I really really wanna get a job. Bored to death these days. Applied for a few jobs already and only one place responded :( went for the interview today with wums, hope they hire me! If not we'll be back to square one.

I'll be posting pictures from Morocco. This is Day 1, Day 2 and Day 3, according to the tour itinerary. Flew from Changi Airport to Dubai Airport to Mohamed V Airport at Casablanca, Morocco. Day 3 was a rest day for us to get adjusted to the 8-hour time difference. Spent the night in Casablanca, and in the afternoon we drove to the city Rabat.

The Dubai Airport is really quite nice, I think it's one of the top airports in the world. But it's humongous and on the way back when we were all weary and rushing for our last flight it proved quite exhausting running around the airport.

Cause I've been retracing the steps that we took

1. Back from Morocco!!!!! It was... -flips dictionary for a good word- -can't find any- erm really really good?? Would've added another 'really' if not for the food there. Atrocious. But yup the trip was awesome. Feeling a little nostalgic for it :( the day after i came home, I started researching on trips to places like South Africa and East Africa LOL really wanna see more of the continent! Will blog more about Morocco next post. 

2. Currently at starbucks. I always decide to give their drinks + CBTL's drinks "just one more try" but they always end up disappointing me "just one more time" so. Last drink! 😡 I don't know why these coffee chains are so popular. There's a hundred and one neighbourhood cafes with much better coffee and tea than them. 

3. Got new earphones. I wish they still sold the Panasonic ones, they were sooooo good. The bass was crazy, even with the right ear spoilt the left was still enough to make me feel like I'm in paradise when I listen to Give It Lift Off. So I bought Phillips again, packaging said "Dynamic bass" and "extra bass sound" but it's still quite shit compared to my old Panasonic ones. Maybe I should've tried Sony instead. 

4. I got Tumblr finally! My friends who have Tumblr have been telling me to get it. And I was so not disappointed omg it is a haven for me. I followed 37 random users like I literally just searched "bands" and followed the first 37 who popped up and all the gifs and cool stuff and quotes and amazing pictures omg. I cannot. 

5. I am so very excited for Mayday Parade coming next year AHHHHHH 

My Understandings

I don't mind it
I don't mind it if you're overrated
Or if you're staring at the edge of the world
But keep in mind that I'm a sore eye with blurry vision
But I can see it has to be your love that I've been dreaming of
And if we climb this high, I swear we'll never die
I'll never die


Gonna shower soon then head off with my mom for the airport! So stoked!!

I am gonna miss Singapore food. And my very lovely friends :'( Downloaded a bunch of songs just now. I now have 631 songs in my phone to keep me company on the plane and on the bus. Starting to get into Of Mice & Men. I can't get enough of Shayley and Austin's voices together, two of the most beautiful voices I've ever heard gosh why did you have to leave OM&M, Shayley? :(

This is my last post for the next 13 days. I don't have much to say actually haha.

Ok bye! Wish me a safe trip

Pictures from the 28th! 

Department of Caffeine

The Marshmallow Tree

Strangers' Reunion

Sentosa

I'll burn your name into my throat, I'll be the fire that'll catch you

Listening to Caraphernelia acoustic. Again. It's so perfect. Ugh

Feeling bored for the first time in a very, very long while. I just knew I'd miss studying. Haha. I miss classes and learning new stuff though of course I don't miss the exams part. Hated exams. (who doesn't?)

Went to Bryan's house yesterday with Shijia and Jiachen and it was pretty fail we only spent the last 10min doing covers haha but it was still fun we played stacko and I was grand champ -peace sign- ok I actually narrowly avoided losing but still.

I feel like deleting Facebook, I don't really use it anymore and I would've deleted it long ago if not for the pictures but the happy pictures make me sad when I think of how I can't ever go back to those times so well. I don't know. Life's good without Twitter, though. Don't regret deleting that

Also bought two new albums yesterday, I kind of regret it just a little because I realise the Linkin Park album, Recharged, is actually just remixes of other artistes' work. And I'm definitely not a fan of electronic stuff. Like I don't hate it but I don't particularly like it either.

Haven't really listened to the other one though. It's Appeal To Reason by Rise Against. Hopefully I'll like it. There's Hero of War and Savior in it so it can't be that bad, right?

Nothing much else to blog about. I watched The Family online just now. It's good! Michelle Pfeiffer's acting definitely stood out for me.

Flying off to Morocco tomorrow! Won't be back until the 15th, so I won't be blogging till then. They don't have wi-fi in a lot of places there anyway.

