition held by nus ohs, called the rising star, and now we are in top 45! 

however we thought we didn't get in until the last day we had to reply the e-mail, when i asked maggie to double confirm, and she found out the congratulatory e-mail got sent to another account instead. so long story short, we're in!

but because we found out so last min, we only had time for one jam...... LOL. but i think we sound pretty good tbh. 30% of judging criteria depends on voting, so dear reader, yes YOU, pls vote if i share the video on fb!!

top 10 finalists get some really, really attractive cash prizes... thats why im so kiasu. 

okay here are some highlights of my life from the past 6 weeks 

(omg has it really been 6 weeks since sch started) 

Rag performance, week 0

just look at that insane crowd

i also regret wearing those culottes... i look like an ahma

a beautiful picture of SLF performance, week 1

we all agreed it was the first and last time we switched instruments for a gig...

it was damn leh ceh.

and as you can see, our guitars were all high af to accommodate HJ (the tiny girl far left)...

we looked like the beatles

a random pic of din and my pretty bass, auditions, week 2

the first time i had to journey back to the east with isaac, i was like oh no. 

cos we were not close at all and the ride home is like 1.5h

but here we are, many journeys-to-the-east and many ameens suppers later...

this is him having one of his epic food comas

my deer friend lianne

for whom i'm extremely thankful for to have by my side in uni :')

farewell party for lum + bryan and my surprise bday @ marina barrage

overpriced yoogane dinner with L and T

celebrated ahnia's birthday that night ☺️

cos she was gonna fly off to UK

coincidentally, today is her actual birthday!

(HAPPY 21ST MY DEAREST FRIEND)

love you

1 + 1 = 2

ah nia flew off :( 

my first humble cup, in week 5.

this must be a new record!

i usually drink a lot of humble but this sem, somehow i have friends to attend classes with for like almost every class, and i'm always scared that i'll have coffee breath so i haven't been drinking coffee LOL.

but it was soo good omg

the only bad thing about humble is service is really bad/slow...

bryan's turn to fly off

took individual photos with him but they were quite bad...

weiqiang was the photographer

so here's a funny photo

okay byebye hahahahax

I was elated, I was divided

The song of my 2014 summer. (or was it 2015?)

so damn good, but so obscure i can't even find lyrics for it on google, so i just have to resort to guessing what he's singing about...

That's an ending that I can't write

helloooo

it's the beginning of week 4 and i am starting to feel the heat... 

just when i thought heavy mod times (german) were over, i had to go and take a level 4 mod... it's interesting la really. just that the hours of preparation were listed as 7.5 per week, but i feel it's more like 10+ hours. 

the biology mod is also like... wut. i have no interest in biology at all and all these big foreign words and terminology are just putting me off :/

dsc is quite easy so far but i've heard bell curve is freaking steep (although that's what everybody says about easy mods) 

apparently they used to teach dsc to both biz majors and people from other faculties taking it as breadth, but they had to separate biz majors from the other people because a lot of science and engin kids were taking the mod and owning the biz majors...... lOL

i think i'm just gonna focus on my econs mods since i can't s/u them. 

so much for pulling my cap this sem hais

coming back to school really makes me wish i was on sep instead

other than my mods, life has been great

yesterday i went to a gathering with the jc kids at marina barrage, it was supposed to be a farewell party for lum and bryan who are going overseas, but when i got there i realised it was also a surprise bday party for me awwww was very touched although i think my poker face did not give away much :< 

stuffed ourselves with food and played some games haha

everything was great except for the location. sitting in the humid outdoors made us all sweat like cray and by 6pm we were all dead from the sun and ready to go home. hahaha. 

i also got a balloon hehe i think it's the first time i've received a balloon in like 13 years? 

it's funny how when you're a small kid you love balloons, then once you hit 9 or 10 you shun them because you're all grown up now and don't want to look childish, and when you're a young adult suddenly you're getting balloons again for your birthday haha

but the balloon was really very pretty, it had smaller balloons in it that were my favourite colours (blue and green and white) ☺️ #i think i love balloons again

now that the guys are in year 1 and the girls are in year 3, it's the period for sending people overseas. 

et has gone off to sweden, tania is going to scotland, lum is going to tw and bryan is going to study somewhere near london. waow. going to miss all of you :( 

okay back to the grind... BYE

Where have you been?