Heh heh I can't wait! First ever trip to Africa

Cafes

Went out with Melons on the 28th to cafe-hunt! It's so weird to think that I've been anticipating that day since forever and now it's over. As are overr!!! Haha

We first went to Department of Caffeine at Tanjong Pagar, then The Marshmallow Tree at Telok Blangah, then Strangers' Reunion which was kind of near The Marshmallow Tree (Google says it's situated at Kampong Bahru road).

We got a sticky date pudding, waffle with strawberry ripple ice-cream, jasmine tea and a warm cafe latte at D.O.C, then some strawberry sponge cake thingy, meringue cake, some chocolate-coffee cake thing and an earl grey tea latte at Marshmallow Tree. At our last stop we had a yogurt pudding with granola, iced mocha and something called magic coffee, it was the first thing on the menu so I guess it's their specialty.

I think my favourite was D.O.C (yay cause I picked it) because the food there was good and they weren't stingy with the portions. It was a little crowded though, and we kind of got funny looks because everyone else there were mostly adults in their working clothes from the nearby shops and offices. Also wanna try the other drinks there sometime.

The Marshmallow Tree's food was okay-ish but they had a very nice ambience. Strangers' Reunion was my least favourite haha the pudding wasn't fantastic and the Magic Coffee just tasted like black coffee. But the mocha was decent.

Then we headed to Sentosa! Had overpriced chicken rice for dinner and went to Candylicious, then got ice-cream. We talked about 1F'08 ah how I miss those times. Easily one of the best years of my life. #nostalgia

On our way to the beach we saw the Luge and decided to give it a shot. Omg the ride up was terrifying to me. I never knew I was scared of heights haha. Well that adds to the list.

Et and I were holding hands tightly the whole ride. The Luge ride down was fun!! Would've been more fun if I wasn't wearing a white dress though haha (It was melons' gift to me and they said I had to wear it on the 28th)

At the beach we had a h2ht. And we saw fireworks! Pretty, but a waste of money, especially if it's true that they have fireworks every night at sentosa!

Dt's parents fetched her from vivo, and the rest of us were on our way home when Jiams and Yy noticed some banglas looking creepily at us, and they were actually smiling. I made eye contact with one of them and he just stared right at me smiling, didn't even look away! Even worse, they were taking pictures of us. Not just one or two, but a lot.

We alighted at the next stop (thank God they didn't try to follow us) and took the next train. I was a little scared then because I've never experienced something like that and ended up deciding to crash at Jiams' house haha. Anyway my fear was valid because I would've been the last one to alight from the train.

So girls be safe! If you know you're going home late make sure to dress ugly.

Ok bye

They're gonna file me under latest nostalgia

Oops it's laterally inverted but well, it's just a little thing I pasted on my bookshelf a long time back and when I first put it up it said "To start: 72 days. To end: 91 days." And now it says "To start: - days. To end: 1 days." I can't stop marveling at how fast time flew. Feels like just yesterday when I put it up. 

POST-AS.

1. Go to cafes to read books (instead of mug for once) 

2. Spend a day wasting my life away on youtube

3. Have tea while listening to all my albums

4. Go jamming 

5. MAYDAY FREAKING PARADE CONCERT OMFG.

6. Brush up on my guitar and bass, start playing piano again, learn drums

7. Travel to the west

Wums and I also made up a short list today that includes running to ECP, going to sentosa to lepak, cycling at Ubin etc. 

Today was my last day of going out to mug and it feels so weird but... a good kind of weird. 

Also, I was looking through my notes and like, wow, I don't need these anymore. But I couldn't bear to throw them in the recyling bag. All the chem notes I spent hours pondering over and that were so, so, so very important to me before, and all the econs notes furiously written during econs tutorials, and math, my favourite subject... how can I throw all of you away just like that? HAHA it sounds so weird but it's true. Emotionally attached to all these papers. 

I don't really have definite plans for tomorrow after school, actually. I'm just looking forward to going home after I'm done doing whatever's the conventional definition of fun tomorrow after the paper and watching tv with a cup of milo in hand. 

Buh-bye! Last paper!!! 

But who's to tell us?

Stare at the stars

Slowly inhale

Lies brought on

The past tense is now

Can you feel it?

Exhale with the thought of letting go of rivalry

Soon it will be pure again

So collapse your eyes

Collide those lips with mine

Let your feet leave the earth

And float away 

No idea what the lyrics are about but the song makes me think of warmth in wintertime, dreams and large empty fields with overgrown weeds that have a peaceful touch to them. 

Eighteen months have passed / Dead flowers grow from my chest

HELLOOOOOO NIHAO KONICHIWA (racking my brains for more greetings but actually I think that's all I have well so much for being a globalized citizen)

Listening to Machines Are Taking Over, the full album by Covette. Again. I ship this album so hard. How can anything be this perfect? Shayley Bourget's beautiful vocals, both clean and unclean, and the heaviness of the bass, and the drums played so perfectly and the quiet guitar licks in the background. Post-hardcore at its finest. Love it

Left with just Physics Paper 1! They seriously weren't kidding when they said A levels would pass really fast. Can't believe it's just less than 2 days to freedom. 45 hours to freedom, to be exact. It's so scary. I used to hate routines and love uncertainty but I think I'm growing old because now that the future is so uncertain I don't like it.

What do I want to do with my life? What? Wish I had an answer.

But I'm really excited when I think of what's to come in the next 8 months. Flying off to Morocco in just 8 days! Omg it's my first time stepping foot in Africa, I'm so stoked!! Finally going somewhere out of my continent! (other than aussie) Then it'll be nearly Christmas by the time I come back, and I have six or seven months to waste away hehehehehe

I think I entered my holiday mood after the Econs paper last thursday. I screwed up my paper 1 on monday really, really bad, like I was really writing rubbish and the feeling of knowing you're just sitting there screwing up an A level paper is just so awful. It was definitely the worst paper for me. So I got really stressed and pia-ed the next few days. Was totally banking on Globalisation and trade and they came out on macro goals and policies -__- Well of course I'm glad they weren't super tough questions but still. Makes me feel like all those life-draining brain-numbing 3-hour extra consultations we had were in vain. Oh well. Just glad it's all over. Studying econs was a nightmare. Haha

Went to town with L and T after that, and it was a really tiring but fun time. I don't remember what I did on Friday. I think I stayed home. Then I went to town again on Saturday with Jiams to mug, and to town again again with Lianne on Sunday.

Today's chem paper 1 was thankfully do-able. Managed to finish everything omg first time!!

Hope the paper 1 on wednesday has mercy on me so I won't get too ugly a grade for physics.

Bye!!! (I feel like the only person who's really enthusiastic for the end of As. Everyone else around me seems to be just like meh)

SUP PEANUTS OMG THIS IS IT GUYS 20 DAYS TO FREEDOMMMM (SINGS FREEDOM BY GEORGE MICHAEL)

GOOD LUCK TO EVERYBODY TAKING AS! I CANNOT WAIT FOR ANOTHER 3 WEEKS

Sugar, we're goin' down swinging

I'M GOIN' ON A HIATUS.

Sorry everyone. Don't miss me too much aight. The next five weeks are probably gonna be the five longest of my life so far. But I will make it! Five weeks will come, and five weeks will go, in just 182 blinks of an eye! 

Weather's starting to turn chilly and usually this is the time when I start to get all the Christmas songs from this CD that my dad plays every Christmas stuck in my head. One of my all-time favourites is December Will Be Magic Again by Kate Bush. 

Gotta love Christmas. It's a time of hot chocolate, green, red and silver everywhere, thick sweaters, water heaters and cosy cafes. 

So here's when I decided to heck chem for a while, and... chem-whore. (sorry couldn't resist) 

Love yall. Happy Halloween in advance! 

Who are you now

It's been a great day. 

Had our last ever assembly in the morning, then class bonding time for an hour. Ms Wong took the time to tell us our strengths which was really random but funny. 

I'm really grateful for a teacher like her because she really cares about us and you can really see how dedicated she is. Like I've had nice and great teachers before but no one's actually walked the extra extra mile like she did (yes I typed extra twice) and she's always telling us that character is a lot more important than grades. So yeah. Definitely gonna miss her. And all our other very quirky subject teachers, J1 teachers included. 

Honestly I have to admit I'm not proud of my school and I don't think I'll ever be, but you can't change things and I've come to terms with it, after a little less than two years of being here. It's not so bad, the food's ok haha and the teachers are actually really good, well at least mine were, lucky me. I have a lot of acquaintances and friends in the school but I'm not close to most of them, but I guess it'll be sad not getting to see the same familiar friendly faces every day. 

I remember when I first came in and I was so miserable about my lot that I managed to dragged myself to the school for the first day, then skipped the rest of orientation. I can't really remember what I did but I think I spent the few days being depressed about the whole idea of going to a school I never thought I would end up in for the next two years. 

Then we got our class allocations and 12S16 turned out to be a really fun class with good people in it, so it's ok. J1 was a great year, honestly. I don't think I've worked and played so hard in any other year. 