I love this whole album (Get Born) from JET.

It starts off very lively with 3 fast songs, then it simmers down a lil with Look What You've Done, and then from there it's 1 fast song, 2 slow songs, 2 fast songs, 1 slow song, 1 fast song, and 2 slow songs, including the last song on the album, Timothy.

I always wondered what this song meant, and apparently it's about a band member's older brother who died as a child. :(

This is a really slow song but I kinda just realised how amazing the instrumentation is. The reverb, and echoey sounds, and the keyboard riff in the background that sounds like a spaceship... wow. I always wondered why the song sounded so spacey and I just realised today it was cos of that riff.

And such simple yet powerful lyrics... it kinda sounds like Julian Casablancas, now that I think of it. Both in terms of songwriting and vocals. Although Julian's voice would probably be muffled and much less prominent in the mix as compared to the rest of the instruments...

Only fools rush in

it's official... i'm a year 3 😭

half of my uni life has flown by. i have had soo much fun in uni and i really dw it to end :(

i'm starting my 5th semester in nus tomorrow omg. feels like just yesterday when lianne and i were taking sociology together. (that was in our first sem) 

my mods this sem don't look very fun, but i think it's still better than last sem's. i have to clear 2 breadth mods this sem, and i chose lsm1301 and dsc1007x. both sound boring to me but i can think of worse mods out there, so i shall count my blessings. 

i'm also taking my first level 4 mod this sem- behavioural economics. i hope it's kind to me. 

on the bright side... i got everything for 1 point each! wow. and also, three-day work week!!! so happy hehe. 

welp. nothing much else to say. i guess i'm quite excited for the new sem. excited to watch auditions for the cca, and excited to see how the new sem goes. 

this summer break has been eventful yet fun, with summer sch, the baybeats experience, dinners and beers with friends, more hanging out at the clubroom, some spring cleaning for my room, attempts to learn to cook my own meals, and many many gig practices. (i still feel like i've done so much yet so little over the past 3 months) 

Like a river flows

Updates on my life cos im boliao (wow im gonna miss being boliao when school starts which is in 12 DAYS HOLY)

nothing much happened last week- was busy with the last week of summer school. somehow all the assignments are due in the last week. there was a 50% group project, 10% group assignment and 20% individual essay all due in the same week 🙄 but yay im finally done with my summer module, couldn't be happier.

saturday:
had slf jam in the afternoon. i think we have improved by leaps and bounds :') i'm less of a potato at the guitar now.

sunday:
house got painted so the whole family had to retreat to the balcony. went to do work at a cafe at simpang with jiams later. huge cup of coffee for 5 bucks, yum.

monday:
handed in my last assignment for summer sch!! (i asked for an extension hahaha)
had rag jam in the evening. somehow a lot of other people were also in the clubroom/studio for various reasons, so after our jam we all went to eat at ameens tgt. then 3 of us got a ride back to the east yayyy

tuesday:
weirdest thing ever happened to me!

went out early and to one of my hangout spots at paya lebar. it was kinda crowded so i asked a lady in office wear if i could sit at the table next to hers.

and then both of us stared at each other.

she said first "you look very familiar..." and i said "ya you too!" but neither of us could remember where we'd seen each other. sat there for a few very very awkward moments (her face had turned red LOL), she asked what school/workplace and i said NUS and she said she worked nearby.

-more awkward silence-

and then i realised and i said "OMG youre my cousin!" and she looked at me, shocked, and said "what?"

and then she realised as well and we both laughed awkwardly.

she was the daughter of my estranged uncle, and i've only seen her twice in my life before.

my goodness, imagine meeting your own cousin in public and not recognising them. so paiseh for both of us!! but it was also super funny and weird.

if our families had not reunited recently, i would have sat down next to this lady without knowing she was my own cousin. wow...

so anyway, she had to rush off to work soon after that, and i left the place at about 3pm.

had beer at the usual place with hj at night. it was the most intoxicated i've gotten in ages. though i definitely wasn't drunk.