So yesh, I've graduated from junior college. Kind of hard to believe it. Like, time really, really flies. I feel so old all of a sudden. Feels like just yesterday when we were exchanging numbers on the first day of school in sec1.

I just came home a few hours ago from my run with Jiams (had prata and iced milo yumz) so I'm super tired. Also, the weather is terrible and I am craving some tauhuay. 

Time stands still

Tiring day.

As long as there's econs in it, it's a tiring day. 

I realise I got Ds for econs and gp which are both arts subjects and the only arts I take. Haha. Really not an arts person. 

So in total I had two hours of chem, two hours of physics and 4.5 hours of econs today. Is that enough to excuse me from any more studying tonight? :( 

Most important fact of the day is that tonight (okay maybe right now) is BMTH's concert in Singapore at the Coliseum, the exact same venue I caught All Time Low at. I totally regret choosing not to go for it. Like if I'd planned for it a month ago when tickets were just out then if I could rewind time I would go but now that I know that there's still tickets left I don't want to, because it's too last-minute :( 

But thing is a month ago I imagined myself studying really hard for As which are in 3 weeks from now so I thought I probably shouldn't go for the concert and now I realise I can actually go for it because I probably won't be doing anymore work tonight. What a waste. The feeling sucks. I is really sad. 

Oh and Christine met BMTH at the Starbucks she was studying at like what the hell how is anyone that lucky? She's not even as big a fan as I am (HAHA I'm sorry Christine do know that I still love you), this is injustice I demand a rewind of time so I can like skip school and actually be right there waiting to tackle them once they set foot in that Starbucks. 

Life is horrible :(((( And no one in school was there to feel my pain. I know like three people who listen to them and they were all classes and schools away. 

Well, thank God for Youtube. I hope people actually upload some videos. 

(edit)
Omg tomorrow is the last day of official school. I think I'm... 25% sad and 75% happy?
If you think deeper, it's our last day of school as a student attached to an institution. Last day of school in a uniform, baggy and awkward as some people's (mine) might be...
Last day of being in a classroom with a bunch of familiar, standard (and bored) faces.
Last day of being an official TPJ student. Can't say I'm terribly upset about that, though. (sorry not sorry)
(/edit)

Coffee

Hi again.

Graduation is this friday. That is way too soon. That means two days left of school since tomorrow is a public holiday, then two weeks of study break, three weeks of A levels and then bam. My JC life is over, just like that. I'll be free to do all my favourite things to do- play basketball, write, read, sketch, go jamming, listen to music, youtube, travel... omg just the thought of it makes me feel like jumping up and doing a happy dance.

Still undecided on if I want to work after As. But I want to take up drumming so I'll probably have to get a job. And I definitely need extra cash to spend. Ahhhhhhh. Eggcited.

Also, I still don't know what I want to study / want to be in the future. Someone told me today that she's going to do badly and if she does, she'll enlist in the army. Haha what.

Six weeks guys. We got this.

BMTH

Bring Me The Horizon is coming to Singapore and I'm not going. 

Bring Me The Horizon is coming to Singapore and I'm not going.

Bring Me The Horizon is coming to Singapore and I'm not going.

Bring Me The Horizon is coming to Singapore and I'm not going.

Bring Me The Horizon is coming to Singapore and I'm not going. 

And my words are as timed as the beating in my chest

My blog stats have suddenly shot up. It's really weird. Either someone's stalking me, or I've suddenly become net-popular in the past week. I think the former's more likely. I think the stalker might be the professional stalker Jiams.

I am really tired so I don't have the energy to mug (just came back from our friday run) but I still have like 5% left for a little blog post.

Let's start with where I last updated. Ok so we had school on wednesday. Oh I remember now, it was the horrible day. Had chem where I was just doing physics for the whole one and a half hours, and then we had break, then econs. Econs tutorials always drain the life out of me. I don't remember much from econs tutorials except furiously taking down notes while Ms wong goes like a bullet.

After another short break we had physics. Then a few of us had compulsory econs consultation and that was my least favourite part of the day because we had a surprise econs case study to complete in exam time and my brain was already dying so I just dawdled and wrote really little and I felt really dumb while ms wong went through the answers because I couldn't follow and everyone was answering her questions and whenever it got to me I would just freeze and she'd be like "I'll get back to you" and I'd just shrivel up a little more every time.

Thursday was better, fortunately. We had econs and math and everything ended at 12.30pm. Went home and played guitar and again procrastinated. So yeahh there's my past few days in a nutshell.