we decided to be adventurous and shared 2 jugs, so that's actually one 1.5 litre jug each. felt a little woozy but still fine, talked and walked normally and got home safe, but then i conked out on the sofa hahahaha

i remember i kept trying to reply texts but the next thing i knew i would be waking up from sleep. it was quite funny

wednesday:
woke up at 12 noon today hehe. the potato life is such a good life. kinda sad it's ending soon.

basically lazed at home the whole day. had lunch, went to collect my bass amp back from friend's gf who i lent it to, watched cat videos and listened to haley reinhart, had dinner with mum, watched some kdrama with her, then back to the laptop.

what a lifee

Human

i hardly comment on current affairs, especially on a platform where i try to keep things light-hearted, like my blog, but i feel like i really have some things to say too about the recent NUS sexualised orientation camps saga. 

i love my university. it's given me so many amazing opportunities that i am super thankful for. not many people in the world get to grow up and study in a university as safe and ideal as NUS, and i realise that. my time in NUS so far has been nothing short of wonderful, so it really hit the feels when tnp wrote this article that seems to be insinuating that NUS culture is not as vibrant and wholesome as it seems. 

1. if you don't like it, don't go. it doesn't take a lot of time and effort to ask around and do your research about camps. and it's common knowledge that arts camp is probably the most lup sup camp in NUS. i signed up for arts o week camp back in 2014, and i actually got in, but after a bit of consideration, i decided not to go. i didn't feel like i would fit in and resonate well with arts camp culture, so i just turned it down. simple as that. 

if you do go, and you decide to sit out when they play the lup sup games, be proud of your decision. you just decided to adhere to your moral standards and put your own comfort first by choosing not to give in to peer pressure, and that's an admirable thing to do. don't sit out, then worry if people are talking about and judging you behind your back, and then rant about it to an influential local newspaper. 

if you're worried you won't be able to find any uni friends if you don't go for arts camp, then don't worry cos your worries are completely unfounded. there are faculty camps, sports clubs, arts and other interest groups, halls and colleges of residence, even academic society groups. there are a thousand and one other ways for you to find friends in NUS, there's no need for you to go to that one camp that makes you uncomfortable. 

in short, know what you signed up for, and be smart about it. 

2. irresponsible reporting has been a hot trend in the media of late, but i think this article really took the cake. what does tnp hope to achieve by painting NUS in such a bad light? if it's to evoke strong negative public reaction and generate a hoo-ha so as to gain more readership, then i guess they've achieved their goal. 

reporting was done based on the views of 2 students, and everything seems to be centred on the events at only one camp in NUS. this is generalisation at its finest. the article was completely biased, which is really sad seeing as it's tnp, one of the more influential papers in singapore. 

by focusing on all the nasty stuff that's been going on in one NUS camp and highlighting the experiences of two students who did not have a good time, while completely ignoring any other contradictory positive viewpoint, tnp gave the average naive singaporean reader the impression that every student in NUS must be a bad nut with no sense of morality, and NUS is not doing anything about it. 

3. of course, this allowed many people to jump on the i-knew-it, kids-these-days-are-up-to-no-good bandwagon. every generation loves to judge and bitch about the next one. i myself am guilty of it. 

readers expressed horror at the falling moral standards of youth today. older NUS alumni were disgusted at what's become of the students of their beloved alma mater. other folks questioned the purpose of awarding prestigious degrees to such poorly-behaved youth with no sound character. 

it hurts to see NUS and its students being bashed like that on social media, when i know we are so much better than that. singaporeans love controversy. the country's pride and joy, NUS, breeding insensitive, morally unsound brats with no class? wow, what a juicy piece of meat for everyone who hates the 'strawberry generation'. 

but at the end of the day, nobody is really benefitting from poor reporting. 

Three cheers for five years

Disclaimer: this post is all about Mayday Parade


want to quote some lyrics, but idk whether to quote verse, chorus or bridge cos everything is so feeeeeels

i didn't know this song back in 2014, so when they came and played in singapore, i was more of a huge fan of jamie all over, kids in love and jersey. (miserable at best and stay are not really my favourites from mp, but it's really nice to sing along to, so i liked when they played those too)

but now i keep listening to this song over and over. it's so well-written. that emotional buildup towards the bridge, and then the pretty much bittersweet ending verse at the end.

for some reason this is also the mp song that reminds me most of the concert back in 2014.

i loooove concerts. there is always this feeling of affinity with your fellow concert-goers, even if you've never met them before it feels like you're at least acquainted somehow, because you both forked out 80 bucks to come and see the same band, so that prolly says something about how much you like them.

i can't remember exactly when i started listening to mayday parade. i think it was 2012. sometimes i can't believe it's gonna be my second time seeing them this year. i was 18 when i first saw them and i'm gonna be 21 when i see them again. how cool is that?

the other day i was doing some spring cleaning in my room, a couple of days after baybeats, and i found a postcard that i got during cashew chemists' set at baybeats 2012. a stack of them was being passed around the crowd for free.

i think i have the photo somewhere on my facebook

ta-da!

(took me forever to find cos i kept getting distracted by all the photos)

but really though. has it really been 4 years? wow

Raised in Carolina, she says

• hello! 
• the past week has been really fun and eventful. but also tiring cos i had to travel to school every day. 
• lemme recap the past week so i can procrastinate on my assignments
• Monday: had really bad cramps and a terrible headache, so i skipped class. but still had to go to school in the evening anyway for slf band jam. this gig is prolly the most fun gig i've ever had in nus. not only am i doing it with close friends, we're also switching instruments! i'm playing guitar, keys, drums- everything except my own instrument. hopefully we don't turn out too fail. i'm especially nervous for drums cos it's gonna be so obvious if i make a mistake. 
• Tuesday: went to school to work on a group assignment for summer school. was quite fun
• Wednesday: went to school and didn't know what to have for lunch, so i decided to try 'butter my buns', that new cafe at utown. seriously, everytime i decide to try something new i regret it. it was crowded everywhere in utown due to lunch hour, but when i stepped into 'butter my buns' there were about five people there. decided to go ahead and order anyways despite the obvious lack of rave, and it was soo bad. the portobello mushrooms tasted like ... almost gagged. potato salad was not the creamy kind at aston's, it was literally some greens with pieces of potato. LOL. even the mac n cheese was okay-ish. paid 7.5 for the food and it wasn't even filling. but the coffee was pretty decent. tasted like humble origins' coffee. will probably never go to butter my buns again for food.... maybe just coffee. 
• anyway, even though i was alr in school, i decided to skip class..... hahahaha. went to the studio to hang (i think the studio is by far my number 1 hangout in nus) and read my slides, and encountered a couple of drummer friends who were changing drum skins, i think. at 5p: m we got hungry so 4 of us went to wah chee for zi char. yummm. hadn't had zi char in a while. 
• Thursday: slf band jam again, this time at 11am-2pm. reached the studio at 10.30am to practice, and whatsapped "is everyone awake?" to which one of them replied "huh don't like that leh, does that mean you just woke up?" and i was like no la. but turns out he was the only other person who was awake... LOL. another 2 people woke up past 11 and joined us much later, while the last one never made it. 
• but i got a ride home from a fellow eastie so it's okay. went to saizeriya by myself for dinner. it was like 4+, so there was no crowd, and a waiter came and chatted me up 😭 the reason i eat alone almost all the time is cos i don't like talking while im eating... and im too lazy to go into detail, but he was also quite weird
• Friday: lecturer sent out an email that we're not allowed to skip today's class cos there was group evaluation, so i had to go. picked the wrong day to wear slippers cos it rained cats and dogs, and the floor at utown was super slippery. despite walking super carefully and slowly, i slipped three times omg. it was so scary. 
• lecture was quite interesting, but i got super hungry towards the end and prayed hard my stomach wouldn't growl. went to hwangs and ate ramen which is basically maggi mee, then felt guilty so i walked to yih. weather was really nice for a walk anyway. 
• had rag jam in the evening which i thought was really productive for a second jam. yayyy. 
• okay time to do assignments