I'm really poofed. Eyes are half-closed haha good night my little pumpkins (That reminds me, Halloween's just around the corner ooh)

Life is what happens while you're busy making your excuses

1. My spirit animal is Cameron Hurley.

2. I sometimes think it might be possible for me to have an emotional breakdown during an econs exam.

3. I have had tea (caffeine) today and later received news that school will end at 5.30pm tomorrow. I will be a walking, talking zombie by the end of the next day.

4. I'm on a self-ground rule till the end of As. Please don't ask me out guys (and girls). Okok kidding, I meant that on a 'everyone' basis.

5. Oh and friday evening runs with wums are an exception. (Haha wums sounds like a dog here. In case you're new here, she's my human best friend)

6. I am full of nonsense tonight.

7. Half of the reason why I'm blogging is I don't want to study econs just yet :( #procrastination

8. As you can probably tell already, I'm going through a hate phase with econs right now. Hopefully it'll pass.

9. Okok I'll leave now goodbye

The summer was full of mistakes we wouldn't learn from

Hi

Out of my house and at Tamp's CBTL because I forgot my auntie was coming over and she talks a lot so I can't concentrate. Chose the wrong day to skip school. 

I was reading econs and nothing seems to be going in so I'm doing physics instead. Been feeling really hopeless for econs and then I got a text from Sj saying I have 70+ RPs and I'm top but we haven't gotten back econs so far so maybe they received the papers today which means I may not have done as badly for econs prelims as I feared! Yay but of course it could be a typo on her part or something hahaha if it is im gonna kill her

Ok physics time goodbye

(apologise for all the really short posts lately) 

Watching, waiting, commiserating

Hello wello yellow

Been really unproductive these past few days. I keep going out and procrastinating and surfing the Net.

33 days to As and 52 till the end. Omg where does the time go?

Haha sorry I think my blog's really boring these days but I really don't have a life anymore hahaha. Can't wait for another 52 days. It feels so surreal, like... 52 days. That's basically in no time at all.

Ermmmmm.

I have nothing else to say, actually. Maybe I'll go on a hiatus soon :(

Oh yes, do leave a comment. I'm really curious as to who reads my blog. Haha. I have about 800 views a month and I know about 5 or 6 people who read my blog, tops. Assuming they check up on me every day, that's a whopping 150 views from them. Who are all the other 650? Hm

Came a time when every starfall brought you to tears again

Well guys, this is it. My last hour of being seventeen. What is air?

Nothing much to say, really. I can't believe I'm actually going to be legal in just one hour.

18. Legal. Now where's the fun in that?

Hmmmm. Seventeen was a good year. I think most of it was spent on school and work actually, haha. Like I honestly can't remember the last time I just went out shopping or to catch a movie without all my books and without any intention of mugging (aside from those couple of days we take as breaks after every major exam period).

I had more sleepovers in this year than I ever had in my entire life, went jamming more than I ever had my entire life, plucked up the guts to perform onstage, made new friends and lost a lot of friends and became more independent and (hopefully) more mature. Heh heh.

I got drunk for the first time ever (interesting experience) and I guess overall, I had fun this year. Of course all the real fun will begin after A levels, but right now... I think I can safely say it's been a great year.

But I don't wanna turn 18 nooooooo like seriously it sounds so uncool to be 18. Btw in the US, youngsters can move out and get jobs once they turn 18. And look what we're doing now haha. I feel so baby-ed as a Singaporean but I guess it's sort of a good thing. Honestly I'm not very proud of my culture, but what I can do? I'm just glad I was born into a really safe and small country and most importantly, I've people who love and care for me.

Anyway, I'm kind of digressing.

Oh ya, do you ever wonder who actually reads your blog? Like I was looking at my stats and realised they've kind of increased. 100+ reads from Singapore alone, in just one week. Where are all you creepy stalkers coming from?! Who knows, maybe I have an old teacher reading my blog or a distant relative like a cousin or a second cousin secretly checking up on me every day.

Ooh that reminds me, I think I've told this story before on here but once in sec3 or sec4 when we were in the music room for music class, I saw our teacher had some Internet explorer tabs open and one of them had my then-blog title, which was Skylines and Turnstiles. And I was just about to blurt out, "Omg Mrs Sng you've been listening to My Chemical Romance??" when I saw the Blogger icon up there next to the title and I realised it was MY BLOG.

I completely freaked out hahaha. And was like "Mrs Sng, WHY are you stalking me?" And she was like "oh... oops haha" -Awkward moment-

Shit, this is it, really. Last hour. And IM GONNA SPEND IT........... doing a math paper.

Bye and good night! x