byee

My secrets for a buck

• took this selfie a few days ago, wanted to blog with it since i haven't updated with any photos for about two eons now. it's to show you guys i'm still blogging and haven't been replaced by a robot. 
• took it 15 min after waking up, hence the tired face haha
• listening to brand new and uploading photo booth selfies really makes me think of the jc / a level break days. i used to blog so often in jc haha. and i rmb how completely carefree i felt after i quit my job and did nothing for two months while waiting for uni to start. 
• all i did every day was wake up early, drink tea, blog, drink coffee, read a book, listen to brand new, rhcp and tigers jaw, sleep, repeat. 
• life has been good- just came back from prata with wums and her bf (hi wums!). 
• had a mini pizza party with the baybeats team this morning and was glad to hear baybeats may not be the end of our stint. hopefully there'll be fun stuff coming up. really enjoyed this whole process, getting an insider look at music journalism. it never occured to me that there was even such a field until i watched almost famous. 
• getting complimented by the st music correspondent on my 'flair for writing' was also the highlight of my day. very touched to receive praise from someone who's been in the scene for so many years. 
• school starts in a month and i'm pretty excited, finally embarking on a semester where i'm not being burdened by compulsory german (don't get me wrong i loved german but it was just such a heavy mod, with at least one vocab test/assignment/exam every week and all). 
• at the same time i also have to up my cap game, after the disastrous last sem. still can't get over what a baaad decision it was to take IO. worst mod ever. plus after this sem i only have honours mods left to do in nus and it can only go downhill from there. 
• speaking of sch, changing landscapes was also another bad decision. it is so impossibly fluffy. should have taken a nice factual mod from science or something for summer school. but ah wells. 

time to sleep bye bye

Twenty ways to start a fight

• Da jia hao
• It's a nice saturday afternoon and I'm bumming around at home, kinda. Saw that the module listing for this year is out on myaces and excitedly went to look at modules. For some reason I'm always super excited to plan timetables. I think it's fun, don't you?? 
• but then i saw that one of the mods i wanted to take clashes with a core mod, and then it wasn't so fun anymore. 
• can't believe it's my fifth time planning my timetable. -cries- more than halfway through my uni life already. 
• life has been great, the past week was pretty busy because i went for all 3 days of baybeats. it was soooo fun! tbh the foreign bands didn't really stand out for me. but i heard Unclose (JP) was great, sadly i didn't catch them. i thought koji was amazeballs, but not many other people seem to be raving about them, maybe they're not as appealing as disco hue or cashew chemists. (but i must admit eugene is really charming, reminds me of alex turner with that velvety i-will-sing-blues-love-songs-to-you-over-the-phone voice.) another band that really did it for me was the summer state, that amount of energy was insane. 
• wednesday was cac camp finale night gig, the crowd wasn't very high despite the gig being at zouk, but one of the dance cac groups (was it funkstyles?) showed some love by dancing to our music which was nice :') a few hiccups here and there during the day, but it was all good. 
• sometimes i think we're really at a huge disadvantage compared to other cac groups. dance and acapella groups are so much more popular with concert planners because there is practically no logistics involved- all you need is a simple PA system to blast trendy pop songs. with amplified, there's expensive, bulky equipment, transportation costs and manpower costs for the shifting, plus all the equipment also takes up precious space backstage. not to mention our equipment is not only burden-some to the gig producers, it also costs a bomb to rent. and to add icing to the cake, edm music and dance items are all the rage now. the general youth population doesn't really listen to good bands anymore, it's all kpop groups and flashy moves and fleshy moves and synth and electronic beats. 
• sometimes i feel bad for some of my friends in the club, they're trying so hard and it's not really their fault that amplified isn't that big. just gotta admit that we're really suay, and about as trendy right now as bell-bottomed jeans are. 
• and on an unrelated note, the cac camp estrella comm really sucked? nobody was there to supervise us or tell us where to go, what we could do during the entire afternoon, except for the logs guys who were really nice and helpful. the whole day, we (the cac groups + logs guys) carried everything over and set up everything ourselves, rehearsed and soundchecked ourselves and prepared for the gig ourselves. we had no idea who was in charge or where they were. it almost felt like we were running our own gig at zouk. best part is when someone contacted a comm member to ask why nobody was there, the reply was "i expected better from the performers," meaning that we should have known how to do everything ourselves and we shouldn't need anyone from the comm there with us. makes me mad all over again just thinking about that horrible attitude. just because they signed up for this one-time camp comm thing it doesn't mean they can behave like that? i sure hope they feel good about themselves writing about how much they contributed to this event in their resumes. 
• haha ok didn't intend to elaborate on the hiccups. but ah well. 

off to surf youtube, bye bye